Veroa
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I feel like I have been dealing with pain my whole life and I honestly feel like I never got a fair chance. Ever since I was young I always felt different from everyone else because of the way I looked. I hated looking in the mirror because I felt like I was ugly and that everyone around me noticed it. In school I was bullied because of my appearance and people made me feel like I was worth less than everyone else. It slowly ruined the way I saw myself and made me feel like I was never going to be accepted.
My childhood was also really hard because my parents were not there for me the way they should have been. I had to grow up moving between different foster homes and it never really felt like I had a real family. A lot of the time I felt unwanted and like people judged me before they even knew me. I felt like my looks were the reason people treated me badly and it made me hate myself even more.
On top of everything I have a rare genetic condition called myoclonus-dystonia syndrome, which causes my muscles to randomly spasm and tense up during the day. It makes me feel even more different and makes normal life harder than it already is. I feel like I have spent my whole life fighting things I never asked for, and I just wish I was given the same chance at life that other people got.
After years of being treated badly, feeling alone, and feeling like nothing ever gets better, I started to spiral into depression. I feel exhausted from everything I have gone through and sometimes I feel like I can’t handle it anymore. I just wanted a normal life, to feel accepted, and to not feel like I was always being punished for things I couldn’t control.
I have decided to end my life tomorrow, now don't say something like ''permanent fix to a temporary problem'' because it feels like since conception I have been god's play-toy and I will no longer put up with this.
My childhood was also really hard because my parents were not there for me the way they should have been. I had to grow up moving between different foster homes and it never really felt like I had a real family. A lot of the time I felt unwanted and like people judged me before they even knew me. I felt like my looks were the reason people treated me badly and it made me hate myself even more.
On top of everything I have a rare genetic condition called myoclonus-dystonia syndrome, which causes my muscles to randomly spasm and tense up during the day. It makes me feel even more different and makes normal life harder than it already is. I feel like I have spent my whole life fighting things I never asked for, and I just wish I was given the same chance at life that other people got.
After years of being treated badly, feeling alone, and feeling like nothing ever gets better, I started to spiral into depression. I feel exhausted from everything I have gone through and sometimes I feel like I can’t handle it anymore. I just wanted a normal life, to feel accepted, and to not feel like I was always being punished for things I couldn’t control.
I have decided to end my life tomorrow, now don't say something like ''permanent fix to a temporary problem'' because it feels like since conception I have been god's play-toy and I will no longer put up with this.
