Im the black sheep of my family

[batman1997]

 

[batman1997]

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[batman1997]

 

[einzigartig]

isn't that good

 

[batman1997]

isn't that good

It is but i lift with all the trauma on my shoulders

 

[einzigartig]

It is but i lift with all the trauma on my shoulders

why trauma why is that linked to black sheep

 

[batman1997]

why trauma why is that linked to black sheep

Because you Carry all the generational curses your family holds and you live everything bad luck trauma neglect etc.

 

[Alias!]

I’m the odd one out , I just never fit in . I must be the outcast . Ahh

 

[batman1997]

why trauma why is that linked to black sheep

Basically your the cycle breaker

 

[BadLuck7892]

I'm the only member of my immediate family who voted Trump in 2024.

Even if we branch out to grandparents, my 2 living grandparents are liberal.

 

[Alias!]

@batman1997
No troll if your serious hope it gets better for you .

Keep your head up

 

[batman1997]

@batman1997
No troll if your serious hope it gets better for you .

Keep your head up

Its better now but i used to be at a point in killing myself because of all this i couldnt take It anymore suicide IS still on my Mind though.

 

[batman1997]

@batman1997
No troll if your serious hope it gets better for you .

Keep your head up

Ive been through so much pain due to this i feel like crying typing this

 

[Alias!]

Its better now but i used to be at a point in killing myself because of all this i couldnt take It anymore suicide IS still on my Mind though.

Just know it’s not your fault man .

I know suicidal thoughts are hard to try your best to enjoy your hobbies / copes .

And stay away from people that make you seem like a black sheep .

Good luck man

 

[batman1997]

Just know it’s not your fault man .

I know suicidal thoughts are hard to try your best to enjoy your hobbies / copes .

And stay away from people that make you seem like a black sheep .

Good luck man

Thanks Bro crying right now

 

[Alias!]

Ive been through so much pain due to this i feel like crying typing this

If you have to cry man just cry . You’ve been strong .

Put your mental health first always. And it doesn’t make you weak to cry.

It’s powerful to show vulnerability.

 

[batman1997]

If you have to cry man just cry . You’ve been strong .

Put your mental health first always. And it doesn’t make you weak to cry.

It’s powerful to show vulnerability.

Im actually at the Edge of crying typing im just holding my tears

 

[Alias!]

Im actually at the Edge of crying typing im just holding my tears

How i see if this society doesn’t care about men and there emotions .

If you don’t care about your emotions then who will.

As long as your not hurting anyone it shouldn’t be a problem.

 

[batman1997]

How i see if this society doesn’t care about men and there emotions .

If you don’t care about your emotions then who will.

As long as your not hurting anyone it shouldn’t be a problem.

I suffer from severe anxiety from all this weight i have on my shoulders

 

[batman1997]

How i see if this society doesn’t care about men and there emotions .

If you don’t care about your emotions then who will.

As long as your not hurting anyone it shouldn’t be a problem.

And also sleep problems i have nightmare every night

 

[Stranger to myself]

Sigma rizzgod from the corporate skyscrapers of ohio

 

[Alias!]

And also sleep problems i have nightmare every night

Yeah that sucks the nightmares can be from either trauma or emotional distress.

All you can do is try to regulate your nerves system .

Ik it’s not just an easy thing .

Also do you take melatonin?

 

[batman1997]

Yeah that sucks the nightmares can be from either trauma or emotional distress.

All you can do is try to regulate your nerves system .

Ik it’s not just an easy thing .

Also do you take melatonin?

No I should do I but I take prozac 1mg at night before bed time and I also listen to a nervous system meditation at night to calm It helps alot I leave It on all night..

 

[Alias!]

I suffer from severe anxiety from all this weight i have on my shoulders

I don’t know exactly what circumstances your going thru but .

If anxiety is your problem . Your best bet is to stay in the present as much as possible .

If it feels like a disorder, you should consult your doctor

 

[Alias!]

No I should do I but I take prozac 1mg at night before bed time and I also listen to a nervous system meditation at night to calm It helps alot I leave It on all night..

Yeah the meditation is a good start to help calm down .

I don’t know much about Prozac are there any side effects?

 

[batman1997]

I don’t know exactly what circumstances your going thru but .

If anxiety is your problem . Your best bet is to stay in the present as much as possible .

If it feels like a disorder, you should consult your doctor

Sometimes I wish I kms i dont know when this torment Will end and I hate carrying this weight that isnt even mine to Carry i didn't choose this..

 

[batman1997]

Yeah the meditation is a good start to help calm down .

I don’t know much about Prozac are there any side effects?

No I have no side effects

 

[Alias!]

Sometimes I wish I kms i dont know when this torment Will end and I hate carrying this weight that isnt even mine to Carry i didn't choose this..

Sad to hear . I don’t really know what to say because your right you didn’t choose this.

If there is just one thing you enjoy in this life .

That can make your life worth living i would try to do it everyday to keep your mind off these thoughts.

 

[batman1997]

Sad to hear . I don’t really know what to say because your right you didn’t choose this.

If there is just one thing you enjoy in this life .

That can make your life worth living i would try to do it everyday to keep your mind off these thoughts.

I try to set boundaries with my dad but i just can't this Guy dislikes me Who wouldn't known right? He raised me and now its like im a curse my mother on the other hand loves me but my dad always hated me

 

[Alias!]

I try to set boundaries with my dad but i just can't this Guy dislikes me Who wouldn't known right? He raised me and now its like im a curse my mother on the other hand loves me but my dad always hated me

Some people are just dicks . Has your father ever given you a reason why ?

Also if he can’t accept boundaries he most likely not gonna change . You will just have to no contact or stay away from him as much as possible


Just try to spend more time with your mother. Everybody needs love and support

 

[batman1997]

Some people are just dicks . Has your father ever given you a reason why ?

Also if he can’t accept boundaries he most likely not gonna change . You will just have to no contact or stay away from him as much as possible


Just try to spend more time with your mother. Everybody needs love and support

He hates me because Hes a narcisist he cares only about him only he used to tell me I was retarded and would constantly tell me I was adopted to make me feel bad about myself.

 

[Alias!]

He hates me because Hes a narcisist he cares only about him only he used to tell me I was retarded and would constantly tell me I was adopted to make me feel bad about myself.

Yeah he’s just an energy vampire. You have to no contact for your mental health.

It’s not your fault your dad couldn’t treat you well .

I know it’s hard but I wouldn’t take it to heart.

 

[batman1997]

Yeah he’s just an energy vampire. You have to no contact for your mental health.

It’s not your fault your dad couldn’t treat you well .

I know it’s hard but I wouldn’t take it to heart.

The thing is even If i wanted to have no Contact i can't he lives close to my House and I tired sitting boundaries but It doesnt work he keeps on mentally abusing me and im getting tired of this shit from him im getting to the point in hitting him badly nonstop because its like im reaching my limit..

 

[Alias!]

The thing is even If i wanted to have no Contact i can't he lives close to my House and I tired sitting boundaries but It doesnt work he keeps on mentally abusing me and im getting tired of this shit from him im getting to the point in hitting him badly nonstop because its like im reaching my limit..

Your feeling of violence is natural , you can only take to so much as a human .

If he’s not leaving you alone and is harassing you constantly. I’m not for violence.

But your father is make it the only option. Abuse is unacceptable

 

[batman1997]

Your feeling of violence is natural , you can only take to so much as a human .

If he’s not leaving you alone and is harassing you constantly. I’m not for violence.

But your father is make it the only option. Abuse is unacceptable

I dont wanna hurt him but Hes leaving me with no choice if I dont do something about It he Will keep on abusing me

 

[batman1997]

Your feeling of violence is natural , you can only take to so much as a human .

If he’s not leaving you alone and is harassing you constantly. I’m not for violence.

But your father is make it the only option. Abuse is unacceptable

Hes one the reasons while I feel stuck in Life because I never had a father figure to guide me

 

[Alias!]

I dont wanna hurt him but Hes leaving me with no choice if I dont do something about It he Will keep on abusing me

Yeah I wouldn’t blame yourself if you have to .
Realistically it will keep happening. I seen people beat up their parents for something less then this .

You have to stop the abuse by any means

 

[Alias!]

Hes one the reasons while I feel stuck in Life because I never had a father figure to guide me

I can relate to no guidance. Most parents are not eligible to be parents .

As long as you try to improve your life and learn new things . You can put all responsibility on your father failing you .

From what I read so far . You have to do something fast or your mental will worsen.

Just think hard about it tonight and how you will move forward

 

[copercel123]

Me too. Sucks tbh.

 

[Alias!]

Me too. Sucks tbh.

All we can do is keep moving forward . From what I seen in your text . You’re a person that is willing to change if necessary.

Good luck In life. I believe you can do it