Changmentum
Northeast Asian
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Crazy how my life is 1/4-1/5 over, depending on how lucky I get. It's surreal that I'm not going to be a teenager anymore, nor simply just a carefree kid that enjoyed playing baseball, and soccer. 2020 still feels like yesterday. I was only 14 at the time, simply trying to get out of my Zoom class and watch Among Us videos. All the fun moments I spent with my friends in high school (even if I wasn't naturally popular), meant so much to me and I wish I could go back. There was so much that I have left unfinished in my teenage years. Whether that be unfinished projects, or friendships. Heck, I could've done a lot better in school (and probably been a valedictorian), if I really wanted to maximize my years at school. Instead, I spent my high school years unambitious and directionless, doing enough to get into a semi-decent college (but nothing special like an Ivy League school). I wish I could go back and fix that, but I can't. Worst of all is that I still feel mentally sixteen. I still don't know if my behavior and the overall way I present myself is appropriate for someone my age. While I see people my age at school finding a sense of solidarity and community with likeminded kin, I have yet to discover where I belong. All of these thoughts are a bit overbearing to handle, amidst the inevitability that I'm gonna be in my early 20s.
