In a way if it is over before it began it is more calming

[cornflakes666]

I mean more calming in the way that I never have to worry about competing (probably because I am never even considered for qualifying) once you get over the sadness of not being able to be in race it is somewhat relaxing because not much effort is needed because you don’t need to maintain something isn’t gonna see (as in hygiene) so you don’t need to advertise yourself like others and you get to have more free time for actual fun things like walking outside, enjoying the sun, cooking, cleaning after cooking and other nice mundane things.

 

[primal_shitmuncher]

The way I see it is this:

I'm going to lose the game eventually to a genetically blessed person IRL, even if I hardmax.

It's more embarrassing to lose the game if you try than it is to lose the game without trying at all.

So I don't try and I lose, which I'm comfortable enough with as I barely go outside, meaning I barely participate in the game anyway.

So if it's over without me even trying, it is calming rather than me trying and realizing it's over.

 

[cornflakes666]

The way I see it is this:

I'm going to lose the game eventually to a genetically blessed person IRL, even if I hardmax.

It's more embarrassing to lose the game if you try than it is to lose the game without trying at all.

So I don't try and I lose, which I'm comfortable enough with as I barely go outside, meaning I barely participate in the game anyway.

Well said, I personally have stopped trying to be appealing to the opposite sex or to really make connections with new people because they end up seeing things like my posts on like tiktok which like makes them move away or I just do it myself so like they probably think I am like a mass shooter in the making (they as in my classmates/peers)

 

[primal_shitmuncher]

Well said, I personally have stopped trying to be appealing to the opposite sex or to really make connections with new people because they end up seeing things like my posts on like tiktok which like makes them move away or I just do it myself so like they probably think I am like a mass shooter in the making (they as in my classmates/peers)

What do you post/say or do that makes them think things like that?

You seem chill to me so far

 

[cornflakes666]

What do you post/say or do that makes them think things like that?

You seem chill to me so far

I do have certain interests that might make people think that way like firearms and homemade ones and I occasionally overshare and look like a weirdo I did have multiple like quick spurts in time where I was feeling edgy and just posted like cryptic stuff when I feel like doing it, in general what I post on say my snap chat story tiktok or any other platform are usually random thoughts that just pop into my head and I just post them without thinking

 

[primal_shitmuncher]

I do have certain interests that might make people think that way like firearms and homemade ones and I occasionally overshare and look like a weirdo

I'm not into firearms, but I have a weird infatuation with stories that talk about rape and incest.

The way I see it it's not weird at all, I usually end up oversharing to this one guy I know who thinks its weird though.

I'm not into either of those things, I just find reading fiction about them fascinating.

I did have multiple like quick spurts in time where I was feeling edgy and just posted like cryptic stuff when I feel like doing it, in general what I post on say my snap chat story tiktok or any other platform are usually random thoughts that just pop into my head and I just post them without thinking

Same, I do end up thinking weird things, but I'd describe it like 12 year old locker room humor mixed with taking it too far, and when I'm comfortable around people I let those 'jokes' (I feel like they're jokes, whereas others don't) slip and they're usually disgusted.

I know it's off-putting and weird, yet I can't stop myself from saying them

 

[Prøphet]

I don’t think I’ll ever be able to accept not being in the race. That acceptance is the polar opposite of the human will to power and indomitable spirit life force that governs you. Some things can never be truly accepted, only coped with.

 

[cornflakes666]

I don’t think I’ll ever be able to accept not being in the race. That acceptance is the polar opposite of the human will to power and indomitable spirit life force that governs you. Some things can never be truly accepted, only coped with.

I’ve kinda felt and noticed that since I was in elementary school that girls never had crushes on me or admired me in anyway and now that I am older I understand why I had a lot of female friends when I was young so since a young age I kinda just understood it was never in the cards for me to have a woman love me . I also have done slowly but surely more social isolation and meditation (I am not Buddhist but reaching a state of nirvana or similar would be nice) has allowed me to mentally advance to accepting that I am mostly not that loveable

 

[Prøphet]

I’ve kinda felt and noticed that since I was in elementary school that girls never had crushes on me or admired me in anyway and now that I am older I understand why I had a lot of female friends when I was young so since a young age I kinda just understood it was never in the cards for me to have a woman love me . I also have done slowly but surely more social isolation and meditation (I am not Buddhist but reaching a state of nirvana or similar would be nice) has allowed me to mentally advance to accepting that I am mostly not that loveable

Same I really try but it always feels more like I’m lying to myself than actually accepting how things are. Like everything I do is to convince myself things are ok, rather than feeling an authentic sense of accepting fate.

 

[cornflakes666]

I'm not into firearms, but I have a weird infatuation with stories that talk about rape and incest.

The way I see it it's not weird at all, I usually end up oversharing to this one guy I know who thinks its weird though.

I'm not into either of those things, I just find reading fiction about them fascinating.




Same, I do end up thinking weird things, but I'd describe it like 12 year old locker room humor mixed with taking it too far, and when I'm comfortable around people I let those 'jokes' (I feel like they're jokes, whereas others don't) slip and they're usually disgusted.

I know it's off-putting and weird, yet I can't stop myself from saying them

I have had similar experiences today while I was in my class my teacher said “people of the revolution” and she explained that people say this because we are living after the industrial revolution and I said “like Ted Kaczynski” and she and other students were confused other that some random dude who sits next to me who understood

 

[cornflakes666]

Same I really try but it always feels more like I’m lying to myself than actually accepting how things are. Like everything I do is to convince myself things are ok, rather than feeling an authentic sense of accepting fate.

I am pretty sure I haven’t even really accepted it in my heart because to get myself to my current state of acceptance I did have to do behaviours that people around me found worrying (isolating myself and being quiet in my room for hours meditating) which put seeds of doubt in me if I was truly advancing or just mentally retarding myself into thinking I am becoming truly at a state of being in the current instead of the past or present which I am not sure how it looks from another perspective

 

[cornflakes666]

I'm not into firearms, but I have a weird infatuation with stories that talk about rape and incest.

I am a lil similar to that too because it I am feeling depraved enough on that day I’ll just beat my shit to like cnc or like family love stuff

 

[primal_shitmuncher]

I have had similar experiences today while I was in my class my teacher said “people of the revolution” and she explained that people say this because we are living after the industrial revolution and I said “like Ted Kaczynski” and she and other students were confused other that some random dude who sits next to me who understood

How fast I caught that unabomber ref.

I only know him cuz of the Wendigoon video. I watch those for funsies sometimes.

Another kid once referred to him and I was the only one who understood who he was talking about.

I am a lil similar to that too because it I am feeling depraved enough on that day I’ll just beat my shit to like cnc or like family love stuff

I think I've jerked to that occasionally before.

I don't really feel a sexual attraction to it, more so an interest.

The times I jerked I still wasn't into it, it was just hentai with really good art so I pretended I didn't know what they were doin n js looked at tiddies

 

[cornflakes666]

How fast I caught that unabomber ref.

I only know him cuz of the Wendigoon video. I watch those for funsies sometimes.

Another kid once referred to him and I was the only one who understood who he was talking about.



I think I've jerked to that occasionally before.

I don't really feel a sexual attraction to it, more so an interest.

The times I jerked I still wasn't into it, it was just hentai with really good art so I pretended I didn't know what they were doin n js looked at tiddies

quick question if you are located in Canada I think your in my geo class

 

[cornflakes666]

How fast I caught that unabomber ref.

I only know him cuz of the Wendigoon video. I watch those for funsies sometimes.

Another kid once referred to him and I was the only one who understood who he was talking about.



I think I've jerked to that occasionally before.

I don't really feel a sexual attraction to it, more so an interest.

The times I jerked I still wasn't into it, it was just hentai with really good art so I pretended I didn't know what they were doin n js looked at tiddies

I prefer real stuff mostly because I started with hentai and animated works and also it is mostly Russian woman because abused woman speaking in Russian is very hot

 

[primal_shitmuncher]

I prefer real stuff mostly because I started with hentai and animated works and also it is mostly Russian woman because abused woman speaking in Russian is very hot

To each their own.

I tried to learn russian once, I gave up because the Cyrillian alphabet is the ultimate ragebait.

Do you watch like mindbreak content where the woman's initially against it then gets into it or do you watch her just hate the abuse throughout and fight?

 

[topology]

It's easier to drown in sorrow than improve.

 

[cornflakes666]

To each their own.

I tried to learn russian once, I gave up because the Cyrillian alphabet is the ultimate ragebait.

Do you watch like mindbreak content where the woman's initially against it then gets into it or do you watch her just hate the abuse throughout and fight?

I like it when it is more a submissive woman trying to get it over with it and try to not get the person mad but they still get like slapped around

 

[cornflakes666]

It's easier to drown in sorrow than improve.

I am not really drowning in sorrow

 

[primal_shitmuncher]

I like it when it is more a submissive woman trying to get it over with it and try to not get the person mad but they still get like slapped around

So they don't want it but they're too submissive to show it, and just suck up and take it? Interestin

quick question if you are located in Canada I think your in my geo class

JFL I live in Ontario, CA, but I haven't taken a single geo class.

Also the dude I talked to was skipping class and I was on a spare class

Imagine if you were though

 

[cornflakes666]

I like it when it is more a submissive woman trying to get it over with it and try to not get the person mad but they still get like slapped around

That is harder to find what I described tho so like it mostly just the person fighting back unless I have a conscious that day and decide I want to go for a lighter one (example of a lighter one would be like Belle Delphine’s forest video)

 

[cornflakes666]

So they don't want it but they're too submissive to show it, and just suck up and take it? Interestin




JFL I live in Ontario, CA, but I haven't taken a single geo class.

Also the dude I talked to was skipping class and I was on a spare class

Imagine if you were though

Why is bro in my province this dude is prob from Milton and like swims in Kelso every summer

 

[ykls.]

Its only calming for a short time

 

[cornflakes666]

So they don't want it but they're too submissive to show it, and just suck up and take it? Interestin

Yeah mostly because I do that a lot where if someone is annoying me or being rude I’ll just take it until they shut up

 

[topology]

I am not really drowning in sorrow

It extends to what you said about it "being over."

 

[cornflakes666]

Its only calming for a short time

For me I got to that conclusion I got to by disconnecting from others and meditating for extended periods of time the goal was to reach a state of nirvana or similar (state of nirvana is a Buddhist belief of being in a perfect state of like harmony and peace being liberated from all suffering) and I did achieve similar for a week until I had to interact with others for an extended period for a school project

 

[primal_shitmuncher]

Why is bro in my province this dude is prob from Milton and like swims in Kelso every summer

Lmfao I live like 5 hours away from Milton + idek what Kelso is (never taken a geography class + i'm an immigrant who only been here two years )

That is harder to find what I described tho so like it mostly just the person fighting back unless I have a conscious that day and decide I want to go for a lighter one (example of a lighter one would be like Belle Delphine’s forest video)

Just looked up the forst vid, ain't even that extreme imo.

Yeah mostly because I do that a lot where if someone is annoying me or being rude I’ll just take it until they shut up

I do the same but idt I get off to that.

What I did goon to when I gooned to rape was a comic called 'Discipline' by ratatat47.

It was pretty cooked, but I skipped past the dialogue bits and pretended I didn't know what was going on n js looked at the pics lmfao

 

[cornflakes666]

Lmfao I live like 5 hours away from Milton + idek what Kelso is (never taken a geography class + i'm an immigrant who only been here two years )



Just looked up the forst vid, ain't even that extreme imo.



I do the same but idt I get off to that.

What I did goon to when I gooned to rape was a comic called 'Discipline' by ratatat47.

It was pretty cooked, but I skipped past the dialogue bits and pretended I didn't know what was going on n js looked at the pics lmfao

I forgot the artists name but the comic was like named “return to darkness” and as soon as I saw a child I lowkey wanted to like start cutting my wrists (I genuinely didn’t goon for a week I was disgusted)

 

[jc0]

There was a guard stationed on the outer wall of a crumbling castle. Cold rain fell every night, soaking through his armor, numbing his hands until he could barely feel the spear he held. Years passed like that. Miserable, but steady. He learned to endure it.

One night, a noble passing through saw him shivering and took pity. He brought the guard inside—warm fire, dry clothes, hot food. For the first time in years, the guard slept without pain.

In the morning, he was sent back to his post.

The rain hadn’t changed. The cold hadn’t changed. But the guard had. Now he knew what warmth felt like. And standing there in the storm, he realized something brutal:

He could endure the cold.
He couldn’t endure losing the warmth.

 

[cornflakes666]

Just looked up the forst vid, ain't even that extreme imo.

Ik it is like a something I only goon too if I actually start feeling bad for the girls I gooning to previously because she really isn’t being like actually hit like that

 

[cornflakes666]

he realized something brutal:

He could endure the cold.
He couldn’t endure losing the warmth.

I didn’t even know what you were saying for like 2 seconds than I read it yeah this applies very well and it is very well said

 

[primal_shitmuncher]

I forgot the artists name but the comic was like named “return to darkness” and as soon as I saw a child I lowkey wanted to like start cutting my wrists (I genuinely didn’t goon for a week I was disgusted)

How bad could that shit be dude

Discipline (one I gooned to a few times) is about some kid's mom getting raped by his bullies in front of him

Thankfully I haven't gone back to it in a while (though I feel urges).

Ik it is like a something I only goon too if I actually start feeling bad for the girls I gooning to previously because she really isn’t being like actually hit like that

How often do you even feel bad?

Do you see gooning to that vid as like a cleansing thing where it 'rights' the 'wrongs' of getting off to the extreme shit you got off to earlier?

Like ik you don't usually see the content you usually get off to as 'wrong'.

But when you feel bad for the girls that'd probably throw your usual taste into a negative light, which is what I mean.

 

[cornflakes666]

How bad could that shit be dude

Discipline (one I gooned to a few times) is about some kid's mom getting raped by his bullies in front of him

Thankfully I haven't gone back to it in a while (though I feel urges).


How often do you even feel bad?

Do you see gooning to that vid as like a cleansing thing where it 'rights' the 'wrongs' of getting off to the extreme shit you got off to earlier?

Like ik you don't usually see the content you usually get off to as 'wrong'.

But when you feel bad for the girls that'd probably throw your usual taste into a negative light, which is what I mean.

Because I do view it as a cleansing because I really don’t think about the past that much anymore like if I make a bad decision in the past I don’t dwell on it but seeing someone in a none enjoyable pan like I don’t really think putting random stuff up her ass and than pulling said stuff out is that enjoyable once like stupid stuff starts getting up there
Cuz like sometimes you can tell it is scripted
which isn’t nice but like at least I know that it isn’t real rape because I do have some downloaded content on devices so like that can get me into legal trouble I am guessing and as I said before sometimes I ‘have a conscience’ about my actions

 

[cornflakes666]

How often do you even feel bad?

Only if the video shifts from hot pain to just inflicting unnecessary harm (like almost damaging reproductive organs like stuffing glass objects (not like glass dildos bottles) and like shaking it around like don’t they see a risk in breaking it instead of her

 

[cornflakes666]

How bad could that shit be dude

HORRIBLE I tried going deeper down the rabbit hole but like kids were fucking adults and kids even if drawn is where I draw the line

 

[primal_shitmuncher]

Because I do view it as a cleansing because I really don’t think about the past that much anymore like if I make a bad decision in the past I don’t dwell on it but seeing someone in a none enjoyable pan like I don’t really think putting random stuff up her ass and than pulling said stuff out is that enjoyable once like stupid stuff starts getting up there

Oh I see.

Cuz like sometimes you can tell it is scripted
which isn’t nice but like at least I know that it isn’t real rape because I do have some downloaded content on devices so like that can get me into legal trouble I am guessing and as I said before sometimes I ‘have a conscience’ about my actions

Let's just say for our sakes that the illegal content thing was a joke, k?

Only if the video shifts from hot pain to just inflicting unnecessary harm (like almost damaging reproductive organs like stuffing glass objects (not like glass dildos bottles) and like shaking it around like don’t they see a risk in breaking it instead of her

Ahh I get what you mean.

So you're not that fucked up in the head after all.

Have you ever even encountered videos where people do such nasty shit?

HORRIBLE I tried going deeper down the rabbit hole but like kids were fucking adults and kids even if drawn is where I draw the line

Sad to think that there's plenty of comics out there like that.

Like I've genuinely stumbled across so many comics involving characters that look like children over the years while looking for vanilla stuff. Scarring tbh. Glad I've never gotten into getting off to it.

 

[kisslessvirgin]

why do niggas act like accepting its over is going to give them some closure

its not some buddhist monk transformation where your third eye will open

its still the same

a few years down the line your lyfe will be just as miserable if not more

 

[cornflakes666]

Have you ever even encountered videos where people do nasty shit?

Of course I have like scat which is just so gross