Inner peace

[Zakai4real]

I’ve accepted life in a sense.

I’ve always wanted to have a son for some reason and raise him correctly, almost as if I wanted to prove a point to my shitty excuses of “parents” that I could do what they couldn’t. My “parents” have always been the reason I try so hard in life for a lot of things to show them with hard work you can create your own success. But back to the main point I think I’ve gotten so sick of women in general that even though currently being on 300mg/w of test I honestly don’t care of becoming sterile anymore, (I’ve been on test for a little over 15 weeks now, 240mg/w for 10 weeks then 300mg/w for the last 5.)

Its almost as if this great realisation has hit me all of a sudden, that I genuinely almost don’t want to be in a permanent relationship with any women they’re all practically the same but for some reason I’m not mad at all which is almost surprising to me since I’d always get mad that me as a 5’7 manlet couldn’t actually hold down a long term relationship and it was always for some stupid reason that the relationship ends, “I need time to focus on myself” or the most brutal one was recently when I had this long talking stage with a women practically in a relationship we’d done all the small scale shit making out etc and all of a sudden she tells me she’s not ready for a relationship which I was ok with but the problem arises when 3 days later she’s kissing a 30 year old man (she’s 17 and I’m 18) so with all the shit women constantly put me through I feel almost relieved in a sense that I’m possibly sterile and might have no actual reason to attempt to reproduce, it’s like freeing realising all women are truly the same in one way or another.

In my fit of rage I’ve found peace

 

[filthycurrycel]

I’ve accepted life in a sense.

I’ve always wanted to have a son for some reason and raise him correctly, almost as if I wanted to prove a point to my shitty excuses of “parents” that I could do what they couldn’t. My “parents” have always been the reason I try so hard in life for a lot of things to show them with hard work you can create your own success. But back to the main point I think I’ve gotten so sick of women in general that even though currently being on 300mg/w of test I honestly don’t care of becoming sterile anymore, (I’ve been on test for a little over 15 weeks now, 240mg/w for 10 weeks then 300mg/w for the last 5.)

Its almost as if this great realisation has hit me all of a sudden, that I genuinely almost don’t want to be in a permanent relationship with any women they’re all practically the same but for some reason I’m not mad at all which is almost surprising to me since I’d always get mad that me as a 5’7 manlet couldn’t actually hold down a long term relationship and it was always for some stupid reason that the relationship ends, “I need time to focus on myself” or the most brutal one was recently when I had this long talking stage with a women practically in a relationship we’d done all the small scale shit making out etc and all of a sudden she tells me she’s not ready for a relationship which I was ok with but the problem arises when 3 days later she’s kissing a 30 year old man (she’s 17 and I’m 18) so with all the shit women constantly put me through I feel almost relieved in a sense that I’m possibly sterile and might have no actual reason to attempt to reproduce, it’s like freeing realising all women are truly the same in one way or another.

In my fit of rage I’ve found peace

Proud of u bro

Dnr though

 

[filthycurrycel]

I’ve accepted life in a sense.

I’ve always wanted to have a son for some reason and raise him correctly, almost as if I wanted to prove a point to my shitty excuses of “parents” that I could do what they couldn’t. My “parents” have always been the reason I try so hard in life for a lot of things to show them with hard work you can create your own success. But back to the main point I think I’ve gotten so sick of women in general that even though currently being on 300mg/w of test I honestly don’t care of becoming sterile anymore, (I’ve been on test for a little over 15 weeks now, 240mg/w for 10 weeks then 300mg/w for the last 5.)

Its almost as if this great realisation has hit me all of a sudden, that I genuinely almost don’t want to be in a permanent relationship with any women they’re all practically the same but for some reason I’m not mad at all which is almost surprising to me since I’d always get mad that me as a 5’7 manlet couldn’t actually hold down a long term relationship and it was always for some stupid reason that the relationship ends, “I need time to focus on myself” or the most brutal one was recently when I had this long talking stage with a women practically in a relationship we’d done all the small scale shit making out etc and all of a sudden she tells me she’s not ready for a relationship which I was ok with but the problem arises when 3 days later she’s kissing a 30 year old man (she’s 17 and I’m 18) so with all the shit women constantly put me through I feel almost relieved in a sense that I’m possibly sterile and might have no actual reason to attempt to reproduce, it’s like freeing realising all women are truly the same in one way or another.

In my fit of rage I’ve found peace

Yeah no i'm sorry bro.
You need to do something about it, sounds like you're just depressed.
keep ur head up bro.
you're gonna make it.

I see you having a son

 

[Zakai4real]

I genuinely don’t think I’m depressed whatsoever I’ve never felt more free in my entire life it’s kinda beautiful in a sense