
Eduardo DOV
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Yesterday I did something I rarely do: I left the house. I went for a walk because I was very stressed, I went to the market to buy a monster (because it's 1 real cheaper and it has flavors that I like), then I went to the bakery that's across the street, there I ordered some snacks.
Sitting at the table a little in front of me, a girl of about 18-22 years old was there, she looked into my eyes for several seconds. I lowered my head, looke to sides etc, looked again and she was still looking. At one point she stopped looking and then she didn't look anymore
I was a bit embarrassed, feeling nervous, I even muttered "how inconvenient" (not exactly that term, actually "how boring", but I don't know if that makes sense in English).
Afterwards I felt bad thinking that she read my lips and now she thinks it's wrong to do that or there is something wrong with her xdd This is my problem, I always feel bad and guilty thinking bad things, the worst scenarios, it's really sad to be like this.
She must have thought "how romantic to imagine meeting my boyfriend at the bakery like that, perfect", and I ruined it

She was thin, white and had a cute face, but we probably wouldn't have gotten along well together, she had a lot of tattoos, idk
But even if she didn't have tattoos, I wouldn't have done anything because I'm a sentimental CUCK who depends a lot on how I'm feeling at the moment, and that made me nervous. This has happened other times in my life. I'm never in the "mood" when it happens.
wish I could just live without all these bad feelings and bad ideas
Sitting at the table a little in front of me, a girl of about 18-22 years old was there, she looked into my eyes for several seconds. I lowered my head, looke to sides etc, looked again and she was still looking. At one point she stopped looking and then she didn't look anymore
I was a bit embarrassed, feeling nervous, I even muttered "how inconvenient" (not exactly that term, actually "how boring", but I don't know if that makes sense in English).
Afterwards I felt bad thinking that she read my lips and now she thinks it's wrong to do that or there is something wrong with her xdd This is my problem, I always feel bad and guilty thinking bad things, the worst scenarios, it's really sad to be like this.
She must have thought "how romantic to imagine meeting my boyfriend at the bakery like that, perfect", and I ruined it

She was thin, white and had a cute face, but we probably wouldn't have gotten along well together, she had a lot of tattoos, idk
But even if she didn't have tattoos, I wouldn't have done anything because I'm a sentimental CUCK who depends a lot on how I'm feeling at the moment, and that made me nervous. This has happened other times in my life. I'm never in the "mood" when it happens.
wish I could just live without all these bad feelings and bad ideas