AxlGlow
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I Genuinely don't know what to do no more. Every relationship I've ever had with anyone ever in my life has been so fake, it might be more to that than just nerodivergence but surely it plays a big part in it.
I can't stand people either. I try to limit interaction with my family members too, they just piss me off so much even tho I love them, yk? I have few friends but no close ones, I can get girls, girls more goodlooking than myself too somehow but I've never ever feelt truly connected with the opposite gender ever in my life before and about 2 years ago realised that I won't ever get to experience true love either. Its simply not meant for people like me.
True love and connection with the opposite gender is genuinely all I yearn for and crave and I see no point in life if I can't experience this. I always give myself some more time but like the saying goes "nothing ever happens" and its true, nothing ever happens. nothing ever will happen. Nd people were never meant for love or affection. Even worse for people that r nd & ugly like myself. Genuinely don't even get treated like a human.
I remember 2y ago I started in a new class and after a couple of days I walked into one of the girls in my class, she said "ewww" and all of her friends started laughing. My first instinct was just to apologize. Truly heartless nt being.
Yet considering all this I don't wanna go out without leaving a mark on the world yk. I just simply dont know what to do no more. Ive given up on everything in my life truly. Given up on social interactions, relationships, grades, job, family & everything else lwk. I don't got much to loose tbh but maybe its all just talk like always.
DNR.
I can't stand people either. I try to limit interaction with my family members too, they just piss me off so much even tho I love them, yk? I have few friends but no close ones, I can get girls, girls more goodlooking than myself too somehow but I've never ever feelt truly connected with the opposite gender ever in my life before and about 2 years ago realised that I won't ever get to experience true love either. Its simply not meant for people like me.
True love and connection with the opposite gender is genuinely all I yearn for and crave and I see no point in life if I can't experience this. I always give myself some more time but like the saying goes "nothing ever happens" and its true, nothing ever happens. nothing ever will happen. Nd people were never meant for love or affection. Even worse for people that r nd & ugly like myself. Genuinely don't even get treated like a human.
I remember 2y ago I started in a new class and after a couple of days I walked into one of the girls in my class, she said "ewww" and all of her friends started laughing. My first instinct was just to apologize. Truly heartless nt being.
Yet considering all this I don't wanna go out without leaving a mark on the world yk. I just simply dont know what to do no more. Ive given up on everything in my life truly. Given up on social interactions, relationships, grades, job, family & everything else lwk. I don't got much to loose tbh but maybe its all just talk like always.
DNR.
