Is it wierd that i fantasize about roping ...

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

... about roping should they ever leave me.
I don't think i would.
I've been a huge antiroper and i will likely stay one.
Idk, they have become my whole life pretty much (to the extents it's possible in a long distance relationship) and things have been going kind of rough the last 2 or 3 months for different reasons, around our anniversary it started, for me at least.
Those months have had higher highs, and lower lows and higher lows and lower highs.
This person has a 100% given me the happiest days of all my life, but on the contrary, the worst ones of my life, or the worst feelings also stem from interactions or a lack there of with them.
Still we do try our genuine best and none of us wants to leave the other, but they have told me that the point that the weight of me becomes just too much to handle is still really far and they'll do whatever it takes, but it is getting a bit closer.
Anyway, back to the title.
Well yeah, pretty self explanitory.
I have had these fantasies of doing something drammatically negative to myself should they leave me. Idk why.
I might psychotherapie-maxx and i surely will sooner or later (for other issues with my mental and so on aswell) any way.

My pms are open if some one wants to talk, i might appreciate it.
It could help me, but idk if i really feel like it.
If you think you can help i can add more context, idk what to expect from org tbh.

You can also come to me if you want to talk about anything in your life, i would be very happy if i can help one of you people feel better or even just to vent a little.
Ik it's hard to open up to ppl, but i know from experience it helps.
If it's not gonna be some1 you know irl or you don't have any friends or don't trust them enough, why not talk to some stranger (still a stranger) from a psl forum?
Anyone can also add me on dc if they wanna talk, may be preferrable.

Anyways: here come the tags:
@nestivv @Idk❤️ @foidletslayer @pashanimair @DrunkenSailor

 

[Idontknow-]

... about roping should they ever leave me.
I don't think i would.
I've been a huge antiroper and i will likely stay one.
Idk, they have become my whole life pretty much (to the extents it's possible in a long distance relationship) and things have been going kind of rough the last 2 or 3 months for different reasons, around our anniversary it started, for me at least.
Those months have had higher highs, and lower lows and higher lows and lower highs.
This person has a 100% given me the happiest days of all my life, but on the contrary, the worst ones of my life, or the worst feelings also stem from interactions or a lack there of with them.
Still we do try our genuine best and none of us wants to leave the other, but they have told me that the point that the weight of me becomes just too much to handle is still really far and they'll do whatever it takes, but it is getting a bit closer.
Anyway, back to the title.
Well yeah, pretty self explanitory.
I have had these fantasies of doing something drammatically negative to myself should they leave me. Idk why.
I might psychotherapie-maxx and i surely will sooner or later (for other issues with my mental and so on aswell) any way.

My pms are open if some one wants to talk, i might appreciate it.
It could help me, but idk if i really feel like it.
If you think you can help i can add more context, idk what to expect from org tbh.

You can also come to me if you want to talk about anything in your life, i would be very happy if i can help one of you people feel better or even just to vent a little.
Ik it's hard to open up to ppl, but i know from experience it helps.
If it's not gonna be some1 you know irl or you don't have any friends or don't trust them enough, why not talk to some stranger (still a stranger) from a psl forum?
Anyone can also add me on dc if they wanna talk, may be preferrable.

Anyways: here come the tags:
@nestivv @Idk❤️ @foidletslayer @pashanimair @DrunkenSailor

I hope you be better man
Also whats your discord?

 

[FaceandBBC]

I can't relate.

 

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

Ps: i'm scared.
I love them more then me tbh.
I js wanna be enough and not too much at the same time.
Fuck, why can't things be like they were, it was perfect at times. I still feel it may get better, i hope it does.
I probably won't leave even if it makes me depressed.
I'm atleast selfaware enough to aknowledge that much.

Also: are yall mirin' my english??

I hope you be better man
Also whats your discord?

I'm sure things will get better, i do genuenly have a positive outlook on the whole thing, even if i sound pessimistic.
I'll tell you my dc in a second idk this account by memory.

I can't relate.
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How come? Due to perreneal inceldom or because of a differing nature in your relationships.

 

[FaceandBBC]

How come? Due to perreneal inceldom or because of a differing nature in your relationships.

Social isolation mixed with a little bit of incel rage.

 

[Idontknow-]

I can't relate.
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Ohh your back.

 

[FaceandBBC]

Ohh your back.

In black

 

[Idontknow-]

In black

Why were u banned?

 

[InanimatePragmatist]

I can't relate.
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I just want a law. A good anti humanimal law that can permit and fine people for looking at other people when they are not supposed too.

 

[Idontknow-]

Ps: i'm scared.
I love them more then me tbh.
I js wanna be enough and not too much at the same time.
Fuck, why can't things be like they were, it was perfect at times. I still feel it may get better, i hope it does.
I probably won't leave even if it makes me depressed.
I'm atleast selfaware enough to aknowledge that much.

Also: are yall mirin' my english??

I'm sure things will get better, i do genuenly have a positive outlook on the whole thing, even if i sound pessimistic.
I'll tell you my dc in a second idk this account by memory.

How come? Due to perreneal inceldom or because of a differing nature in your relationships.

Damn bro. I really hope you recover and dont have these thoughts...

 

[svarddre]

I fantasize about finding a woman and starting a family and having a good career

Get help fr

 

[FaceandBBC]

Why were u banned?

Temporary self termination.

 

[InanimatePragmatist]

I fantasize about finding a woman and starting a family and having a good career

Get help fr

I just want a law. A perfect law.

 

[DrunkenSailor]

I have had these fantasies of doing something drammatically negative to myself should they leave me. Idk why.

So this is about your relationship which has hit more lows and highs recently, right?

If so, then I can tell you this. The part I quoted is understandable but here’s the thing - no one will truly care except your loved ones. Now I know some incels have bad relationship with their siblings but I suspect you don’t. So don’t put them through pain for nothing.

Why do I say for nothing? Should your relationship end (and it will, sooner or later, it’s the way life is), you are young. You can find someone new, someone better. I mean even an oldcel like me who’s been in a decade long relationship has hope to find someone better to build a life with. So why wouldn’t you?

If you ever feel the need to talk anything, hit me up with a DM.

 

[DrunkenSailor]

Idk, they have become my whole life pretty much

And this is bad news bro. Trust me I know, when you start to get on these shaky grounds, you will lose yourself and your relationship. Try to find some purpose in life, a woman shouldn’t be your happiness, she should be part of your journey but not the journey itself.

 

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

So don’t put them through pain for nothing.

I won't, it's just thoughts in my head, but idk if they should be there.

a woman shouldn’t be your happiness, she should be part of your journey but not the journey itself.

You right, you right.

you ever feel the need to talk anything, hit me up with a DM.

Thx, bhai. Idk. I might. I could give more context, but idk if that would be helpful.

I fantasize about finding a woman and starting a family and having a good career

Get help fr

What i said was: i fantasize about that, should the thing you are talking about not work out.

Like, i still really really wanna live, it's just these ideas in my head man.

I just want a law. A good anti humanimal law that can permit and fine people for looking at other people when they are not supposed too.

Nigga, what?

 

[ddbstp]

... about roping should they ever leave me.
I don't think i would.
I've been a huge antiroper and i will likely stay one.
Idk, they have become my whole life pretty much (to the extents it's possible in a long distance relationship) and things have been going kind of rough the last 2 or 3 months for different reasons, around our anniversary it started, for me at least.
Those months have had higher highs, and lower lows and higher lows and lower highs.
This person has a 100% given me the happiest days of all my life, but on the contrary, the worst ones of my life, or the worst feelings also stem from interactions or a lack there of with them.
Still we do try our genuine best and none of us wants to leave the other, but they have told me that the point that the weight of me becomes just too much to handle is still really far and they'll do whatever it takes, but it is getting a bit closer.
Anyway, back to the title.
Well yeah, pretty self explanitory.
I have had these fantasies of doing something drammatically negative to myself should they leave me. Idk why.
I might psychotherapie-maxx and i surely will sooner or later (for other issues with my mental and so on aswell) any way.

My pms are open if some one wants to talk, i might appreciate it.
It could help me, but idk if i really feel like it.
If you think you can help i can add more context, idk what to expect from org tbh.

You can also come to me if you want to talk about anything in your life, i would be very happy if i can help one of you people feel better or even just to vent a little.
Ik it's hard to open up to ppl, but i know from experience it helps.
If it's not gonna be some1 you know irl or you don't have any friends or don't trust them enough, why not talk to some stranger (still a stranger) from a psl forum?
Anyone can also add me on dc if they wanna talk, may be preferrable.

Anyways: here come the tags:
@nestivv @Idk❤️ @foidletslayer @pashanimair @DrunkenSailor

very

 

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

Bump

Thx for the bump

 

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

And this is bad news bro. Trust me I know, when you start to get on these shaky grounds, you will lose yourself and your relationship. Try to find some purpose in life, a woman shouldn’t be your happiness, she should be part of your journey but not the journey itself.

I hope you be better man
Also whats your discord?

They HAVE NOT left me or anything, don't worry. This is totally on me.
I should have talked to you guys, i know you would have been true frens and would have surely helped me out and been there, i'm sorry i didn't. I love y'all, i think i kinda let you down tbh, i shouldn't have vented with a knife or by punching walls for the 100th time or by being a piece of shit to the people around me, but talked to some of you instead.
I will try to remember next time, i kinda stopped going on .org and that's why i forgot abt this option.
I feel like i kinda let you 2 down by doing this, but idk if it's that deep.
Should prolly worry more abt what i did here.
137 iq and i'm still a fucking super ND autist who doesn't know where to put his fucking feelings
Kinda crine writing this, also smiling. Just so yk: i do love yall, hehe (NO I'M NOT GONNA KMS!!!)

 

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

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They HAVE NOT left me or anything, don't worry. This is totally on me.
I should have talked to you guys, i know you would have been true frens and would have surely helped me out and been there, i'm sorry i didn't. I love y'all, i think i kinda let you down tbh, i shouldn't have vented with a knife or by punching walls for the 100th time or by being a piece of shit to the people around me, but talked to some of you instead.
I will try to remember next time, i kinda stopped going on .org and that's why i forgot abt this option.
I feel like i kinda let you 2 down by doing this, but idk if it's that deep.
Should prolly worry more abt what i did here.
137 iq and i'm still a fucking super ND autist who doesn't know where to put his fucking feelings
Kinda crine writing this, also smiling. Just so yk: i do love yall, hehe (NO I'M NOT GONNA KMS!!!)

@DrunkenSailor @Idk❤️ should i tell them i did this? Like i don't wanna hide anything from them and shit EVER and i trust them with absolutely anything always but idk if i should do the same in this case.

 

[niggero0]

Ps: i'm scared.
I love them more then me tbh.

them who?
it's pretty unclear what you are referring to in your entire post

 

[Idontknow-]

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They HAVE NOT left me or anything, don't worry. This is totally on me.
I should have talked to you guys, i know you would have been true frens and would have surely helped me out and been there, i'm sorry i didn't. I love y'all, i think i kinda let you down tbh, i shouldn't have vented with a knife or by punching walls for the 100th time or by being a piece of shit to the people around me, but talked to some of you instead.
I will try to remember next time, i kinda stopped going on .org and that's why i forgot abt this option.
I feel like i kinda let you 2 down by doing this, but idk if it's that deep.
Should prolly worry more abt what i did here.
137 iq and i'm still a fucking super ND autist who doesn't know where to put his fucking feelings
Kinda crine writing this, also smiling. Just so yk: i do love yall, hehe (NO I'M NOT GONNA KMS!!!)

Good that you wont rope but you have to stop this bhai. We absolutely care for you. Its not to late to turn your life around. I love you bhai.

 

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

them who?
it's pretty unclear what you are referring to in your entire post

oneitis

 

[Idontknow-]

@DrunkenSailor @Idk❤️ should i tell them i did this? Like i don't wanna hide anything from them and shit EVER and i trust them with absolutely anything always but idk if i should do the same in this case.

You wanna tell your oneitis this? Idk bro.

 

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

@DrunkenSailor @Idk❤️ should i tell them i did this? Like i don't wanna hide anything from them and shit EVER and i trust them with absolutely anything always but idk if i should do the same in this case.

I kinda had the feelings due to something really small they did (and really it was some small bs and not their fault), but it was mostly shit in my head.
i don't want to make them overthink and stress about every future decision in order to not hurt me like playing fucking minesweeper.
but they are the only person i know irl i could talk to abt this and i care and they care and idk.

 

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

You wanna tell your oneitis this? Idk bro.

idk if i could or should keep myself quiet on smth like this

I kinda had the feelings due to something really small they did (and really it was some small bs and not their fault), but it was mostly shit in my head.
i don't want to make them overthink and stress about every future decision in order to not hurt me like playing fucking minesweeper.
but they are the only person i know irl i could talk to abt this and i care and they care and idk.

 

[Idontknow-]

idk if i could or should keep myself quiet on smth like this

Hard to say bro.

 

[e1488shciozl]

... about roping should they ever leave me.
I don't think i would.
I've been a huge antiroper and i will likely stay one.
Idk, they have become my whole life pretty much (to the extents it's possible in a long distance relationship) and things have been going kind of rough the last 2 or 3 months for different reasons, around our anniversary it started, for me at least.
Those months have had higher highs, and lower lows and higher lows and lower highs.
This person has a 100% given me the happiest days of all my life, but on the contrary, the worst ones of my life, or the worst feelings also stem from interactions or a lack there of with them.
Still we do try our genuine best and none of us wants to leave the other, but they have told me that the point that the weight of me becomes just too much to handle is still really far and they'll do whatever it takes, but it is getting a bit closer.
Anyway, back to the title.
Well yeah, pretty self explanitory.
I have had these fantasies of doing something drammatically negative to myself should they leave me. Idk why.
I might psychotherapie-maxx and i surely will sooner or later (for other issues with my mental and so on aswell) any way.

My pms are open if some one wants to talk, i might appreciate it.
It could help me, but idk if i really feel like it.
If you think you can help i can add more context, idk what to expect from org tbh.

You can also come to me if you want to talk about anything in your life, i would be very happy if i can help one of you people feel better or even just to vent a little.
Ik it's hard to open up to ppl, but i know from experience it helps.
If it's not gonna be some1 you know irl or you don't have any friends or don't trust them enough, why not talk to some stranger (still a stranger) from a psl forum?
Anyone can also add me on dc if they wanna talk, may be preferrable.

Anyways: here come the tags:
@nestivv @Idk❤️ @foidletslayer @pashanimair @DrunkenSailor

No bro its not weird it's you basically having an extra sense: seeing the future

 

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

And this is bad news bro. Trust me I know, when you start to get on these shaky grounds, you will lose yourself and your relationship. Try to find some purpose in life, a woman shouldn’t be your happiness, she should be part of your journey but not the journey itself.

where have you gone, wise sailor, now that i need you more than ever

 

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

Hard to say bro.

ended up telling them, no problem. i've had them make me promise that i won't do it again, i'm kinda at the lowest point i can be at rn tho, can i text you lowk?

 

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

Hard to say bro.

imma just text you and tell you what i told drunkensailor, he seems to not be looking at his phone or org rn

 

[Idontknow-]

imma just text you and tell you what i told drunkensailor, he seems to not be looking at his phone or org rn

Alr.

 

[Deleted member 257282]

... about roping should they ever leave me.
I don't think i would.
I've been a huge antiroper and i will likely stay one.
Idk, they have become my whole life pretty much (to the extents it's possible in a long distance relationship) and things have been going kind of rough the last 2 or 3 months for different reasons, around our anniversary it started, for me at least.
Those months have had higher highs, and lower lows and higher lows and lower highs.
This person has a 100% given me the happiest days of all my life, but on the contrary, the worst ones of my life, or the worst feelings also stem from interactions or a lack there of with them.
Still we do try our genuine best and none of us wants to leave the other, but they have told me that the point that the weight of me becomes just too much to handle is still really far and they'll do whatever it takes, but it is getting a bit closer.
Anyway, back to the title.
Well yeah, pretty self explanitory.
I have had these fantasies of doing something drammatically negative to myself should they leave me. Idk why.
I might psychotherapie-maxx and i surely will sooner or later (for other issues with my mental and so on aswell) any way.

My pms are open if some one wants to talk, i might appreciate it.
It could help me, but idk if i really feel like it.
If you think you can help i can add more context, idk what to expect from org tbh.

You can also come to me if you want to talk about anything in your life, i would be very happy if i can help one of you people feel better or even just to vent a little.
Ik it's hard to open up to ppl, but i know from experience it helps.
If it's not gonna be some1 you know irl or you don't have any friends or don't trust them enough, why not talk to some stranger (still a stranger) from a psl forum?
Anyone can also add me on dc if they wanna talk, may be preferrable.

Anyways: here come the tags:
@nestivv @Idk❤️ @foidletslayer @pashanimair @DrunkenSailor

Dnr
But no its normal I think
Its a good thing if you think about it
There is always a way out. This really helped me to stop caring for the Most Part

 

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

Dnr
But no its normal I think
Its a good thing if you think about it
There is always a way out. This really helped me to stop caring for the Most Part

i don't want out.
i wan't someone and something very specific and i have that and i don't wanna lose it and i can't lose it cuz i'd lose myself and i don't wanna settle and that even being at risk potentially which it is has made me the most stressed and miserable i've been in my entire fucking life and i dont want out, i just want things to be nice and good and pleasant and lovely again. i'm the fucking problem tho i'm too much and not enough and i'm scared, as i've now said many times

 

[Deleted member 257282]

i don't want out.
i wan't someone and something very specific and i have that and i don't wanna lose it and i can't lose it cuz i'd lose myself and i don't wanna settle and that even being at risk potentially which it is has made me the most stressed and miserable i've been in my entire fucking life and i dont want out, i just want things to be nice and good and pleasant and lovely again. i'm the fucking problem tho i'm too much and not enough and i'm scared, as i've now said many times

I dont get it
Can you Explain in caveman whats going on
Me dumb

 

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

I dont get it
Can you Explain in caveman whats going on
Me dumb

me rn w oneitis. me incred

 

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

I dont get it
Can you Explain in caveman whats going on
Me dumb

sry wait i accidentally posted lemme go again

 

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

I dont get it
Can you Explain in caveman whats going on
Me dumb

me with oneitis, oneitis perfect tries their best, we both fuck up here and there but we genuenly wanna fix everything and love eachother and it's been a year and everything is more or less great.

then i start fucking up again again and again and oneitis not happy and says they can't go on, but really wants to and they aren't leaving me and never want to but i am killing them and then i fuck up more and more and i don't know how to compensate any more and i am just not fucking enough and too much to handle at the same time and i am helpless and they mean the world to me and i can'T fucking lose them and if they do idk what will happen to me

like rn where it's even at risk and while it is happening we are literally planning trains and so on (long distance aswell) i still sense there is a risk or something and even the prospect of me losing this person has me at the lowest i've been in my entire fucking life and i just balled my fucking eyes out for a good hour, luckily i managed not to hurt myself in any meaningful way

 

[Deleted member 257282]

me with oneitis, oneitis perfect tries their best, we both fuck up here and there but we genuenly wanna fix everything and love eachother and it's been a year and everything is more or less great.

then i start fucking up again again and again and oneitis not happy and says they can't go on, but really wants to and they aren't leaving me and never want to but i am killing them and then i fuck up more and more and i don't know how to compensate any more and i am just not fucking enough and too much to handle at the same time and i am helpless and they mean the world to me and i can'T fucking lose them and if they do idk what will happen to me

like rn where it's even at risk and while it is happening we are literally planning trains and so on (long distance aswell) i still sense there is a risk or something and even the prospect of me losing this person has me at the lowest i've been in my entire fucking life and i just balled my fucking eyes out for a good hour, luckily i managed not to hurt myself in any meaningful way

I mean communication is Important I think
My parents divorced because of communication issues mostly.
I think just really try to get to the Reason my you fuck up so often. And if it means leaving .org or something then it might be worth it for you.
Dont hurt yourself
There is alot more than love that is beautifull in live

 

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

I mean communication is Important I think

i don't think it's the problem

My parents divorced because of communication issues mostly.

sry, mine are long seperated too, but on somewhat good terms, they still kinda act as parents together, just not as a couple, but my dad lives over a 1300 km away so there is that.
technically it was illegal for my mother to come back to germany with me, but that is beside the point

I think just really try to get to the Reason my you fuck up so often. And if it means leaving .org or something then it might be worth it for you.

it's certainly not org. a big thing is my impulsiveness which is ruining alot and alot of things in my life for me.

Dont hurt yourself

thank you for telling me bhai, it really means a lot, thank you. maybe your approaches aren't the right ones, but i can tell you got that spirit and you wanna help. thank you so much

There is alot more than love that is beautifull in live

meh, idk. everything would become empty and colourless.

 

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

was gonna follow you, but i already do

I mean communication is Important I think
My parents divorced because of communication issues mostly.
I think just really try to get to the Reason my you fuck up so often. And if it means leaving .org or something then it might be worth it for you.
Dont hurt yourself
There is alot more than love that is beautifull in

 

[Deleted member 257282]

i don't think it's the problem

sry, mine are long seperated too, but on somewhat good terms, they still kinda act as parents together, just not as a couple, but my dad lives over a 1300 km away so there is that.
technically it was illegal for my mother to come back to germany with me, but that is beside the point

it's certainly not org. a big thing is my impulsiveness which is ruining alot and alot of things in my life for me.

thank you for telling me bhai, it really means a lot, thank you. maybe your approaches aren't the right ones, but i can tell you got that spirit and you wanna help. thank you so much

meh, idk. everything would become empty and colourless.

bhai
Im a incell
Sorry if I cant help you

Deutsch?

 

[stonecoldchud.onmse]

... about roping should they ever leave me.
I don't think i would.
I've been a huge antiroper and i will likely stay one.
Idk, they have become my whole life pretty much (to the extents it's possible in a long distance relationship) and things have been going kind of rough the last 2 or 3 months for different reasons, around our anniversary it started, for me at least.
Those months have had higher highs, and lower lows and higher lows and lower highs.
This person has a 100% given me the happiest days of all my life, but on the contrary, the worst ones of my life, or the worst feelings also stem from interactions or a lack there of with them.
Still we do try our genuine best and none of us wants to leave the other, but they have told me that the point that the weight of me becomes just too much to handle is still really far and they'll do whatever it takes, but it is getting a bit closer.
Anyway, back to the title.
Well yeah, pretty self explanitory.
I have had these fantasies of doing something drammatically negative to myself should they leave me. Idk why.
I might psychotherapie-maxx and i surely will sooner or later (for other issues with my mental and so on aswell) any way.

My pms are open if some one wants to talk, i might appreciate it.
It could help me, but idk if i really feel like it.
If you think you can help i can add more context, idk what to expect from org tbh.

You can also come to me if you want to talk about anything in your life, i would be very happy if i can help one of you people feel better or even just to vent a little.
Ik it's hard to open up to ppl, but i know from experience it helps.
If it's not gonna be some1 you know irl or you don't have any friends or don't trust them enough, why not talk to some stranger (still a stranger) from a psl forum?
Anyone can also add me on dc if they wanna talk, may be preferrable.

Anyways: here come the tags:
@nestivv @Idk❤️ @foidletslayer @pashanimair @DrunkenSailor

I also fantasize roping. I always think people will react in a good way and notice me for once. And if you need to talk bro reach out to me

 

[EvilSatanArseRapist]

I also fantasize roping. I always think people will react in a good way and notice me for once. And if you need to talk bro reach out to me

Thanks for the offer, i would do the same and i would be happy to listen.
I once thought not about roping but about finding a way to leave those marks on my neck w o roping so who ever reguards it sees i care abt something without actually killing myself.
(Yes i got the tism, yes i might be and have been depressed, no i don't have any sort of semblance of social skills)

 

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... about roping should they ever leave me.
I don't think i would.
I've been a huge antiroper and i will likely stay one.
Idk, they have become my whole life pretty much (to the extents it's possible in a long distance relationship) and things have been going kind of rough the last 2 or 3 months for different reasons, around our anniversary it started, for me at least.
Those months have had higher highs, and lower lows and higher lows and lower highs.
This person has a 100% given me the happiest days of all my life, but on the contrary, the worst ones of my life, or the worst feelings also stem from interactions or a lack there of with them.
Still we do try our genuine best and none of us wants to leave the other, but they have told me that the point that the weight of me becomes just too much to handle is still really far and they'll do whatever it takes, but it is getting a bit closer.
Anyway, back to the title.
Well yeah, pretty self explanitory.
I have had these fantasies of doing something drammatically negative to myself should they leave me. Idk why.
I might psychotherapie-maxx and i surely will sooner or later (for other issues with my mental and so on aswell) any way.

My pms are open if some one wants to talk, i might appreciate it.
It could help me, but idk if i really feel like it.
If you think you can help i can add more context, idk what to expect from org tbh.

You can also come to me if you want to talk about anything in your life, i would be very happy if i can help one of you people feel better or even just to vent a little.
Ik it's hard to open up to ppl, but i know from experience it helps.
If it's not gonna be some1 you know irl or you don't have any friends or don't trust them enough, why not talk to some stranger (still a stranger) from a psl forum?
Anyone can also add me on dc if they wanna talk, may be preferrable.

Anyways: here come the tags:
@nestivv @Idk❤️ @foidletslayer @pashanimair @DrunkenSailor

i have been very suicidal and even attempted suicide at one point in my life. the only emotion that kept me going was hate and spite for everyone around me, which is why, as a coping mechanism, i have become very selfish and stopped giving my time and energy to people around me who do not reciprocate.

i have mostly recovered and set my life in a better direction; however, i get the occasional compulsion to just let go and jump off. i feel these ideas are not necessarily my own, almost as if it's another part of my psyche or a demon trying to kill me.

 

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i have been very suicidal and even attempted suicide at one point in my life. the only emotion that kept me going was hate and spite for everyone around me, which is why, as a coping mechanism, i have become very selfish and stopped giving my time and energy to people around me who do not reciprocate.

i have mostly recovered and set my life in a better direction; however, i get the occasional compulsion to just let go and jump off. i feel these ideas are not necessarily my own, almost as if it's another part of my psyche or a demon trying to kill me.

read. Glad you turned your life around. Don't let the demons win

 

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read. Glad you turned your life around. Don't let the demons win

your circumstances are different than mine but it truly can get better and you need to believe so too. you got this op