RichmondBread
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It seems there is an awareness of your looks the closer you are to the good looking people. This is not average people, but those are that slightly above average and beyond . The very unattractive are completely clueless. The dead average folks are somewhat aware. But once you are past those people, you are in that bottom tier of somewhat attractive. I feel the closer you are to "it" the more you realize your flaws and where you stand and how others are below you and others above. You almost have "it" but not quite- either because of height, weight, or something else. Maybe eyes slightly far apart. This makes it so you are aware of everything and I think the awareness eats you up inside, especially as you move on towards middle age and realize you didn't max early on enough. Having a parent who was a model doesn't help either. It's like catching a ball in your hand but dropping if before the finish line.