Itsovermaxxing
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Hello so this is my first post and im 16. As you can see from the title im considering to rope. So basically this all started when i was 12. Im an unattractive guy and the problem is i have a lot of failos. Because of various things like poor mental health i started skipping school and because of that i started isolating myself and becoming worse and worse socially. Before that i was a really social kid and from what i could have told i had a good likeable personality. I got along with pretty mutch everyone and i even had two girl that kinda liked me i suppose. The problem is after my mental health worsened i also switched to a better school since i had really good grades. There everyone was "smart" so i didnt stood out that much anymore. This made my self esteem even worse and i started skipping again. Since in that school everyone was new that year I still made few friends but because of my rapidly declining social and mental health i still started skipping school and developed axiety. This year i switched schools again. This school doesnt demand good grades so its harder to fit in but i still went there for couple of months tho i barely studied and did my best trying to fit in. But because of severe now social axiety due to spendibg so mutch time isolated i rarely talked and didint go to pe nor did presentations. I was kinda an outcast since the classes in this school were already formed. So i went into studying online again. I barely go outside and dont meet up with my old friends anymore. I basically have none left except one old friend and even he probably by now dislikes me since i bail on him often due to being disgusted by myself. I was always prone to considering roping but for the past few weeks the thoughts almoust turn into action. I genuinely dont really see a way out of this since i ruined what i had. Due to my poor appearence and now bad social skills too making new friends (not even talking about a girlfriend) seems impossible. Im lost and i feel like there is no logical reason for me to keep going.
