itssoover0457
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i hate my life so much. i’m so ugly. i’m 17 and i’ve never had sex, ive never had my first kiss, ive never even held hands in my life ever. ive never had any friends in school. even the lonely kids had at least one friend or one person they talked to in class. i had no one. my mom and grandma hate me and i hate them both. i wanna kill them before i kill myself. if i plan on saving up for surgeries and get a full time job, it will take me forever to pay for all the things i need to get. i ask myself is it even worth it hardmaxxing if i already know it’s over. my youth is gone. when i’m in my mid 20s finally getting the surgeries i need and recovering from them, i already missed out on all the important parts of life. i missed out on prom, homecoming, parties, having fun with friends, going to college frat parties, etc. it’s already gone and i can’t go back. but it was never going to happen either way. i’m breaking my fucking back to afford all these surgeries just for the looks inflation to go up even more, and it’ll all be for nothing anyways. by the time i’m at where i want to be physically, i’m already gonna start aging. by 30 ur t levels alr drop. nature wants humans to reproduce when ur teens-20s. i cant do that, i have to play the long game. but i dont think its worth it anymore. i don’t wanna live a life of suffering much longer. if i take myself out, i will murder my mother, grandmother, and everyone else i know in my life. i’m going to take out my anger on everyone before i go. i don’t believe in god. i don’t believe in an afterlife. i think it all just cuts to black once we die. i need your thoughts.