Sean o' Tist
DIAGNOSED WITH DEPRESSION
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Seriously tough... Okay. Lets look at me.
I am 20, khhv, MTN, autistic.
Lets say I softmax to, even HMTN (untealistic). Okay. Now so what... I am still 20, still weird.
Okay, I can get surgery, sure.... if I save every shekel for the next few years maybe Ill get bimax at 25, who knows. But that means no travel, no parties, no nothing till then. And Ill be 25, with nonexistent social skills, and getting bimax. 6 months swelling. Ill be almost 26 by the time results would settle. Now mudface implants. Another 8k or whatever. Another month of swelling. I am borderline 27 by the time I am hardmaxxed, still 5'11", still autist, but with even more stunted brain. Oh, but Ill be HTN, brah, life will finally start. No. I dont care. It wont. Id have wasted the last part of my life in which I can learn to be somewhat social for waiting for results Id never utilise.
Also. The older u get the shitier life feels after like 16-18. Its tertible. By the time I am 27 Ill probabily wont give 2 fucks about slaying.
I am 20, khhv, MTN, autistic.
Lets say I softmax to, even HMTN (untealistic). Okay. Now so what... I am still 20, still weird.
Okay, I can get surgery, sure.... if I save every shekel for the next few years maybe Ill get bimax at 25, who knows. But that means no travel, no parties, no nothing till then. And Ill be 25, with nonexistent social skills, and getting bimax. 6 months swelling. Ill be almost 26 by the time results would settle. Now mudface implants. Another 8k or whatever. Another month of swelling. I am borderline 27 by the time I am hardmaxxed, still 5'11", still autist, but with even more stunted brain. Oh, but Ill be HTN, brah, life will finally start. No. I dont care. It wont. Id have wasted the last part of my life in which I can learn to be somewhat social for waiting for results Id never utilise.
Also. The older u get the shitier life feels after like 16-18. Its tertible. By the time I am 27 Ill probabily wont give 2 fucks about slaying.