superchud90000
sleepless loser
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i have trouble with suicidal thoughts and my mind just completely goes on a rampage sometimes
i dont think life is worth living but i should at least try and give it a shot
right now the only way out seems to be ending my life cause not living seems better than being myself right now
but is there anything i can do to improve?
last night on a previous thread, a couple people said i should research BPD and its symptoms, is there any way to get diagnosed without my mom knowing? i cant risk her knowing i self harm
i dont think life is worth living but i should at least try and give it a shot
right now the only way out seems to be ending my life cause not living seems better than being myself right now
but is there anything i can do to improve?
- i have tried to speak to people, my thoughts are too overwhelming or it just annoys them
- i was in therapy for 2 years and while i did get diagnosed with adhd nothing else came from it and it wasnt helping these thoughts (it was also expensive asfk so i had to end it for the sake of my moms wallet)
last night on a previous thread, a couple people said i should research BPD and its symptoms, is there any way to get diagnosed without my mom knowing? i cant risk her knowing i self harm

