It might be over

[RichBP420]

School starts in 2 days, I'm going to a new school in a new state and I'm tweaked. I've been fat and ugly for years but I was pretty bluepilled so I was still relatively happy, and I somehow managed to be well known and liked by people in my previous schools. no real female attention though. But last year I did online school and got pretty into forum dwelling and watching BP edits, and now after over a year of being blackpilled I look better but not good enough to compensate for the fact I act too ND to make friends the same way I used to be able to. In the past year of doing online I kept in contact with my friends from my home state, and visited a couple times to see them and my family (the most recent visit being from the end of June to about a week and a half ago), and while around my old friends it was almost like the BP left my mind for the most part, I felt more normal than anytime in my new state while I was with them. which I thought was a sign of me possibly just getting too consumed in BP while being alone and it did not actually have an effect on me, but if I was left alone with my thoughts for more than like a minute whilst with them I'd just go back to feeling like a subhuman burden on life like I have been. And as soon as I'd leave them the same thing would happen, and now I'm back in my current state of residence and I feel horrible again, even after over a month of being with people I care about and am comfortable with I still feel like such an empty ugly loser now that I'm alone again and I don't know if I can manage a normie cover to make any friends at this school because I won't have any crutch like my friends to make me comfortable enough to be my old self, I'm terrified and I think my own actions getting consumed in this BP shit will ruin school for me this year just like it's ruined being in public in general and just make life so unbearable I might have to start using hard drugs to cope instead of just smoking a bunch of weed like I have been. Or just give up and rope.

 

[RichBP420]

Sorry for the fuckass rant I just watched a bunch of ropefuel

 

[Schizomogger]

School starts in 2 days, I'm going to a new school in a new state and I'm tweaked. I've been fat and ugly for years but I was pretty bluepilled so I was still relatively happy, and I somehow managed to be well known and liked by people in my previous schools. no real female attention though. But last year I did online school and got pretty into forum dwelling and watching BP edits, and now after over a year of being blackpilled I look better but not good enough to compensate for the fact I act too ND to make friends the same way I used to be able to. In the past year of doing online I kept in contact with my friends from my home state, and visited a couple times to see them and my family (the most recent visit being from the end of June to about a week and a half ago), and while around my old friends it was almost like the BP left my mind for the most part, I felt more normal than anytime in my new state while I was with them. which I thought was a sign of me possibly just getting too consumed in BP while being alone and it did not actually have an effect on me, but if I was left alone with my thoughts for more than like a minute whilst with them I'd just go back to feeling like a subhuman burden on life like I have been. And as soon as I'd leave them the same thing would happen, and now I'm back in my current state of residence and I feel horrible again, even after over a month of being with people I care about and am comfortable with I still feel like such an empty ugly loser now that I'm alone again and I don't know if I can manage a normie cover to make any friends at this school because I won't have any crutch like my friends to make me comfortable enough to be my old self, I'm terrified and I think my own actions getting consumed in this BP shit will ruin school for me this year just like it's ruined being in public in general and just make life so unbearable I might have to start using hard drugs to cope instead of just smoking a bunch of weed like I have been. Or just give up and rope.

Mirin the pic