pslshinra
the darkest eyes
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yk i been wanting to try to improve my looks, get a job, the money and buy wtv i need to buy i thought maybe just maybe its not over and i can still change but the more i think abt it the more it kills me. one part of me says " u have potential " and the other " its over ure gonna get to nowhere and waste ur time " idek man, i just wish i wasnt even alive yk i wouldnt have to worry abt all of this stuff and in a few years i finish school and i know its gonna get worse probably, i'll legit b fucking lonely and still ugly.
i just wnna be handsome and tall man why is it so hard, why do i have to work so hard to try to get to somewhere knowing i might not even get there, i genuinely think for some ppl it isnt over yk they just have to lose weight or smth and theyre life will completely change but for others, no amount of roids and softmaxxing can save them and they most likely dont have the money for surgery.
i remember this one time, few months ago i was doing boxing training and at the end i went to the bathroom and as i went out there was this girl in front of me lol she was like taller than i am and at this moment it didnt look like it but i was shattered lmfao, the mog never stops. i hope my growth plates arent close but if they are then its genuinely over for me and ill probably have fun for a fewyears after school then kms, genuinely no point in living if u cant b beautiful or live a good life. i'll still try to do smth abt it ofc, wtv i can, i'll die trying if i have to but idk sometimes i genuinely want to give up and ldar
some are born at the light, some have to work to get there and others dont have any
