russianmtbslayer500
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i wanted to talk about my life and give you all a bit hope and show you that life can always become better lets start with my backstory
1.BACKSTORY: i was born 12.3.2009 into a small town in germany my father was a abusive alkoholic drug abuser who also had criminal activities going on my earliest memories of him were me having to watch him break my mother her nose and how he and his family attacked eachother with knifes he constantly beat me my sister and my other often didnt give us money which made me not have alot of things which i was made fun of during my first school years elementary school years when i became 7 my parents divorced but life wasnt better these next few years my mother even abused me worse beat me to the point where i had to beg for my life make me fat and then make fun of me she knew i was scared of the dark so she put me in a dark room and beat me telling me this is what would happen if i ever told anyone what would happen that the cps would abuse me even worse
2.early teens:atp i was very depressed and suicidal also had ptsd from the years of abuse school wasnt better i got into highschool at around 2018 or 2019 the first year was actualy quite okay i made some friends but my mental health constantly got worse trough more abuse and i became a very hatefull child at that time i started having fantasies abou violence revenge control stories to kinda cope i also used junkfood as a way of coping so in highschool i was fat and ugly(still lowkey am) after 6th grade everything went downhill i started to hate people of my school and was cruel trowards them i got into alot of fights and was arrested a few times i started doing drugs drinking alkohol and was just a crashout teen i was arrested multipule times tho the arrests happend later once i was around 14(also the time i started doing drugs and alk) so i this all happend from ages 10-14 i had discoverd lm around when i was 13 didnt care about my looks tho so some time passes everything is kinda stable i am around 15 when i decide to looksmax i lose a bit of weight and grow out my hair first time i actualy looked somewhat okay but it didnt stop there i enterd my first relationship with 15 after a year of isolating myself she was the first one who i talked and was friends and fell in love with after a few weeks of friednship we start dating we spend 24/7 thogether but she didnt really love me she used me for attetnion and treated me poorly first so i am with her for half a year and we broke up after like half a year and here is where things do actualy get better i was 16 i had just turned 16 i was very heartbroken and i just decided that it was time for me to become better i got into therapy i got better at my hobbies i started talking more to people i am currently 17 and a half i am oretty good in chess and drawing i have a friendgroup who i have alot fóf fun with and who care for me acedemicaly i am good my life is pretty okay tho improving looks might be the next step but what i am trying to say is no matter how shit your life is and how you are born and where your life can always become better
1.BACKSTORY: i was born 12.3.2009 into a small town in germany my father was a abusive alkoholic drug abuser who also had criminal activities going on my earliest memories of him were me having to watch him break my mother her nose and how he and his family attacked eachother with knifes he constantly beat me my sister and my other often didnt give us money which made me not have alot of things which i was made fun of during my first school years elementary school years when i became 7 my parents divorced but life wasnt better these next few years my mother even abused me worse beat me to the point where i had to beg for my life make me fat and then make fun of me she knew i was scared of the dark so she put me in a dark room and beat me telling me this is what would happen if i ever told anyone what would happen that the cps would abuse me even worse
2.early teens:atp i was very depressed and suicidal also had ptsd from the years of abuse school wasnt better i got into highschool at around 2018 or 2019 the first year was actualy quite okay i made some friends but my mental health constantly got worse trough more abuse and i became a very hatefull child at that time i started having fantasies abou violence revenge control stories to kinda cope i also used junkfood as a way of coping so in highschool i was fat and ugly(still lowkey am) after 6th grade everything went downhill i started to hate people of my school and was cruel trowards them i got into alot of fights and was arrested a few times i started doing drugs drinking alkohol and was just a crashout teen i was arrested multipule times tho the arrests happend later once i was around 14(also the time i started doing drugs and alk) so i this all happend from ages 10-14 i had discoverd lm around when i was 13 didnt care about my looks tho so some time passes everything is kinda stable i am around 15 when i decide to looksmax i lose a bit of weight and grow out my hair first time i actualy looked somewhat okay but it didnt stop there i enterd my first relationship with 15 after a year of isolating myself she was the first one who i talked and was friends and fell in love with after a few weeks of friednship we start dating we spend 24/7 thogether but she didnt really love me she used me for attetnion and treated me poorly first so i am with her for half a year and we broke up after like half a year and here is where things do actualy get better i was 16 i had just turned 16 i was very heartbroken and i just decided that it was time for me to become better i got into therapy i got better at my hobbies i started talking more to people i am currently 17 and a half i am oretty good in chess and drawing i have a friendgroup who i have alot fóf fun with and who care for me acedemicaly i am good my life is pretty okay tho improving looks might be the next step but what i am trying to say is no matter how shit your life is and how you are born and where your life can always become better
