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shza
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I want to share what’s been weighing on me, because I know there are many understanding people here. I am insanely tired of living with this endless overthinking in my head, always worrying about how to change myself, and all that stuff. I think you understand what I mean. I try to talk to girls, but my face gives away all my fear and insecurity even before I manage to step up. It's not hard for me to start a dialogue and begin talking to someone, but people don't look at my inner world, they look at my appearance. For the past six months, I’ve been trying my absolute hardest to remake myself, but breaking your own nature is incredibly difficult. Lately, against the backdrop of this exhaustion, all I want is to just end it all, as strange as that might sound. All days pass in exactly the same way: gym, work. And there are no close people around who could truly offer support. I tried going to psychologists, but it’s all just clichés. There are so many words from people about my appearance that hurt me even deeper, and it has become very hard to process. This forum is all I have. And I am just stupidly afraid to go out into the street, knowing what waits out there.