It’s all so fucking discouraging

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Every time I see myself it’s like a reminder of this curse that was put on me 18 years ago. Even if I do muster up the courage to push through my medical trauma and anxiety and the surgery to fix my strabismus goes well, I’ll still be clinically recessed, bugeyed, infra-less, and short faced. So then even after I wage slave for years to afford trimax with implants, and by the time that surgery date comes, I’ll be old. I’ll have missed out on what could’ve been if I wasn’t deformed. And I still won’t ever be able to drive, or walk through a dimly lit restaurant without tripping over something, because my eyes don’t fucking work right, because of genetics. And I’ll still be autistic. Still won’t be able to connect with anybody or hold a conversation because of my childhood abuse and isolation. So what is the fucking point to suffering so verymuch. But at the same time, I can’t bear to just do nothing about it and sit around like I have been. Why did I have to be chosen to carry all these sins of my ancestors. Sometimes I think God made an example of me to spite my parents and punish them. I am the amalgamation of sin. The devil was with me in that crib all those years ago. That must be why this is my destiny.
 
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Idk what to say honestly
 
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damn that sucks + dnr
 
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Dude and it’s crazy your like an ant and you’ll die like the rest of us
 
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Every time I see myself it’s like a reminder of this curse that was put on me 18 years ago. Even if I do muster up the courage to push through my medical trauma and anxiety and the surgery to fix my strabismus goes well, I’ll still be clinically recessed, bugeyed, infra-less, and short faced. So then even after I wage slave for years to afford trimax with implants, and by the time that surgery date comes, I’ll be old. I’ll have missed out on what could’ve been if I wasn’t deformed. And I still won’t ever be able to drive, or walk through a dimly lit restaurant without tripping over something, because my eyes don’t fucking work right, because of genetics. And I’ll still be autistic. Still won’t be able to connect with anybody or hold a conversation because of my childhood abuse and isolation. So what is the fucking point to suffering so verymuch. But at the same time, I can’t bear to just do nothing about it and sit around like I have been. Why did I have to be chosen to carry all these sins of my ancestors. Sometimes I think God made an example of me to spite my parents and punish them. I am the amalgamation of sin. The devil was with me in that crib all those years ago. That must be why this is my destiny.
Dnrd but I think I know what ur getting at

Yes, I'm very discouraged rn

I look disgusting in the mirror :feelswhy:
 
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It cant be that bad, if your 18 you got plenty time to save up and get your surgeries done and still enjoy your prime.
Sins of your ancestor? 99% chance you are the luckiest among every one of your anscestor's livelihood.
Beta Low T cuck go rape someone if your this unsatisfied.
 
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Every time I see myself it’s like a reminder of this curse that was put on me 18 years ago. Even if I do muster up the courage to push through my medical trauma and anxiety and the surgery to fix my strabismus goes well, I’ll still be clinically recessed, bugeyed, infra-less, and short faced. So then even after I wage slave for years to afford trimax with implants, and by the time that surgery date comes, I’ll be old. I’ll have missed out on what could’ve been if I wasn’t deformed. And I still won’t ever be able to drive, or walk through a dimly lit restaurant without tripping over something, because my eyes don’t fucking work right, because of genetics. And I’ll still be autistic. Still won’t be able to connect with anybody or hold a conversation because of my childhood abuse and isolation. So what is the fucking point to suffering so verymuch. But at the same time, I can’t bear to just do nothing about it and sit around like I have been. Why did I have to be chosen to carry all these sins of my ancestors. Sometimes I think God made an example of me to spite my parents and punish them. I am the amalgamation of sin. The devil was with me in that crib all those years ago. That must be why this is my destiny.
Preaching to the choir I’m in the exact same situation :feelsrope::feelscry:
 
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Dnrd but I think I know what ur getting at

Yes, I'm very discouraged rn

I look disgusting in the mirror :feelswhy:
You look above average and you know it egoistic bitch
 
It cant be that bad, if your 18 you got plenty time to save up and get your surgeries done and still enjoy your prime.
Sins of your ancestor? 99% chance you are the luckiest among every one of your anscestor's livelihood.
My grandparents all had functioning bodies and lived neurotypical lives, shit only got fucked up with my generation, I genuinely do believe it’s some kind of supernatural curse when I compare myself to my relatives and imagine us as the same species
 
Im already practically dead, I was born and it was over
IMG 0840
 
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My grandparents all had functioning bodies and lived neurotypical lives, shit only got fucked up with my generation, I genuinely do believe it’s some kind of supernatural curse when I compare myself to my relatives and imagine us as the same species
because they had triple the test you have. They ignored their worst emotions and kept going forward, and that process is what gave them joy. Now take you with no purpose in life, so self indulged, and crying for the littlelest things
 
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because they had triple the test you have. They ignored their worst emotions and kept going forward, and that process is what gave them joy. Now take you with no purpose in life, so self indulged, and crying for the littlelest things
Doesnt make sense to me, if they’re higher test then why am I balding so bad I have to take fin while they kept Norwood 1s to the grave
 
Every time I see myself it’s like a reminder of this curse that was put on me 18 years ago. Even if I do muster up the courage to push through my medical trauma and anxiety and the surgery to fix my strabismus goes well, I’ll still be clinically recessed, bugeyed, infra-less, and short faced. So then even after I wage slave for years to afford trimax with implants, and by the time that surgery date comes, I’ll be old. I’ll have missed out on what could’ve been if I wasn’t deformed. And I still won’t ever be able to drive, or walk through a dimly lit restaurant without tripping over something, because my eyes don’t fucking work right, because of genetics. And I’ll still be autistic. Still won’t be able to connect with anybody or hold a conversation because of my childhood abuse and isolation. So what is the fucking point to suffering so verymuch. But at the same time, I can’t bear to just do nothing about it and sit around like I have been. Why did I have to be chosen to carry all these sins of my ancestors. Sometimes I think God made an example of me to spite my parents and punish them. I am the amalgamation of sin. The devil was with me in that crib all those years ago. That must be why this is my destiny.
Pay to win or win the lottery
 
Doesnt make sense to me, if they’re higher test then why am I balding so bad I have to take fin while they kept Norwood 1s to the grave
Destiny. They were destined for greatness and fulfilness while you are mesnt to kill yourself as fast as possible
 
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We need to push ahead and try to sort out our issues and disadvantages to their best of our abilities. That’s all we can do.
 
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Destiny. They were destined for greatness and fulfilness while you are mesnt to kill yourself as fast as possible
Exactly
 
We need to push ahead and try to sort out our issues and disadvantages to their best of our abilities. That’s all we can do.
i would shoot myself in my head right now if thats what is supposed to keep me going
 
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i would shoot myself in my head right now if thats what is supposed to keep me going
You should only ever consider that if you exhausted every option to the best of your abilities and there’s still no hope or solution.

Which for 99.9% of people isn’t the case
 
take the other route and make your ancestors proud as you go. Whether its getting shot down on the battlefield or facial necrosis on the surgery table
 
You should only ever consider that if you exhausted every option to the best of your abilities and there’s still no hope or solution.

Which for 99.9% of people isn’t the case
keep thinking in statistics and youll become one yourself
 
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its hard when everything enforces your biases
 

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