It's fucking over for me

[bogdan328]

I've been struggling with insomnia for 2 years

I used to be an impressive 178cm at 13 and now im a barely above average 185cm at 15, my face is full of acne and it's all because of poor sleep quality. I had to drop out of high-school bcs of my absences (already had over 100 in December) but i will get back into high-school in September.

I cant get myself to do anything ive been rotting in my bed for the past 6 months i am a useless dumb fucking cunt

I am still stuck as 8 yr old me who tried to commit suicide multiple times all bcs of bullying and not being taken seriously at all by anyone


My very first childhood memory is of my mom beating the fuck out of me on my 4th bday and it's fucking crazy how i dont remember most of my childhood but i remember this


I had to switch schools 3 times all beacuse of bullying and for some reason every school i went to managed to blame me for standing up to a group of 3-5 slightly older guys verbally and physically bullying me


I can't get over my past no matter how much i try or want to


i fear my gf will break up with me and that's because i cant show love. I never knew what love was until i met her. I've never loved anyone before her so now i have no idea how to show my love for her and she's slowly losing her feelings for me i fear ( we've been togheter for 1 year and 3 months and that's already a big surprise for me i never tought someone would stay with me for more than 6 months)




Suicide has always been on my mind and that's part of the reason i gave up on trying to fix my life and now im wondering if i should end it or actually try to fix my fucking mess of a "life"


(Dont judge my writing skills please i learned english online i never payed attention in any classes at all, even if i tried to pay attention they would always mess with me)

 

[trench]

not a single word

 

[War_In_Chiraq]

 

[davidlaidisme67]

Holy shit your life sounds so similar to mines except I’m 3 years older and a cm shorter. Trust me man it’s going to get worse (nvm fuck you faggot just read the gf part)

 

[bogdan328]

Holy shit your life sounds so similar to mines except I’m 3 years older and a cm shorter. Trust me man it’s going to get worse (nvm fuck you faggot just read the gf part)

Can't get much worse tbh. There's 1 thing that can make it worse and that's my girl dumping me but other than that it's already as bad as it gets

 

[Judge Holden]

I've been struggling with insomnia for 2 years

I used to be an impressive 178cm at 13 and now im a barely above average 185cm at 15, my face is full of acne and it's all because of poor sleep quality. I had to drop out of high-school bcs of my absences (already had over 100 in December) but i will get back into high-school in September.

I cant get myself to do anything ive been rotting in my bed for the past 6 months i am a useless dumb fucking cunt

I am still stuck as 8 yr old me who tried to commit suicide multiple times all bcs of bullying and not being taken seriously at all by anyone


My very first childhood memory is of my mom beating the fuck out of me on my 4th bday and it's fucking crazy how i dont remember most of my childhood but i remember this


I had to switch schools 3 times all beacuse of bullying and for some reason every school i went to managed to blame me for standing up to a group of 3-5 slightly older guys verbally and physically bullying me


I can't get over my past no matter how much i try or want to


i fear my gf will break up with me and that's because i cant show love. I never knew what love was until i met her. I've never loved anyone before her so now i have no idea how to show my love for her and she's slowly losing her feelings for me i fear ( we've been togheter for 1 year and 3 months and that's already a big surprise for me i never tought someone would stay with me for more than 6 months)




Suicide has always been on my mind and that's part of the reason i gave up on trying to fix my life and now im wondering if i should end it or actually try to fix my fucking mess of a "life"


(Dont judge my writing skills please i learned english online i never payed attention in any classes at all, even if i tried to pay attention they would always mess with me)

Everything was fine until you mentioned your gf

 

[bogdan328]

Everything was fine until you mentioned your gf

Why did yall get so mad ive been with her for over 1 year she's only with me bcs im her first love
I used to be very social now i have like 2 friends i go out with like twice a month and other than that i stay inside every single fucking day in the last 6 months i only left my house like 20 times

Not only that but she wrote a whole ass essay about why we should break up but decided to give the relationship and me another month to try and change

If she breaks up with me im never getting with another girl

 

[Judge Holden]

Why did yall get so mad ive been with her for over 1 year she's only with me bcs im her first love
I used to be very social now i have like 2 friends i go out with like twice a month and other than that i stay inside every single fucking day in the last 6 months i only left my house like 20 times

Not only that but she wrote a whole ass essay about why we should break up but decided to give the relationship and me another month to try and change

If she breaks up with me im never getting with another girl

Seriously, wiggers (whitecels) make life impossible, but many truecels would like to have that, I have only had affairs and as such I have never truly loved.
I feel fucking bad for that alone, but still, I guess the right one hasn't come along yet...

 

[bogdan328]

Seriously, wiggers (whitecels) make life impossible, but many truecels would like to have that, I have only had affairs and as such I have never truly loved.
I feel fucking bad for that alone, but still, I guess the right one hasn't come along yet...

If u want a girlfriend just go outside with friends (or without) and make sure u look happy and approachable
Ik everyone says this but as long as u take care of urself, look clean and smell good you should be fine.
Depending on ur age (please tell me how old u are) i think i can give u a few more tips but having a social life is the most important thing in my opinion