potatomasher
mashpotatoes
- Joined
- Jul 19, 2025
- Posts
- 242
- Reputation
- 119
I took drugs when I was 14 and put myself in psychosis and derealisarion for 3 years straight now I can’t even take medications without getting paranoid that they’re gonna poison me I wanted a tattoo but I think that’s gonna poison me even tho in my brain I know it’s not gonna do anything to me and I wanna pin stuff but I can’t through paranoia it’s like as soon as I try something my nerve system automatically goes on high alert regardless of what my brain thinks and I think of all worse case scenarios I can’t have a drop of alcohol without my gut sinking and having the feeling of impending doom it’s so over for me atp is this rope worthy idk it’s pissing me off or should I just stick the needle in mr and do it
