It’s getting worse

[Deleted member 16918]

I actually got a razor and tried cutting my own skin. I wake up and feel even more worthless than the day before. I don’t know why I’m like this but maybe it’s because I’ve been like this for a while? I remember when I was 9 I used to keep a knife under my pillow and I’d keep it in there so I could point it at my stomach and try to push it into my skin so I could finally die.
When I was in middle school I would cut myself like an emo faggot. I don’t know why I had the urge to do it again now. I hate existing and I don’t know how people enjoy life.

 

[ropemax]

Never understood self harm. You're in pain 24/7 but you want to cause yourself more pain