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fifteenflagsfly
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I noticed that even around other black people you stand out so much. Sometimes I'll be around other black people for like 20 seconds and they'll start roasting me.
However, I stand out everywhere else too. It seems there is nowehere to go as a black aspie, black people hate you and white people hate you too. If I was white/asian, I could hang out with aspies of my race and I would fit in fully (and I do hang out mainly with white aspies as I am now).
Even if I had no friends as a white aspie I could at least blend in and not look weird around other people, as a black aspie it's like people watch your every awkward move due to how much you stand out. People give me awkward looks in public, I get laughed at by strangers when I do something aspie. I used to think this was racism but black people do it too, ALOT lol.
Even when I go back to Africa, everyone (at least in middle-class spaces) is an Americanised fake gangster that says the n-word every minute, like I can't fit in there.
People belittle me in Africa and do not like me, my cousins who are in other countries (USA, Canada etc) do not talk to me. I am considered the lowest of the low in my family. I am sure that if I died only parents and grandparents would care, none of my cousins or family that are in my generation would give two shits.
The only time I'm able to make friends is with aspies of other races, or normies that take pity on me and befriend me. Most times that I try to make friends with ANYONE I am immediately shut down.
Being black like removes your right to be aspie or something like it is unacceptable. idk what to do.
However, I stand out everywhere else too. It seems there is nowehere to go as a black aspie, black people hate you and white people hate you too. If I was white/asian, I could hang out with aspies of my race and I would fit in fully (and I do hang out mainly with white aspies as I am now).
Even if I had no friends as a white aspie I could at least blend in and not look weird around other people, as a black aspie it's like people watch your every awkward move due to how much you stand out. People give me awkward looks in public, I get laughed at by strangers when I do something aspie. I used to think this was racism but black people do it too, ALOT lol.
Even when I go back to Africa, everyone (at least in middle-class spaces) is an Americanised fake gangster that says the n-word every minute, like I can't fit in there.
People belittle me in Africa and do not like me, my cousins who are in other countries (USA, Canada etc) do not talk to me. I am considered the lowest of the low in my family. I am sure that if I died only parents and grandparents would care, none of my cousins or family that are in my generation would give two shits.
The only time I'm able to make friends is with aspies of other races, or normies that take pity on me and befriend me. Most times that I try to make friends with ANYONE I am immediately shut down.
Being black like removes your right to be aspie or something like it is unacceptable. idk what to do.
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