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I found out about this in late 2023. I was in class, and coincidentally, one of my classmates had already discovered the blackpill (he almost roped, but he’s doing fine now). We were just joking around, scrolling through TikTok, back when all the Chico Jordan brainrot was still everywhere.
That’s when we came across an actual post about ideal facial ratios and how certain features can tank your appearance. That’s when it really hit me — my eye area looked bad, I was overweight, and I had severe facial recession.
At first, I didn’t think too much of it. But in early 2024, I got rejected, switched schools, and no one really wanted to talk to me. Eventually, I looked into it more and found out about lookism.
I had just started going to the gym, so I wasn’t too bothered at first. But then summer came, and when vacation was over, reality really hit me. I just waited for school to start again, but it was honestly the most insecure I’ve ever felt in my life. I’d literally turn my head the other way when I saw someone walking by.
At some point, I told myself: “Come on, try this self-improvement thing.” I started cutting weight, and it actually worked — I maintained all my muscle. But then it felt like a ceiling was placed above me.
From August 2024 until today, I’ve made zero progress. I’ve gained knowledge — I know exactly what I should be doing during my teenage years — but I just can’t commit to anything for more than 4 days. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.
Thankfully, I’m getting BSSO sometime next year, so I might be able to enjoy at least a part of my teenage years. I’m also heading into high school, but I skipped 3 grades, so I have no idea how that’s going to work out being 3 years younger than my classmates.
Honestly, I don’t even know if it’s worth trying during these last two months. I’ve said so many times before that I’ll stay committed — just look at my old posts, it’s actually hilarious how often I’ve said that.
Thanks for reading.
Queue the DNRs.
That’s when we came across an actual post about ideal facial ratios and how certain features can tank your appearance. That’s when it really hit me — my eye area looked bad, I was overweight, and I had severe facial recession.
At first, I didn’t think too much of it. But in early 2024, I got rejected, switched schools, and no one really wanted to talk to me. Eventually, I looked into it more and found out about lookism.
I had just started going to the gym, so I wasn’t too bothered at first. But then summer came, and when vacation was over, reality really hit me. I just waited for school to start again, but it was honestly the most insecure I’ve ever felt in my life. I’d literally turn my head the other way when I saw someone walking by.
At some point, I told myself: “Come on, try this self-improvement thing.” I started cutting weight, and it actually worked — I maintained all my muscle. But then it felt like a ceiling was placed above me.
From August 2024 until today, I’ve made zero progress. I’ve gained knowledge — I know exactly what I should be doing during my teenage years — but I just can’t commit to anything for more than 4 days. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.
Thankfully, I’m getting BSSO sometime next year, so I might be able to enjoy at least a part of my teenage years. I’m also heading into high school, but I skipped 3 grades, so I have no idea how that’s going to work out being 3 years younger than my classmates.
Honestly, I don’t even know if it’s worth trying during these last two months. I’ve said so many times before that I’ll stay committed — just look at my old posts, it’s actually hilarious how often I’ve said that.
Thanks for reading.
Queue the DNRs.
