ihatehighschool
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btw(sorry for my HORRIBLE english but school didn't teach me shit about english and everything i know is from youtube; cs1.6; csgo and shit that i watched in english so yeah, im sorry)
Oh... THIS SHIT IS GOING TO BE LONG BHAI, better alt f4 this page before even trying to read it lol.
So i read this guy's post https://looksmax.org/threads/my-life-is-genuinely-dogshit-and-pure-ropefuel.1393817/ about his life
talking about misery and how bad his life is(im not trying to pick on you bhai, i understand you and i am really sorry for you, i pray for you and i hope your life will get better).
Since i am THE BEST LOSER ON THIS FORUM AND NO ONE IS MORE RETARDED THAN i am, im gonna talk about what the fuck happened to me and BE PREPARED FOR SOME DELUSIONAL SHIT THAT WILL SKYROCKET UR BRAIN STRAIGHT TO FUCKING GATES OF OLYMPUS(i don't fucking know why i said that but anyway lol, ts is bad, worst u can imagine ig. ), anyway too much crying let's get to the story.
(idiot remark), i may crashout during this post so BE PREPARED TO HAVE THE BEST TIME OF YOUR LIFE GUYS!!!
Im gonna start with my downfall when i got to highschool but before that, i am a SUBHUMAN
I clasify myself as a SUBHUMAN because it was already over when i was born.
It never began.
"Why?"
I got born with only one eye(i lost the other one so basically i was half blind)
over for this section. The fucked up thing is that it looked horrible, like this
"but bro it looks cool"
trust me, irl LOOKED HORRIBLE,
(old pic, 2022 3 september)
anyway, shit got bad when i got 17 and they told me that the "disease" from the eye that was blind could transfer to the "normal" eye(i barely see with this one too so i have to wear glasses to see SOMETHING FFS) so i had to do a surgery where they removed my eye.
They removed it completely.
I wore an WHITE ocular prothesis for some time which i think looked cool xD(delusional mentally ill handicap)
i wore this one for 1 month then they painted another one to match the other one which looks like this.
(Don't metion my uper eyelid bla bla because i had to squint since i was BORN because of that eye that was fucked)
Last thing about the ocular prothesis. Behind the eye with it there is nothing, just an empty space and the "eye" with the prothesis only moves 10% so its kinda noticeable i guess..
Anyway, now moving on to the story, in short terms because this shit is so long, it would take me 5 days to write lol.
Ok so what's the thing with my name?
This was my fucking hair in 9th grade
Photo made on 7 March 2022.
Over all this years highschool gave me so much fucking anxiety and stress(+ My bad nutrition
+ My bad sleep + Rotting in my chair at my pc, never doing any sports + Drying my hair with hot air and other traumas that gave me more stress that i will never talk here because i am going to talk only about myself and never about my relationships or etc etc.)
Anyway, fast forward to fucking 12th grade
NO MORE FUCKING HAIR, WE ARE BALD LETS GOOOO (FULL ROPEFUEL)
Photo made on 12Feb 2025.
Hairpill is brutal. Please take care of yourself
Your hair
Your nutrition
Your sleep
Get your vitamins in
And fuck stress, try to numb yourself or i don't know bhaii.
Just think that you are going to get like me(hope that's enough fuel to stop stressing lol).
LET"S MOVE ON TO THE BODY, BRUTAL
(20th June 2023) first week of gym
Holy fucking true fat ass fortnite enjoyer.
Worst photo of my life?
Here we go BHAI'S
This was me at highschool on 15FEB 2023 AND THE THING IS THAT THE PHOTO HAS BEAUTY FILTER ON BRO, do you even realize how bad that shit was irl.
Face FUCKED because of acnee l cystic acnee which gave me so much fucking pain and still gives l
Hair? FUCKED
Not to mention that i have Hyperhidrosis and i HAVE TO TAKE 3 DIFF t shirts with me lol.
FULL ROPEFUEL BRO.
Anyway,
24/7 Numb
24/7 Burnout
24/7 Hopeless
I really should commit, like literally there's no point for me to live but i would make my parents and my sister suffer.
They don't deserve any suffering.
I do because i am a piece of shit
And i am such a Burden because i had to put them to so much fucking shit that they didn't deserve because they are the most fucking kind people, literally angels.
They didn't deserve such a Burden.
(I have to do bimax because of my mandible that is Recessed/Deformed/Regressed)
I don't fucking know the state of my mandible but i have an overjet and they can't put me braces because it would make it worse so they told me i need to fucking do a surgery.
Not to mention that i need to do a SAP tear surgery because of my fucking ego lifting retardism but anyway.
Next Chapter of the Story.
12 Feb 2025(all of these photos)
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Current state of hair
20.04.2025
I may be delusional but here is everything i have/do
Microneedle(dermastamp) 0.75mm 1x/2x Daily("But i think that's too much for your scalp bro, you can damage your hair follicles) (morning and before bed)
Well um...yeah anyway
Rosemary Oil (Mielle)
Shampoo with Rosemary(Mielle)
Rosemary Mask(Mielle)
PTD-DBM(InfiniteWell)
Scalp massage 2X daily(morning and before bed)
If you notice my face being dry, that's because i am on 20Mg of accutane(started with 20mg which i think, kinda FUCKED ME, i think that's too much to start with but anyway.)
Drink 2-4L of Water everyday no matter what.
(and don't fucking drink monster like i do, just drink water and maybe have some zero SODAS RARELY. don't take me as an example since im fucking retarded).
Skincare: Its pretty much normal,
Cleanse
Exfoliate(Not everyday)
Spf
Moisturizer
In the next future if i don't achieve clear skin(Currently having a shit diet and drinking A MAXIMUM AMMOUNT OF 2L of water a day,) i ll do a restart
have good nutrition
drink atleast 3L of water
Minimum sleep of 7H
Switch my pillow cases
And about stress.... i really can't handle it
I am stressed 24/7, at this point i need to take some fucking pills to regulate my brain but whatever.
And also add tretinoin 0.025 since i am already using Isotretinoin of 20mg which is TOO fucking much but anyway(You gotta do what you gotta do.)
Body : (8 Months of taking gym pretty seriously but not 100% cause i can't have the goal of my macro nutrients cause food is expensive and i am BROKE AS SHIT)
"but bro u said 8 months and u started in 2023 june, are you fucking retarded?"
from june 2023 till august 2024 i only ate processed food and food labelled as "HIGH PROTEIN" so yeah... u kinda get my point..
not to mention that i was doing 4 sets of fucking 15 REPS LIKE WTF. FOR EVERY FUCKING EXERCICES.
HOLY TRUE FATIGUE
the only thing that i got into the first year of the gym was the MIND-MUSCLE connection, that's all(and got used to the exercises as well.
, anyway moving on
8 months of extremely bad sleep(because of highschool, i get 6 hours of sleep at MAX because i can't fucking fall asleep for some fucking reason.)
I go to bed at 21:00(9PM) i fall asleep at 3AM
I go to bed at 2AM, i fall asleep at 3AM
But when its a weekend, for some fucking REASON. i fall asleep at 3-5 due to my ABUSE OF DISCORD and wake up at 9am
I wish i could sleep for two days straight without waking up or having a day that this body could sleep for 10 Hours.
I never understood and will never understand this body lol.(or maybe it is my brain or me or I DON"T FUCKING KNOW)
I go 3 to maximum 4 times a week to gym since i train pretty hard and because i train like this i need a lot of time for recovery since after every workout i feel like shit and can barely get out of bed.
Face Bones.
Yeah im not gonna talk about this and never will.
Moving on to Another Subject.
I am not gonna talk about my mental disorders(self diagnosed mentally retardedcel
being dead serious now i really hope i don't have any mental problems, i ll go to a psychologist to do some tests at some point but not now cause it's the last year of highschool and in two months i have an exam
I really don't give a fuck about that exam since highschool destroyed my life(as i explained in 'SHORT TERMS" but i don't want my parrents to be sad or to see them disappointed even tho i know they don't care THAT MUCH (now, in the past they did but my mental got extremely bad because of highschool) about the grades
They just want to see me happy... and normal but....you already know the answer.)
Why you shouldn't commit.(gonna keep it in short terms bhai, i hope lol)
Yeah, we all find suicide as an escape of our problems and our stress, and i know some of... people that passed away got stuck into that corner of the mind and commited.
Im really sorry for them but
There's only ONE life that you live, only one fucking time experience.
Take life as a experience no matter what.
Never commit it cause after you die, you can't even regret it.
Fuck life man
Fuck everything
Take it as a experience
It's never over until you say it is i guess.
No matter what find a way to improve yourself everyday.
1% everyday.
Do something that benefits you no matter what.
No matter how hard it is just keep going man.
There's only one life.
Live it
Experience it
And
That's it.
I'm sorry I broke my oath of "I will never post on this forum and never make account" made in
August 2024 but..
Yeah, it is what it is.
Take care of yourself guys.
Embrace hope.
Embrace faith.
If there is really NOTHING LEFT that you can do,
Take it as a "one time experience"
We only live once.
Oh... THIS SHIT IS GOING TO BE LONG BHAI, better alt f4 this page before even trying to read it lol.
So i read this guy's post https://looksmax.org/threads/my-life-is-genuinely-dogshit-and-pure-ropefuel.1393817/ about his life
talking about misery and how bad his life is(im not trying to pick on you bhai, i understand you and i am really sorry for you, i pray for you and i hope your life will get better).
Since i am THE BEST LOSER ON THIS FORUM AND NO ONE IS MORE RETARDED THAN i am, im gonna talk about what the fuck happened to me and BE PREPARED FOR SOME DELUSIONAL SHIT THAT WILL SKYROCKET UR BRAIN STRAIGHT TO FUCKING GATES OF OLYMPUS(i don't fucking know why i said that but anyway lol, ts is bad, worst u can imagine ig. ), anyway too much crying let's get to the story.
(idiot remark), i may crashout during this post so BE PREPARED TO HAVE THE BEST TIME OF YOUR LIFE GUYS!!!
Im gonna start with my downfall when i got to highschool but before that, i am a SUBHUMAN
I clasify myself as a SUBHUMAN because it was already over when i was born.
It never began.
"Why?"
I got born with only one eye(i lost the other one so basically i was half blind)
over for this section. The fucked up thing is that it looked horrible, like this
"but bro it looks cool"
trust me, irl LOOKED HORRIBLE,
anyway, shit got bad when i got 17 and they told me that the "disease" from the eye that was blind could transfer to the "normal" eye(i barely see with this one too so i have to wear glasses to see SOMETHING FFS) so i had to do a surgery where they removed my eye.
They removed it completely.
I wore an WHITE ocular prothesis for some time which i think looked cool xD(delusional mentally ill handicap)
i wore this one for 1 month then they painted another one to match the other one which looks like this.
Last thing about the ocular prothesis. Behind the eye with it there is nothing, just an empty space and the "eye" with the prothesis only moves 10% so its kinda noticeable i guess..
Anyway, now moving on to the story, in short terms because this shit is so long, it would take me 5 days to write lol.
Ok so what's the thing with my name?
This was my fucking hair in 9th grade
Over all this years highschool gave me so much fucking anxiety and stress(+ My bad nutrition
+ My bad sleep + Rotting in my chair at my pc, never doing any sports + Drying my hair with hot air and other traumas that gave me more stress that i will never talk here because i am going to talk only about myself and never about my relationships or etc etc.)
Anyway, fast forward to fucking 12th grade
NO MORE FUCKING HAIR, WE ARE BALD LETS GOOOO (FULL ROPEFUEL)
Hairpill is brutal. Please take care of yourself
Your hair
Your nutrition
Your sleep
Get your vitamins in
And fuck stress, try to numb yourself or i don't know bhaii.
Just think that you are going to get like me(hope that's enough fuel to stop stressing lol).
LET"S MOVE ON TO THE BODY, BRUTAL
Worst photo of my life?
Here we go BHAI'S
Face FUCKED because of acnee l cystic acnee which gave me so much fucking pain and still gives l
Hair? FUCKED
Not to mention that i have Hyperhidrosis and i HAVE TO TAKE 3 DIFF t shirts with me lol.
FULL ROPEFUEL BRO.
Anyway,
24/7 Numb
24/7 Burnout
24/7 Hopeless
I really should commit, like literally there's no point for me to live but i would make my parents and my sister suffer.
They don't deserve any suffering.
I do because i am a piece of shit
And i am such a Burden because i had to put them to so much fucking shit that they didn't deserve because they are the most fucking kind people, literally angels.
They didn't deserve such a Burden.
(I have to do bimax because of my mandible that is Recessed/Deformed/Regressed)
I don't fucking know the state of my mandible but i have an overjet and they can't put me braces because it would make it worse so they told me i need to fucking do a surgery.
Not to mention that i need to do a SAP tear surgery because of my fucking ego lifting retardism but anyway.
Next Chapter of the Story.
Current state of hair
20.04.2025
I may be delusional but here is everything i have/do
Microneedle(dermastamp) 0.75mm 1x/2x Daily("But i think that's too much for your scalp bro, you can damage your hair follicles) (morning and before bed)
Well um...yeah anyway
Rosemary Oil (Mielle)
Shampoo with Rosemary(Mielle)
Rosemary Mask(Mielle)
PTD-DBM(InfiniteWell)
Scalp massage 2X daily(morning and before bed)
If you notice my face being dry, that's because i am on 20Mg of accutane(started with 20mg which i think, kinda FUCKED ME, i think that's too much to start with but anyway.)
Drink 2-4L of Water everyday no matter what.
(and don't fucking drink monster like i do, just drink water and maybe have some zero SODAS RARELY. don't take me as an example since im fucking retarded).
Skincare: Its pretty much normal,
Cleanse
Exfoliate(Not everyday)
Spf
Moisturizer
In the next future if i don't achieve clear skin(Currently having a shit diet and drinking A MAXIMUM AMMOUNT OF 2L of water a day,) i ll do a restart
have good nutrition
drink atleast 3L of water
Minimum sleep of 7H
Switch my pillow cases
And about stress.... i really can't handle it
I am stressed 24/7, at this point i need to take some fucking pills to regulate my brain but whatever.
And also add tretinoin 0.025 since i am already using Isotretinoin of 20mg which is TOO fucking much but anyway(You gotta do what you gotta do.)
Body : (8 Months of taking gym pretty seriously but not 100% cause i can't have the goal of my macro nutrients cause food is expensive and i am BROKE AS SHIT)
"but bro u said 8 months and u started in 2023 june, are you fucking retarded?"
from june 2023 till august 2024 i only ate processed food and food labelled as "HIGH PROTEIN" so yeah... u kinda get my point..
not to mention that i was doing 4 sets of fucking 15 REPS LIKE WTF. FOR EVERY FUCKING EXERCICES.
HOLY TRUE FATIGUE
the only thing that i got into the first year of the gym was the MIND-MUSCLE connection, that's all(and got used to the exercises as well.
, anyway moving on
8 months of extremely bad sleep(because of highschool, i get 6 hours of sleep at MAX because i can't fucking fall asleep for some fucking reason.)
I go to bed at 21:00(9PM) i fall asleep at 3AM
I go to bed at 2AM, i fall asleep at 3AM
But when its a weekend, for some fucking REASON. i fall asleep at 3-5 due to my ABUSE OF DISCORD and wake up at 9am
I wish i could sleep for two days straight without waking up or having a day that this body could sleep for 10 Hours.
I never understood and will never understand this body lol.(or maybe it is my brain or me or I DON"T FUCKING KNOW)
I go 3 to maximum 4 times a week to gym since i train pretty hard and because i train like this i need a lot of time for recovery since after every workout i feel like shit and can barely get out of bed.
Face Bones.
Yeah im not gonna talk about this and never will.
Moving on to Another Subject.
I am not gonna talk about my mental disorders(self diagnosed mentally retardedcel
being dead serious now i really hope i don't have any mental problems, i ll go to a psychologist to do some tests at some point but not now cause it's the last year of highschool and in two months i have an exam
I really don't give a fuck about that exam since highschool destroyed my life(as i explained in 'SHORT TERMS" but i don't want my parrents to be sad or to see them disappointed even tho i know they don't care THAT MUCH (now, in the past they did but my mental got extremely bad because of highschool) about the grades
They just want to see me happy... and normal but....you already know the answer.)
Why you shouldn't commit.(gonna keep it in short terms bhai, i hope lol)
Yeah, we all find suicide as an escape of our problems and our stress, and i know some of... people that passed away got stuck into that corner of the mind and commited.
Im really sorry for them but
There's only ONE life that you live, only one fucking time experience.
Take life as a experience no matter what.
Never commit it cause after you die, you can't even regret it.
Fuck life man
Fuck everything
Take it as a experience
It's never over until you say it is i guess.
No matter what find a way to improve yourself everyday.
1% everyday.
Do something that benefits you no matter what.
No matter how hard it is just keep going man.
There's only one life.
Live it
Experience it
And
That's it.
I'm sorry I broke my oath of "I will never post on this forum and never make account" made in
August 2024 but..
Yeah, it is what it is.
Take care of yourself guys.
Embrace hope.
Embrace faith.
If there is really NOTHING LEFT that you can do,
Take it as a "one time experience"
We only live once.
