It’s over for me

[Vrowding]

I was looking through IG stories about 30 minutes ago, I see my crush’s IG story thinking I’m gonna see her face that I might ask out, despite my original thoughts I read the words “Happy Birthday To (Name), I love you my bf and I’m sad I couldn’t be there to celebrate with you, I love you.”, you can Imagine what I was thinking at that moment, honestly I just wish I would have acted sooner, I can say the guy is an lmtn but he looks better than me, I am genuinely confused on how I am feeling, I’m not sad or mad, I just don’t know what to say, (@nwed this was the same girl I was gonna ask out), I might just start blasting now even though all my ancillaries aren’t here, I could care less about the damage it would do right now, I just don’t know how to feel, I don’t have any meds to take like Xanax and I can’t smoke since my parents would immediately smell it, I feel like a cuck, I don’t know what to do at this point, I used to genuinely have dreams about here and I mean literal dreams about here, she wasn’t one of those girls you would pump n dump, she was one of those innocent ones that you would have a solid and flourishing relationship with, I can’t do anything about it, I don’t even think about her like that after seeing that string of text on my screen, I might block her now since she’s the type to post anything which would include all of that lovey dovey kissing shit, I have no more words except, I have no more feeling towards her, not hatred, not sadness, only limerence.

 

[Vrowding]

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[nwed]

I was looking through IG stories about 30 minutes ago, I see my crush’s IG story thinking I’m gonna see her face that I might ask out, despite my original thoughts I read the words “Happy Birthday To (Name), I love you my bf and I’m sad I couldn’t be there to celebrate with you, I love you.”, you can Imagine what I was thinking at that moment, honestly I just wish I would have acted sooner, I can say the guy is an lmtn but he looks better than me, I am genuinely confused on how I am feeling, I’m not sad or mad, I just don’t know what to say, (@nwed this was the same girl I was gonna ask out), I might just start blasting now even though all my ancillaries aren’t here, I could care less about the damage it would do right now, I just don’t know how to feel, I don’t have any meds to take like Xanax and I can’t smoke since my parents would immediately smell it, I feel like a cuck, I don’t know what to do at this point, I used to genuinely have dreams about here and I mean literal dreams about here, she wasn’t one of those girls you would pump n dump, she was one of those innocent ones that you would have a solid and flourishing relationship with, I can’t do anything about it, I don’t even think about her like that after seeing that string of text on my screen, I might block her now since she’s the type to post anything which would include all of that lovey dovey kissing shit, I have no more words except, I have no more feeling towards her, not hatred, not sadness, only limerence.

Oh shit thats brutal

Hope you the best brah, i feel bad for ya