niggerslayer.
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I cant stand my life, i am 164 cm 15 yo 44kg.
I have 2 friends in my life (i am by far not their first choice in anything) never had a female friend (basicly until now). I strugle to socialze with anyone. I feel unseen in every aspect in my life, not to talk about my horrid face, everytime i go out i feel dwarfed by people way younger then me. I struggle with going out at all. I cannot go outside without my ND showing. Recently ive started talking with this female (from another town), we talked like half an hour for 3 days in a row. My first time talking to a girl, except my mother and sister. I was of course very nervous. (She has broken up with some1 i know like 2 weeks ago) i tried my best to be "my self" and "confident", after 3 days that we talked turns out we have similer music taste, and we have simmiler hobbies. Then she asked me to face reveal.. we havent talked since then, she said i was "cute" i have tried to talk to her again since, i feel like i am such a deep person, and i deserve friends and love but still yet i am lonely. I start high school in 3 days, i am thinking of suicide i cry myslef to sleep every night i cannot take this anymore. Those 3 days i talked with her were the only none miserbale days of my whole summer and i am worried i fucked this up for good, if i have updates on my situation i will write them, For now goodbye.
I have 2 friends in my life (i am by far not their first choice in anything) never had a female friend (basicly until now). I strugle to socialze with anyone. I feel unseen in every aspect in my life, not to talk about my horrid face, everytime i go out i feel dwarfed by people way younger then me. I struggle with going out at all. I cannot go outside without my ND showing. Recently ive started talking with this female (from another town), we talked like half an hour for 3 days in a row. My first time talking to a girl, except my mother and sister. I was of course very nervous. (She has broken up with some1 i know like 2 weeks ago) i tried my best to be "my self" and "confident", after 3 days that we talked turns out we have similer music taste, and we have simmiler hobbies. Then she asked me to face reveal.. we havent talked since then, she said i was "cute" i have tried to talk to her again since, i feel like i am such a deep person, and i deserve friends and love but still yet i am lonely. I start high school in 3 days, i am thinking of suicide i cry myslef to sleep every night i cannot take this anymore. Those 3 days i talked with her were the only none miserbale days of my whole summer and i am worried i fucked this up for good, if i have updates on my situation i will write them, For now goodbye.
