vrift
I wish to be free
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I can't blame this on me for discovering blackpill or blame it on blackpill to begin with because blackpill just brings the attention to the blind and ignorant that refuse to accept the truth that the whole world revolves around it and everything in it. Roughly 3 years ago was my first experience with something lookism related when my 12 year old self was on tiktok and saw some random guy talking about mewing and nosebreathing and how it could change your face facial structure and all that copium but at the time looksmaxing and bp content was not really a thing on the platform at the time so there was no one trying to debate him or make it clear that he is some retard. This made me make the worst decision of my life and search up mewing on the internet which brought me to Looksmax.org, 12 year old me found it interesting and scrolled through it ruining my perspective on life little by little. Thankfully I didn't stay long on the website and went on with my day. A year later was happened to be the "prime" of lookmaxing content on tiktok where theres all these edits of chico, sean o pry, and jordan barret. Seeing these I went back to the website because I wanted to better myself in looks which resulted in me getting blackpilled at 13, I wasn't fully blackpilled to the point where I am now where nothing can help me escape bp but I was aware of it and loved seeing the type of content produced about it on tiktok. Another year goes by and I am slowly going down the rabbit hole until I reach highschool.
Within the first month of highschool I was 200% blackpilled, scrolling through countless threads and incel forums on the internet changing my whole perspective on life. I knew every possible method of improving any part of the face as well as every surgery. Every method that has been uttered online to improve something cope of not cope I was well aware of it, this is not something to be proud of. Now it is the almost the end of my first year of highschool and I am totally ruined, I've experienced and witnessed with my eyes infinite brutal scenarios throughout the whole year, if I posted every experience I've had I would be rotting in my room for the next eternity to come. From being cucked at parties and in public, getting dumped, hearing manlet slander out loud in public as if it is something that everyone agrees with
, you name it. I am ashamed to go out in public and have people look at my face and or height, I am insecure about everything, I stopped going to malls or major public events or places because I can't risk being laughed at for being short and seeing people my age loving eachother. My whole life is ruined, low inhib, and have zero social skills and negative experience when it comes to having to go through a talking stage. It's over for my chances to experience teenage love. It was over before it begun.
Within the first month of highschool I was 200% blackpilled, scrolling through countless threads and incel forums on the internet changing my whole perspective on life. I knew every possible method of improving any part of the face as well as every surgery. Every method that has been uttered online to improve something cope of not cope I was well aware of it, this is not something to be proud of. Now it is the almost the end of my first year of highschool and I am totally ruined, I've experienced and witnessed with my eyes infinite brutal scenarios throughout the whole year, if I posted every experience I've had I would be rotting in my room for the next eternity to come. From being cucked at parties and in public, getting dumped, hearing manlet slander out loud in public as if it is something that everyone agrees with
, you name it. I am ashamed to go out in public and have people look at my face and or height, I am insecure about everything, I stopped going to malls or major public events or places because I can't risk being laughed at for being short and seeing people my age loving eachother. My whole life is ruined, low inhib, and have zero social skills and negative experience when it comes to having to go through a talking stage. It's over for my chances to experience teenage love. It was over before it begun.
