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18, 5'10 (on a good day), terrible acne which refuses to go away and a horrendous nose which makes people think i'm jewish.
I'm so fucking sick of it, i hate leaving the house and even my room sometimes becuse of how self conscious i feel.
I'm making this because i am terrified of university, i'm going in september to a city with nobody i know, to do a course that i will most likely hate all to get out of the place which i have come to hate. My social anxiety and introverted personality has meant i made ZERO friends in my high school (2 years) and this makes me terrified of university because i know i will be lonely but i just want to go to somewhere new in the hope that i can become a new version of myself. As you can probably tell i am a virgin and have never even spoken to a girl for over 5 mins. Throughout high school i would be mocked by girls due to my childlike facial features, sly coments about my height as i used to be very short. My acne was the biggest issue, i would constantly get nasty looks from people around the school, when i would look around, i would see nobody else with acne and it made me so fucking self conscious.
The few friends i have invited me to go to barcelona a couple weeks ago for a holiday, i thought this could be the chance to finally talk to a girl and maybe go further. I followed them to the clubs, the music events and all the bars but i fucking hated most of it. I hated being too close to others in the club and being completely ignored by girls i tried to talk to. The only, ONLY bit of hope i got from this trip was that one night a gay guy was buying me drinks jfl. I felt horrible because i ignored him after realising he was trying to flirt with me which made me feel like i was one of the girls i tried to talk to. So, sorry to that guy.
I'm going on holiday again in august with the same group of friends to portugal since i my family has a house out there, i'm praying that i can find a girl dumb enough to take interest in me but i have realised from the trip to barcelona that it's over, there is no point trying to approach girls if you are ltn. I'm just going to chainsmoke and drink to hopefully numb the agony of being ugly.
I think the most telling sign of my insecurity is that i have never attempted to take good photo of my face lol, i hate photos. I cringe at every photo i'm in and my friends and family just dont get it. stop taking fucking photos of me.
I hate my job too but that's applicable to most wageslaves.
I dont really know what this was about but i thought i would make my first post on this account and give people an introduction to me if anyone fucking cares.
And please dont reply TLDR or any other bullshit, thanks.
Also MDMA is a great way to make social outings tolerable.
I'm so fucking sick of it, i hate leaving the house and even my room sometimes becuse of how self conscious i feel.
I'm making this because i am terrified of university, i'm going in september to a city with nobody i know, to do a course that i will most likely hate all to get out of the place which i have come to hate. My social anxiety and introverted personality has meant i made ZERO friends in my high school (2 years) and this makes me terrified of university because i know i will be lonely but i just want to go to somewhere new in the hope that i can become a new version of myself. As you can probably tell i am a virgin and have never even spoken to a girl for over 5 mins. Throughout high school i would be mocked by girls due to my childlike facial features, sly coments about my height as i used to be very short. My acne was the biggest issue, i would constantly get nasty looks from people around the school, when i would look around, i would see nobody else with acne and it made me so fucking self conscious.
The few friends i have invited me to go to barcelona a couple weeks ago for a holiday, i thought this could be the chance to finally talk to a girl and maybe go further. I followed them to the clubs, the music events and all the bars but i fucking hated most of it. I hated being too close to others in the club and being completely ignored by girls i tried to talk to. The only, ONLY bit of hope i got from this trip was that one night a gay guy was buying me drinks jfl. I felt horrible because i ignored him after realising he was trying to flirt with me which made me feel like i was one of the girls i tried to talk to. So, sorry to that guy.
I'm going on holiday again in august with the same group of friends to portugal since i my family has a house out there, i'm praying that i can find a girl dumb enough to take interest in me but i have realised from the trip to barcelona that it's over, there is no point trying to approach girls if you are ltn. I'm just going to chainsmoke and drink to hopefully numb the agony of being ugly.
I think the most telling sign of my insecurity is that i have never attempted to take good photo of my face lol, i hate photos. I cringe at every photo i'm in and my friends and family just dont get it. stop taking fucking photos of me.
I hate my job too but that's applicable to most wageslaves.
I dont really know what this was about but i thought i would make my first post on this account and give people an introduction to me if anyone fucking cares.
And please dont reply TLDR or any other bullshit, thanks.
Also MDMA is a great way to make social outings tolerable.
