I've felt depressed since 12 and I never knew it was because of my looks

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When I was 12, the discrimination from lookism ramped up so hard that I started being excluded and alienated from all the other kids. It was always hard on me, facing little comments or jokes, but that year is when I really started falling behind compared to everyone else. I blamed every single aspect of my life except myself. I was so naive. It was never my family's fault, it was never my friends' fault, it was never the bullies fault. The reason that I've felt empty for as long as I can remember is because nobody treats a subhuman with any dignity or any respect. They do the bare minimum to appear moral to others, but it's so obvious that they hate you and your kind for having the gall to appear in front of their eyes. It was cathartic to realize the reason behind my suffering last year at 17. At least I know the truth now, no matter how painful it is and no matter how much it reveals about humanity.
 
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I think you're one of the only genuine truecels on this forum

Brutality, hoping it gets better for you
 
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When I was 12, the discrimination from lookism ramped up so hard that I started being excluded and alienated from all the other kids. It was always hard on me, facing little comments or jokes, but that year is when I really started falling behind compared to everyone else. I blamed every single aspect of my life except myself. I was so naive. It was never my family's fault, it was never my friends' fault, it was never the bullies fault. The reason that I've felt empty for as long as I can remember is because nobody treats a subhuman with any dignity or any respect. They do the bare minimum to appear moral to others, but it's so obvious that they hate you and your kind for having the gall to appear in front of their eyes. It was cathartic to realize the reason behind my suffering last year at 17. At least I know the truth now, no matter how painful it is and no matter how much it reveals about humanity.
Me since 10 🫩
 
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I'm sorry to hear that
 
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I think you're one of the only genuine truecels on this forum

Brutality, hoping it gets better for you
Yeah bro, it's literally insane the card I pulled, I have to softmaxx and fraud to look LTN

I haven't left my house in so long, when I started balding at 16 I had a mental breakdown and learned about BP and plunged deeper than I've ever been in my life.

I have so many surgeries ahead of me and so much suffering, I'm a high inhib mentalcel in a body that needs so much effort to be treated equally
 
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Ur white not possible to be incel tighten up migga
 
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My only joy in my whole life has been escapism in some way or form because I'm genetically not fit for real life, The life I'm living is anything but life
 
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Yeah bro, it's literally insane the card I pulled, I have to softmaxx and fraud to look LTN

I haven't left my house in so long, when I started balding at 16 I had a mental breakdown and learned about BP and plunged deeper than I've ever been in my life.

I have so many surgeries ahead of me and so much suffering, I'm a high inhib mentalcel in a body that needs so much effort to be treated equally
Worst part is that nobody will sympathize with you ever

Only socially acceptable group of people to make fun of in 2025 is short ugly men, everything else is off limits

They're just joked about by normies who go on to live their NT lives getting anything and everything they want with 0 effort and being completely oblivious to how it really is
 
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Worst part is that nobody will sympathize with you ever

Only socially acceptable group of people to make fun of in 2025 is short ugly men, everything else is off limits

They're just joked about by normies who go on to live their NT lives getting anything and everything they want with 0 effort and being completely oblivious to how it really is
Even my own family does it in front of me, let alone my generation. The first attribute mentioned about any man is their looks. A mugshot on the news of a bald subhuman is mocked not for their actions but for their appearance. At the same time, a successful actor is universally loved and admired by humanity for his good genetics.

The same people who tried to feed me lies when I was 7 crying about being made fun of for my fucked up eyes every day now refuse to acknowledge how detrimental my life has been. I feel like my life has been robbed from me by no one in particular. Maybe God.
 
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felt the same way too during my childhood, development years. because of my subhumanity, i would switch over to coping with gaming, locking myself away from everyone else, my subhuman looks and all this isolation led me to having anxiety over something as simple as talking to people. no one was there to help me, no friends, no role model, no proper support system, fucking nothing
 
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felt the same way too during my childhood, development years. because of my subhumanity, i would switch over to coping with gaming, locking myself away from everyone else, my subhuman looks and all this isolation led me to having anxiety over something as simple as talking to people. no one was there to help me, no friends, no role model, no proper support system, fucking nothing
Literally me bro

My whole life was gaming as a child to cope with the fact nobody wanted anything to do with me, except to be cruel. I can't even stand to think about games anymore tbh, they're ruined in my mind and disgust me. I cope now by sleeping all the time and listening to music and trying to find artificial happiness somewhere far away from my self. I distract myself from my life anyway I can. Any ability I had to connect with strangers is totally gone from the cycle of isolation and abuse for my subhumanity, I'm weird and offputting because they always treated me like I was weird and offputting. Self fulfilling prophecy.

@superpsycho
 
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When I was 12, the discrimination from lookism ramped up so hard that I started being excluded and alienated from all the other kids. It was always hard on me, facing little comments or jokes, but that year is when I really started falling behind compared to everyone else. I blamed every single aspect of my life except myself. I was so naive. It was never my family's fault, it was never my friends' fault, it was never the bullies fault. The reason that I've felt empty for as long as I can remember is because nobody treats a subhuman with any dignity or any respect. They do the bare minimum to appear moral to others, but it's so obvious that they hate you and your kind for having the gall to appear in front of their eyes. It was cathartic to realize the reason behind my suffering last year at 17. At least I know the truth now, no matter how painful it is and no matter how much it reveals about humanity.
Mirin
 
I think you're one of the only genuine truecels on this forum

Brutality, hoping it gets better for you
what about me
 
Bruh send selfie again
I'm going to when I get my eye surgery, hopefully I can get my parents to pay for it and overcome my inhib around surgery, reach ltn and then I can worry about bimax and implants after

I don't even take selfies, my eye has gotten so bad I look like I have down syndrome, it's brutallllll :feelswhy:
 
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I really deluded myself into thinking I could make it in this life if I tried hard enough and had enough determination, now I know all the determination in the world won't give me a better life than an mtn
 
I really deluded myself into thinking I could make it in this life if I tried hard enough and had enough determination, now I know all the determination in the world won't give me a better life than an mtn
drinking 2L of raw milk now, so i dnrd
 
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When I was 12, the discrimination from lookism ramped up so hard that I started being excluded and alienated from all the other kids. It was always hard on me, facing little comments or jokes, but that year is when I really started falling behind compared to everyone else. I blamed every single aspect of my life except myself. I was so naive. It was never my family's fault, it was never my friends' fault, it was never the bullies fault. The reason that I've felt empty for as long as I can remember is because nobody treats a subhuman with any dignity or any respect. They do the bare minimum to appear moral to others, but it's so obvious that they hate you and your kind for having the gall to appear in front of their eyes. It was cathartic to realize the reason behind my suffering last year at 17. At least I know the truth now, no matter how painful it is and no matter how much it reveals about humanity.
Tbh relatable

Im subhuman too

I hate myself

I wanna ascend
 
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Literally me bro

My whole life was gaming as a child to cope with the fact nobody wanted anything to do with me, except to be cruel. I can't even stand to think about games anymore tbh, they're ruined in my mind and disgust me. I cope now by sleeping all the time and listening to music and trying to find artificial happiness somewhere far away from my self. I distract myself from my life anyway I can. Any ability I had to connect with strangers is totally gone from the cycle of isolation and abuse for my subhumanity, I'm weird and offputting because they always treated me like I was weird and offputting. Self fulfilling prophecy.

@superpsycho
a lot of what you say does parallel what i went through all throughout my youth surprisingly. tried getting into gaming again too, cant, waste of fucking time, subhuman cope, disgusting, horrible memories, can’t get into any hobbies nor do i have any genuine interests.brain’s fucked up obviously for not reaching expected social milestones. anything i do is looked at as ‘subhuman cope’ either way. do consider weed though, one of the few things that actually shifts your headspace a bit
 
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a lot of what you say does parallel what i went through all throughout my youth surprisingly. tried getting into gaming again too, cant, waste of fucking time, subhuman cope, disgusting, horrible memories, can’t get into any hobbies nor do i have any genuine interests.brain’s fucked up obviously for not reaching expected social milestones. anything i do is looked at as ‘subhuman cope’ either way. do consider weed though, one of the few things that actually shifts your headspace a bit
Weed was the best cope of my life. I swear we're the same person bro. I started smoking the summer I turned 16 and instantly got hooked. It was the best period of my life and helped me be more delusional about my situation and less hopeless. I was even able to talk to people and cope with the discrimination against me. But after a couple months it started making me so sick to my stomach I was forced to quit and never touch it again. That was the worst time of my life to have my only cope torn away from me
 
Weed was the best cope of my life. I swear we're the same person bro. I started smoking the summer I turned 16 and instantly got hooked. It was the best period of my life and helped me be more delusional about my situation and less hopeless. I was even able to talk to people and cope with the discrimination against me. But after a couple months it started making me so sick to my stomach I was forced to quit and never touch it again. That was the worst time of my life to have my only cope torn away from me
edibles are a way better alternate to smoking, lasts way longer too but the activation is about an hour. i can never stand the nauseating smell of smoking, cant enjoy with how bad my lung tolerance is. get back on it if you can, one of the better copes haha
 
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