Blackout.xl
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I came to the revelation that my mom legitimately wants me to be a betabuxxing loser who stays fat. She’s actively holding me back and is giving me advice that she knows won’t work.
Firstly, she ignores me saying I need help for my cravings and just repeats “self control self control” when she herself is a walking hot air balloon. She knows suppressing cravings is needed, yet gives me advice that is 100% impossible for her to actually believe in.
Then she says the craving suppressant meds I wanted to get are “dangerous and have side effects, you may be harmed”.
But when the doctor gave me depression meds without even referring me to a psychiatrist first, my mom agreed and saw no wrong. When my doctor said there’s a good chance I will get strong suicidal thoughts as a side effect, my mom didn’t even say a word. Even after I told her I have homicidal tendencies that are strong.
When I was 14 she agreed to giving me ADD meds when I didn’t need them and also didn’t make a single word about side effects back then (I’m sure there was side effects to those meds). I stopped taking them 3 weeks after being prescribed after my dad stepped in.
Now with my ECA stack she is saying I shouldn’t take it and is attempting to go through my dad (who she actively and openly despises) as a means to exert control over me (which won’t work). My mom can’t even take money from my dad without dousing it in holy water because she thinks my dad is evil.
After all this I can only say that my mom thinks I should be a loser cuckold fatso who betabuxxes. She’s already priming me to take care of her financially when she’s old (she’s pushing me to college/opening a business and asks me if I’ll let her live with me)
I’m done. Life is trash
Firstly, she ignores me saying I need help for my cravings and just repeats “self control self control” when she herself is a walking hot air balloon. She knows suppressing cravings is needed, yet gives me advice that is 100% impossible for her to actually believe in.
Then she says the craving suppressant meds I wanted to get are “dangerous and have side effects, you may be harmed”.
But when the doctor gave me depression meds without even referring me to a psychiatrist first, my mom agreed and saw no wrong. When my doctor said there’s a good chance I will get strong suicidal thoughts as a side effect, my mom didn’t even say a word. Even after I told her I have homicidal tendencies that are strong.
When I was 14 she agreed to giving me ADD meds when I didn’t need them and also didn’t make a single word about side effects back then (I’m sure there was side effects to those meds). I stopped taking them 3 weeks after being prescribed after my dad stepped in.
Now with my ECA stack she is saying I shouldn’t take it and is attempting to go through my dad (who she actively and openly despises) as a means to exert control over me (which won’t work). My mom can’t even take money from my dad without dousing it in holy water because she thinks my dad is evil.
After all this I can only say that my mom thinks I should be a loser cuckold fatso who betabuxxes. She’s already priming me to take care of her financially when she’s old (she’s pushing me to college/opening a business and asks me if I’ll let her live with me)
I’m done. Life is trash