MyDreamIsToBe183CM
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Anyways I was in a really shit stage of my life like half a year ago, i was like extremely fuking insecure thinking my life was over and shit cuz i wasnt a 6'0 chadlite, basically just sulking about being lonely and not having much friends after moving to my new highschool that i chose, after I pushed all my old friends away and dnred all their texts jfl. just complaining over and over again that im missing out on my prime highschool years and teen love and i just couldnt accept that my youth was just gonna go bye and i would have to rot my entire highschool years.
i was deadass so insecure i would literally just block every girl that messaged me and remove friends that texted me to hang out or something, and not even go out until i got surgery
but after a lot i've accepted it, im done with pushing people away and shit. honestly i deadass couldve had a htb girlfriend rn if i didnt just ghost her due to my mentaslcel issues and shes talking to chad rn but it is what it is.
im starting to get a lot closer with my old best friend and its actually really nice to have somebody to talk to and relate to. just one friend is all i needed tbh this helps me feel a lot better with my life.
ive also accepted that my highschool years will be boring and i will ldar for the most part of it and miss out on teenage love until i save enough money for surgeries but ive convinced myself that its not as important as it is and i still have college to enjoy, and honestly ive decided to explore into more hobbies because it makes me happy
this site also unironically helped me cope alot with my lonneliness and shit cuz i met a lot of chill peop ehere
while im rotting i might as well make the most of it by actually studymaxxing to get into a good college.
ive also applied to 20+ jobs sicne i turned 16 not so long ago, so i can finaally start saving for my surgeries. and yes its not mental masturbation lol im getting a whole savings plan and shit, this is like amust. and iill continue to keep looksmaxxing throughout the years.
but tldr im a lot happier and accepting that i can just get surgeries and contempt with my life now that my best friend is back, still depressed but its better then just being suicidial everyday and im focusing on the future way more than my shitty present. and i know theres gonna be people barking "muhh your life is good ungratefeul" i left out a lot of details
tagiging some bhais i made along the way:
@highinhibcel @davidlaidisme67 @org3cel.RR @renos @JohnBaza
i was deadass so insecure i would literally just block every girl that messaged me and remove friends that texted me to hang out or something, and not even go out until i got surgery
but after a lot i've accepted it, im done with pushing people away and shit. honestly i deadass couldve had a htb girlfriend rn if i didnt just ghost her due to my mentaslcel issues and shes talking to chad rn but it is what it is.
im starting to get a lot closer with my old best friend and its actually really nice to have somebody to talk to and relate to. just one friend is all i needed tbh this helps me feel a lot better with my life.
ive also accepted that my highschool years will be boring and i will ldar for the most part of it and miss out on teenage love until i save enough money for surgeries but ive convinced myself that its not as important as it is and i still have college to enjoy, and honestly ive decided to explore into more hobbies because it makes me happy
this site also unironically helped me cope alot with my lonneliness and shit cuz i met a lot of chill peop ehere
while im rotting i might as well make the most of it by actually studymaxxing to get into a good college.
ive also applied to 20+ jobs sicne i turned 16 not so long ago, so i can finaally start saving for my surgeries. and yes its not mental masturbation lol im getting a whole savings plan and shit, this is like amust. and iill continue to keep looksmaxxing throughout the years.
but tldr im a lot happier and accepting that i can just get surgeries and contempt with my life now that my best friend is back, still depressed but its better then just being suicidial everyday and im focusing on the future way more than my shitty present. and i know theres gonna be people barking "muhh your life is good ungratefeul" i left out a lot of details
tagiging some bhais i made along the way:
@highinhibcel @davidlaidisme67 @org3cel.RR @renos @JohnBaza
