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must be brutal to be properly ND I just have poor social skills in some areas
im autistic (hyperfixations, was bad at socialising for my early years, poor eyecontact, high iq and awareness luckily) , dyspraxic (not badly but there was a learning curve catching and shit),

npd (im devoid of empathy and love and even in my grandious confidence i am painfully insecure and self centered. i deadass cant be alone or i will go crazy with nerves, i used to throw up before every disco i went to),

Inattentive type adhd (cant sit still always fidget with shit and struggle with attention span if i dont fw something).

despite all this i pull due to looking good. even when i was mtn and short in my younger teen years, all it took was masking and fakign confidence at the same discoes i through up before going to.

life is good now but my psyche is still fucked up. i feel so unlike everyone around me and keep most people as aquaintences. my misandry and apathy is at an all time high and sometimes im so angry i crash the fuck out. i do have impulse and anger issues that i keep underwraps, from what i have and dysfunctional family.

the benefits are the iq and coupled with slaying and feeling grandiose i feel superior to others which hard counters the chronic need for validation the majority of the time.
i truely feel hellish despite my good life circumstances. it really pisses me the fuck off seeing low iq kids on here talk bout some im so nd because of black pill they have no idea. the black pill has been a comfort to me, i like seeing through lies although it fuels the misandry.

tldr: its brutal and i do not wish this shit on anyone
 

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