Androgynous
I sacrifice.
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This is NOT a thread where I 'humble brag'. I live in SEA and I'm a 5'10 MTN which is basically Adam for SEA standards and subhuman for org.
The more I ascend, the more I realize how fake friends can be. I must be one of few people that dislike ascending.
The difference in how people treated me when I was a 4'11 malnourished sub 3 in 9th grade, compared to a 5'8 LTN in grade 10, and now a 5'10 MTN, is crazy. I'm asexual, ND, and a jester, so I dislike this privilege in many ways. People in similar situations must have had good upbringings, because unlike me, they also change their personality alongside their looks. I've always known people were superficial and shallow but my gosh. To experience the change first hand is something else. People treat me better a lot nowadays, and in return I am kind towards them too, but I also kind of hate it because I'm naturally a very energetic arrogant person.
I used to share misogynistic content with this one girl I met online for our TikTok streaks. I would debate her, call her out for her colonized mentality, insult her for liking 6'4 white boys, and so on. Some of the misogynistic comments I made were not even logical, or funny, they were just plain misogynistic comments. This girl, even though she’s my friend, wouldn't find them funny at all. But ever since I posted a picture of myself, she switched up completely and she's been actively replying and laughing to the videos I send her.
I can't help but feel bad when I cuck my 5'4 sub3 friends. I don't want to be friends with 6'0 handsome kids either because most of the time they're full of vanity, performative, and rich NTs. This is a huge reason why I value platonic and online relationships so much, especially when they're not simps. People aren't as shallow.
Even just writing this makes it seem like I'm a douchebag and I'm bragging which I hate.
TLDR; DNR
The more I ascend, the more I realize how fake friends can be. I must be one of few people that dislike ascending.
The difference in how people treated me when I was a 4'11 malnourished sub 3 in 9th grade, compared to a 5'8 LTN in grade 10, and now a 5'10 MTN, is crazy. I'm asexual, ND, and a jester, so I dislike this privilege in many ways. People in similar situations must have had good upbringings, because unlike me, they also change their personality alongside their looks. I've always known people were superficial and shallow but my gosh. To experience the change first hand is something else. People treat me better a lot nowadays, and in return I am kind towards them too, but I also kind of hate it because I'm naturally a very energetic arrogant person.
I used to share misogynistic content with this one girl I met online for our TikTok streaks. I would debate her, call her out for her colonized mentality, insult her for liking 6'4 white boys, and so on. Some of the misogynistic comments I made were not even logical, or funny, they were just plain misogynistic comments. This girl, even though she’s my friend, wouldn't find them funny at all. But ever since I posted a picture of myself, she switched up completely and she's been actively replying and laughing to the videos I send her.
I can't help but feel bad when I cuck my 5'4 sub3 friends. I don't want to be friends with 6'0 handsome kids either because most of the time they're full of vanity, performative, and rich NTs. This is a huge reason why I value platonic and online relationships so much, especially when they're not simps. People aren't as shallow.
Even just writing this makes it seem like I'm a douchebag and I'm bragging which I hate.
TLDR; DNR
