just venting

[hopefullychadlite]

I have been looksmaxing, gymmaxxing and careermaxing for the last 7 years and i can say i made huge progress.

still, im never enough to be loved. there is always someone better, someone better looking, someone taller than me, someone with more money, and suddenly im not good enough.

i look then myself at the mirror and i think to myself: perhaps if i had less uee, perhaps if i was taller, perhaps if i had deeper set eyes, perhaps if i had more money, i would be worthy of love.

but then i go out to the street and i see a lot of happy couples, with normal and average men, with girlfriends.

and all i can think of is what is wrong with me. why everyone else is worthy of love but i dont.

why life made me so insecure and forced me to work and fix every single defect i detect, only to still being in the same shit cycle, of improving and leading me to nowhere, while there are men out there that have what all my life i have been working hard for, and they did absolutely nothing to get it.

but i guess the only option is to keep ascending,
perhaps one day i will be worthy

 

[no1softee]

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