KNOWING THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE THAT ENJOY EVERY SINGLE DAY IN THEIR LIFE FILLS ME WITH RAGE

[MrMatumbo]

I'm sure even 160iq people in jobs they have always dreamed of and top models like o'pry have moments where they genuinely hate it and struggle even if it's something that sounds easy to us like photoshoots or documents

But you know what horrifies me? The possibility that there are people who don't need discipline or even need to quickly think "I am doing this for my goals" before hoping back to work, that they genuinely enjoy every second of it while giggling, the thought fills me with so much rage that while I'm wishing for my painful death while I'm picking up HIV covered needles in the tattoo studio I'm working as an assistant to save up for my surgeries, that there's some giggly FUCK saying "THANK YOU SO MUCH GOD ANOTHER DAY OF PICKING UP NEEDLES"

I feel like if the latter exists I am in a downgraded life that I'm not living to my fullest while there's another person who genuinely loves every single day, even worse if they objectively mog me

I hate this shit, I can't even cope with 'OH THEY PROBABLY HAD AT LEAST ONE BAD DAY" because yes they most likely had, but even then it's a tiny speck compared to their life of joy and if there's a giggly fuck out there I want you to know I will gut you like a dog Spongebob ass

 

[infraorbidal]

I'm sure even 160iq people in jobs they have always dreamed of and top models like o'pry have moments where they genuinely hate it and struggle even if it's something that sounds easy to us like photoshoots or documents

But you know what horrifies me? The possibility that there are people who don't need discipline or even need to quickly think "I am doing this for my goals" before hoping back to work, that they genuinely enjoy every second of it while giggling, the thought fills me with so much rage that while I'm wishing for my painful death while I'm picking up HIV covered needles in the tattoo studio I'm working as an assistant to save up for my surgeries, that there's some giggly FUCK saying "THANK YOU SO MUCH GOD ANOTHER DAY OF PICKING UP NEEDLES"

I feel like if the latter exists I am in a downgraded life that I'm not living to my fullest while there's another person who genuinely loves every single day, even worse if they objectively mog me

I hate this shit, I can't even cope with 'OH THEY PROBABLY HAD AT LEAST ONE BAD DAY" because yes they most likely had, but even then it's a tiny speck compared to their life of joy and if there's a giggly fuck out there I want you to know I will gut you like a dog Spongebob ass
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DNR bro, just find someone/ something that makes you happy

 

[BeanCelll]

pointless cortisol spike

 

[MrMatumbo]

you didn't understand the thread, I have something that makes me happy but I still have shit days and often, I am mad there are people who genuinely have like 10 bad days at most each year, childish but makes me furious

DNR bro, just find someone/ something that makes you happy

 

[infraorbidal]

you didn't understand the thread, I have something that makes me happy but I still have shit days and often, I am mad there are people who genuinely have like 10 bad days at most each year, childish but makes me furious

That’s life bro
Channel your rage into something that makes you happy, I was enraged all the time and then I picked up basketball again and I just channel my anger or sadness into basketball