Legit going insane, I need some advice

[davidlaidisme67]

Legit just saw a documentary about this guy who shot women within this studio gym and holy shit his descent into madness is legit identical to my daily life. I really dont do much except workout, do homework, watch videos and go out on runs. My friends are off at different colleges or online so i dont get much face to face interaction much except from a pity hi from my oneitis. Ive just been isolated for months now and I legitmately cant function much anymore. i feel so robotic and so lifeless, I dont even know if I am truly alive. I dont want to go even more insane and somehow, hope to god this doesnt happen, do something heinous. I need some advice to help better my mental state

 

[davidlaidisme67]

bump, pls help me

 

[Panzram]

Legit just saw a documentary about this guy who shot women within this studio gym and holy shit his descent into madness is legit identical to my daily life. I really dont do much except workout, do homework, watch videos and go out on runs. My friends are off at different colleges or online so i dont get much face to face interaction much except from a pity hi from my oneitis. Ive just been isolated for months now and I legitmately cant function much anymore. i feel so robotic and so lifeless, I dont even know if I am truly alive. I dont want to go even more insane and somehow, hope to god this doesnt happen, do something heinous. I need some advice to help better my mental state

You know what to do tho. If isolation is killing you you need to find some people to interact with, friends even. How are you gonna do that I have no idea.

 

[davidlaidisme67]

You know what to do tho. If isolation is killing you you need to find some people to interact with, friends even. How are you gonna do that I have no idea.

I might join clubs within my uni but not sure which ones. Fuck it ill join any

 

[Panzram]

I might join clubs within my uni but not sure which ones. Fuck it ill join any

Are you autistic? Legit question not being a dick.

 

[Snicket]

Legit just saw a documentary about this guy who shot women within this studio gym and holy shit his descent into madness is legit identical to my daily life. I really dont do much except workout, do homework, watch videos and go out on runs. My friends are off at different colleges or online so i dont get much face to face interaction much except from a pity hi from my oneitis. Ive just been isolated for months now and I legitmately cant function much anymore. i feel so robotic and so lifeless, I dont even know if I am truly alive. I dont want to go even more insane and somehow, hope to god this doesnt happen, do something heinous. I need some advice to help better my mental state

Organise meets up with friends from colleges if you can. Any social interaction is good.

Go to clubs, even talking to random people at college might help

 

[134applesauce456]

because a nigga like me is going insane

insane in the membrane

 

[lestoa]

Spam softmaxxes, start wageslaving for surgery and socialise. Go out every weekend to bars, housepartys etc.

Take pregabilin and phenibut if you have trouble with being NT.

 

[davidlaidisme67]

Are you autistic? Legit question not being a dick.

Yeah I’ve been professionally diagnosed. Found out at 8. I’ve had some behavioral therapy but I’m still not good enough to mask as NT

 

[davidlaidisme67]

Organise meets up with friends from colleges if you can. Any social interaction is good.

Go to clubs, even talking to random people at college might help

Smart I’ll try to capatilize on social interactions within my dorm

 

[Panzram]

Yeah I’ve been professionally diagnosed. Found out at 8. I’ve had some behavioral therapy but I’m still not good enough to mask as NT

That sucks bro. My brother is also full autist and he cant with people. I am like one quarter autist to one third maybe. NT is life.

 

[Snicket]

Yeah I’ve been professionally diagnosed. Found out at 8. I’ve had some behavioral therapy but I’m still not good enough to mask as NT

If you spend too long in isolation, it can warp your perceptions and make you delusional.

You have to be somewhat uninhibited and make an effort to break out of it.

 

[Mhel4]

Legit just saw a documentary about this guy who shot women within this studio gym and holy shit his descent into madness is legit identical to my daily life. I really dont do much except workout, do homework, watch videos and go out on runs. My friends are off at different colleges or online so i dont get much face to face interaction much except from a pity hi from my oneitis. Ive just been isolated for months now and I legitmately cant function much anymore. i feel so robotic and so lifeless, I dont even know if I am truly alive. I dont want to go even more insane and somehow, hope to god this doesnt happen, do something heinous. I need some advice to help better my mental state

join some clubs frequent some places idk man js find excuses to go talk to ppl

 

[davidlaidisme67]

If you spend too long in isolation, it can warp your perceptions and make you delusional.

You have to be somewhat uninhibited and make an effort to break out of it.

Ill try to maybe socialize with people while on runs

 

[Snicket]

Ill try to maybe socialize with people while on runs

It’s not a good place to be. I wish you well. Hope it works out.

 

[davidlaidisme67]

It’s not a good place to be. I wish you well. Hope it works out.

I appreciate you. Legit been rotting on .org for 2 consecutive months now

 

[CD34]

ntmaxx and low inhib maxx with alchol & drugs

 

[Snicket]

I appreciate you. Legit been rotting on .org for 2 consecutive months now

Just try. You owe it to yourself to at least make an effort - whatever idiots on this forum might say. It will only get harder otherwise. Best of luck

 

[MarkSynklar]

That sucks bro. My brother is also full autist and he cant with people. I am like one quarter autist to one third maybe. NT is life.

What's his main issue dealing with people?

 

[Panzram]

What's his main issue dealing with people?

I dont get him. He cant keep a 'normal' facial expression, makes faces, talks with a weird inflection and very loud, walks with bad posture, cant take teasing and a joke. Just weird. Is a smart guy tho and if relaxed can have a good conversation. But that is hard to get from him.

 

[MarkSynklar]

I dont get him. He cant keep a 'normal' facial expression, makes faces, talks with a weird inflection and very loud, walks with bad posture, cant take teasing and a joke. Just weird. Is a smart guy tho and if relaxed can have a good conversation. But that is hard to get from him.

Is he into the BP too? It sounds familiar though, I'd be forcing specific facial expressions to 'look better' (dumb as hell I know), would avoid relaxing face muscles at all costs, and also can't take jokes too well, I get some mild anxiety as if my image was just soiled (guilty of taking everything too seriously).

It sounds like he's too self-aware, but idk, not sure if by facial expressions you mean utterly weird ones, or just him squinting and biting his cheeks, stuff like that. The bad posture comes involuntarily when you're anxious to the point of really not wanting to draw attention to yourself in any way.

 

[Panzram]

Is he into the BP too? It sounds familiar though, I'd be forcing specific facial expressions to 'look better' (dumb as hell I know), would avoid relaxing face muscles at all costs, and also can't take jokes too well, I get some mild anxiety as if my image was just soiled (guilty of taking everything too seriously).

It sounds like he's too self-aware, but idk, not sure if by facial expressions you mean utterly weird ones, or just him squinting and biting his cheeks, stuff like that. The bad posture comes involuntarily when you're anxious to the point of really not wanting to draw attention to yourself in any way.

I dont know if he is into BP like us. But I have seen a glimse at some of his notes hes been writing and he is def too self aware and aware of his low position in society and school. Brutaly honest too. He flat out told a chadlite cocky friend of mine that was over at our place that he despises guys like him lol. He tried forcing a convo on him.

Faces like tightening lips too much and showing teeth for no reason like an animal grinning. I have some weird behavious too but nothing like this. Also he does not seem to even need friends or is just good at suffering in silence. Total intovert.

 

[MarkSynklar]

I dont know if he is into BP like us. But I have seen a glimse at some of his notes hes been writing and he is def too self aware and aware of his low position in society and school. Brutaly honest too. He flat out told a chadlite cocky friend of mine that was over at our place that he despises guys like him lol. He tried forcing a convo on him.

Faces like tightening lips too much and showing teeth for no reason like an animal grinning. I have some weird behavious too but nothing like this. Also he does not seem to even need friends or is just good at suffering in silence. Total intovert.

Oh... got a brother kind of like that - isolated for most of his life since a he lost a loved one to suicide, seems to not know how to act normal at times. Like, I can't stand his "ssss ssss ssss" laugh, sounds so giga-autistic, no one does that.

Anyway, brought him up cause he's also in that creepy 'I don't need friends' stage already. His school years were mostly him not getting along with anyone.