69FutureChad69
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Im 17 rn im a khhv and im afraid as fuck of ending up at some university, getting fat, balding, becoming a wageslave and wasting my teenage years, never experiencing truly fun things. Ive never thought about it but lately ive been thinking that it genuinely sucks. Im at home 24/7 doing math, studying or other bs. Of course i want to have friends, a gf and go out and have fun, but idk why i just cant. If i notice one flaw on my face i dont like i just feel like people are gonna shit on me and i just dont want to stare at anyone thinking im just insanely repelling. I had gathered the courrage once and approaching girls at my school like 2 years ago. Approached alot of them and everyone just rejected me. On one of those days i came to school and saw a group of girls, which one of them i had texted, just laughing while reading the texts i had sent her. They were just making fun of me and i hadnt even texted anything weird. Since then i just cant force myself to talk to girls. I dont think im that ugly now. Ive been working out and am quite lean and so on (not a crazy physique but its appealing to girls my age). Especially lately - for ex. a guy from my school told me, that a girl said shed let me "hit" if i wouldnt have known her personally. I dont know what that means, maybe im hella awkard or sum. Another example is , a girl accepted to be my dancing partner for prom. Idk if shes just being kind or not.
I know that if i went out and talked to girls then id 100% would get someone to also be interested in me. But i fucking cant. I know its because of the past approaches which have fucked up my confidence. My brain just doesnt want me to feel that again. Its like a barrier which stopps me from getting ANY kind of relationship potential. Like women are just people for me and i like them but i never feel the need to approach them anymore, knowing will prolly can happen. And its not even all about girls attentioon. Im just wasting my teenage years coping that something will happen one day.
I know that if i went out and talked to girls then id 100% would get someone to also be interested in me. But i fucking cant. I know its because of the past approaches which have fucked up my confidence. My brain just doesnt want me to feel that again. Its like a barrier which stopps me from getting ANY kind of relationship potential. Like women are just people for me and i like them but i never feel the need to approach them anymore, knowing will prolly can happen. And its not even all about girls attentioon. Im just wasting my teenage years coping that something will happen one day.
