Life as an ugly man is too much pain.

[MoggerGaston]

Gonna get drunk tonight

 

[GreekGenes]

You ain't even ugly, now imagine what uggos go through

 

[MoggerGaston]

You ain't even ugly, now imagine what uggos go through

The exact same as me since I don't socialize, date or have sex?

tell me how 'real uggos' would live a life any diffferent than mine

 

[playxiing]

just be a chad

 

[GreekGenes]

The exact same as me since I don't socialize, date or have sex?

tell me how 'real uggos' would live a life any diffferent than mine

You might be right

Nvm just be chad

 

[Always Stay You]

It's a cold, sterile existence

 

[sarmatian]

The exact same as me since I don't socialize, date or have sex?

tell me how 'real uggos' would live a life any diffferent than mine

It's an endless cycle I guess.
The worst part, for me, is that when I go to sleep I know I will wake up to the same exact feelings and days over and over.
I can't even enjoy going out, my fears (Getting made fun of IRL) follow me even if I have to get a t-shirt at the mall (corny and cringe, I know, bear with me)

 

[MoggerGaston]

It's an endless cycle I guess.
The worst part, for me, is that when I go to sleep I know I will wake up to the same exact feelings and days over and over.
I can't even enjoy going out, my fears (Getting made fun of IRL) follow me even if I have to get a t-shirt at the mall (corny and cringe, I know, bear with me)

try alcohol with cocaine

 

[sarmatian]

try alcohol with cocaine

I usually don't mix drugs and alcohol.
Thanks for the advice anyways!

 

[Daddy's Home]

It only gets worse..

- Relatives are getting older, sicker, closer to death, and more dependent on your support
- People in your generation who are/could be your friends find girlfriends, make kids, and no longer have time/need you to keep them company
- Your health and looks will only get worse and worse + you will lose more and more energy and motivation to do sport / gym / stay in shape
- You are moving further and further away in age from people of the younger generation, so you can no longer relate to them, and they will no longer see you as a potential friend

 

[MoggerGaston]

It only gets worse..

- Relatives are getting older, sicker, closer to death, and more dependent on your support

only lifefuel is that I don't have any relatives so I am immune to this.

 

[Daddy's Home]

only lifefuel is that I don't have any relatives so I am immune to this.

Yeah, it gets even worse when you actually have supportive parents, and you care about them & they care about you. It's definitely a lot more stress on top of the already existing ones

 

[MoggerGaston]

Yeah, it gets even worse when you actually have supportive parents, and you care about them & they care about you. It's definitely a lot more stress on top of the already existing ones

you could just go no-contact on them and improve your life-situation to that of mine.

 

[IOS]

true. i get ignored on my mouth
no one helps a sub5
everyone wanna help chads only

 

[valentine]

lmao this mfs life is pure pain and suffering

 

[MoggerGaston]

lmao this mfs life is pure pain and suffering

over

 

[deadstock]

Just go slay at the ward bro

 

[MoggerGaston]

Just go slay at the ward bro

it was a larp man.
im just pretending the girls there want to have sex with me just cuz they are nice to me since I've never had females be nice to me in my life ever.

 

[Magnus Ironblood]

I know brother.

It's a brutal reality.

And it only get worse. Only escape is to moneymaxx and enjoy our copes.

I might join you and drink tonight as well.

Going to have a wank then finish playing Resident Evil 4.

 

[MoggerGaston]

I know brother.

It's a brutal reality.

And it only get worse. Only escape is to moneymaxx and enjoy our copes.

I might join you and drink tonight as well.

Going to have a wank then finish playing Resident Evil 4.

are you drinking?
doing some nice sparkling wine with some snorted mephedrone right now. Vibe is pretty good tbh.

Escape, what is the escape. How?
I already know drugs/alcohol aren't a real solution because I am already using them to their full extent and life still feel like shit most of the time. You can't really overdo them cuz it will destroy your health and tolerances will make it less enjoyable.

You can't rely on alcohol/drugs to give you a good life, it may make what you have more enjoyable but as you say, life-quality will only degrade over time and alcohol/drugs can't fix that gap.
Alcohol/Drugs are nice to get the most out of what you have in peak moments, but it won't stop degradation of life-quality and it won't magically make a shitty life into something good in total, not just the peak moments.
I am already 'using it too much', but still in control in the sense that I still have a good grip on reality, responsibilities, physical-health, etc.

I need another way to make this life enjoyable other than drugs. Better copes.

Personally I felt way better when I was still coping really well with videogames, I just can't get into them anymore somehow nowadays. Instead I prefer rotting on this forumj. I can't immerse myself into videos/series/games that well anymore as I used to, or I don't try enough anymore?

 

[swt]

send face in pm i believe this might be larp

 

[MoggerGaston]

send face in pm i believe this might be larp

my face is all over this forum

its not a larp

 

[Muttcel foid killer]

Gonna get drunk tonight

alchohol just makes me tired

 

[MoggerGaston]

alchohol just makes me tired

add loud energetic music with a good beat.
add cocaine/mephedrone or just large dose caffeine if u dont have drugs.

then you will go hard.

 

[Magnus Ironblood]

are you drinking?
doing some nice sparkling wine with some snorted mephedrone right now. Vibe is pretty good tbh.

Escape, what is the escape. How?
I already know drugs/alcohol aren't a real solution because I am already using them to their full extent and life still feel like shit most of the time. You can't really overdo them cuz it will destroy your health and tolerances will make it less enjoyable.

You can't rely on alcohol/drugs to give you a good life, it may make what you have more enjoyable but as you say, life-quality will only degrade over time and alcohol/drugs can't fix that gap.
Alcohol/Drugs are nice to get the most out of what you have in peak moments, but it won't stop degradation of life-quality and it won't magically make a shitty life into something good in total, not just the peak moments.
I am already 'using it too much', but still in control in the sense that I still have a good grip on reality, responsibilities, physical-health, etc.

I need another way to make this life enjoyable other than drugs. Better copes.

Personally I felt way better when I was still coping really well with videogames, I just can't get into them anymore somehow nowadays. Instead I prefer rotting on this forumj. I can't immerse myself into videos/series/games that well anymore as I used to, or I don't try enough anymore?

Nice. Sparkling wine is so good. Yeah I've got some white wine which I'm sipping while playing Resident Evil 4 remake, in the dark jfl.

ONLY way I can cope until I geomaxx again. Then I'll cut down tbh. But uk is so miserable right now. I need my copes.

I agree with you what you said, focusing on my various projects to make money and visiting new places, that's my main cope. But being stuck in UK it's hard not to alcoholmaxx. Enjoy your evening, lad.

 

[Part-Time Chad]

It only gets worse..

- Relatives are getting older, sicker, closer to death, and more dependent on your support
- People in your generation who are/could be your friends find girlfriends, make kids, and no longer have time/need you to keep them company
- Your health and looks will only get worse and worse + you will lose more and more energy and motivation to do sport / gym / stay in shape
- You are moving further and further away in age from people of the younger generation, so you can no longer relate to them, and they will no longer see you as a potential friend

 

[Bitchwhipper2]

Relate my nigga

 

[MoggerGaston]

Nice. Sparkling wine is so good. Yeah I've got some white wine which I'm sipping while playing Resident Evil 4 remake, in the dark jfl.

ONLY way I can cope until I geomaxx again. Then I'll cut down tbh. But uk is so miserable right now. I need my copes.

I agree with you what you said, focusing on my various projects to make money and visiting new places, that's my main cope. But being stuck in UK it's hard not to alcoholmaxx. Enjoy your evening, lad.

Exactly. Alcohol, videogames, drugs, they are coping mechanisms for failed life circumstances for me.

There's different copes than that, but are they better? I don't know. Life is the way it is in the end and I just gotta accept what I have right now, the copes I have.

 

[Mosh12]

I can imagine and I’m sorry you’re going through this. DM me if you ever want to talk

 

[MoggerGaston]

Relate my nigga

It's like you are so close, yet so far away, as an ugly nigga.

Like, I function completely fine in school, work, at the gym, socially. Yet because you aren't good-looking enough, you fail to get the experiences in all of these situations to make these things meaningful.

Yes you can go to school, but how meaningful is it when you are bullied there and not taken seriously by teachers/mentors?
Yes you can go to the gym, but how meaningful is it when people don't appreciate how athletic you are just because you are ugly?
Yes you can socialize, but how meaningful is it when you are always at the low-end of the social-status spectrum, dont get experiences like romance/sex, aren't respected, etc, just because of your looks.

just too brutal

 

[moreroidsmoredates]

Exactly. Alcohol, videogames, drugs, they are coping mechanisms for failed life circumstances for me.

There's different copes than that, but are they better? I don't know. Life is the way it is in the end and I just gotta accept what I have right now, the copes I have.

Would you kill yourself if you had to quit these bad habits?

I don’t think you would bade the withdrawals

 

[MoggerGaston]

I can imagine and I’m sorry you’re going through this. DM me if you ever want to talk

Thanks man. It's a rough time now with holiday season coming up. Everyone talking about holiday plans, things they are going to do, gifts they get. Talking about people who care about them.

Makes u really think of urself as this freak subhuman.

 

[Mosh12]

Thanks man. It's a rough time now with holiday season coming up. Everyone talking about holiday plans, things they are going to do, gifts they get. Talking about people who care about them.

Makes u really think of urself as this freak subhuman.

Are you doing anything at all for Christmas? Even seeing family
Christmas is often the wurst time for people due to changes in season etc

 

[MoggerGaston]

Would you kill yourself if you had to quit these bad habits?

I don’t think you would bade the withdrawals

No, I am not emotional enough about life or my situation to kill myself in my current state.
When I am sober I am too detached from my emotions, too rational, wouldn't be able to get into the emotional-state needed to kill myself.

Only time I have felt the urge to really kill myself was on a heavy dose of shrooms. What stopped me was that I was stuck in my room with no way to do it, knowing that the torture would eventually end and I just had to push through.


withdrawals? I am not a junkie, u have the wrong idea of me.

I am a heavy drug user and heavy alcohol user. But I am completely sober multiple days per week without withdrawals.
I think the right categorization for me is: 'problematic heavy drug/alcohol user'.
I think 'addict' is just too much since I still have a good grip of what I am doing and I am not doing 'insane' amounts.

Although the fact I 'depend' on alcohol/drugs to enjoy life is very problematic and seems to point towards an addicted personality disorder. I can agree about this. But I would argue that since I am depressed and can't enjoy anything in life, I have no alternative to alcohol/drugs anyways so that makes this a delicate issue.

I don't drink/use when I need to show-up at work and I manifest days of soberness to detox for my own personal health and to reset tolerances so that I can enjoy drugs better again in the future.

Withdrawals aren't a thing for the type and amount of drugs I am using. I could quit everything right now, just that there is no a point in doing so. I have nothing to replace the pleasure I get from drugs/alcohol. And drugs/alcohol aren't stopping me from getting that replacement so I need to find that thing first before I can reduce usage.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Are you doing anything at all for Christmas? Even seeing family
Christmas is often the wurst time for people due to changes in season etc

I am not in contact anymore with any family members and I have no close friends. So no, I am not doing anything.
Maybe go out alone to a club/rave on drugs/alcohol on 2nd christmas day, I am thinking.

Changes in season is definitely a thing. Total lack of sunlight, dark vibes, clouded skies, rain, cold. It's a depressing time to live. winter.
You need warm social vibes to counter that, which many people don't have or are lacking in. So I can understand the struggle.

 

[Mosh12]

I am not in contact anymore with any family members and I have no close friends. So no, I am not doing anything.
Maybe go out alone to a club/rave on drugs/alcohol on 2nd christmas day, I am thinking.

Changes in season is definitely a thing. Total lack of sunlight, dark vibes, clouded skies, rain, cold. It's a depressing time to live. winter.
You need warm social vibes to counter that, which many people don't have or are lacking in. So I can understand the struggle.

I know it sounds like a stretch but why not go on holiday to a warmer brighter place like Spain or Greece. It’s cheap and probably easier to have a good time

 

[MoggerGaston]

I know it sounds like a stretch but why not go on holiday to a warmer brighter place like Spain or Greece. It’s cheap and probably easier to have a good time

Would need to go to south-america or somth for some nice sunlight around this time of the year. spain/greece too cold.

its quite an undertaking tbh. not that easy. but I get ur vibe.

holidays can help you relax

 

[Mosh12]

Would need to go to south-america or somth for some nice sunlight around this time of the year. spain/greece too cold.

its quite an undertaking tbh. not that easy. but I get ur vibe.

holidays can help you relax

It’s something that needs to be done in advance preferably with others.

I’m guessing pubs and clubs are open on Xmas in Netherlands

 

[MoggerGaston]

It’s something that needs to be done in advance preferably with others.

Yeah I don't have this privilege to travel with others. If I would be travelling, it would be alone.
So it would still be incredibly lonely and require a lot of energy from me to feel motivated enough to do it.

I’m guessing pubs and clubs are open on Xmas in Netherlands

Yeah, but I think I'll mostly chill at home here with you people on .org

 

[Mosh12]

Yeah I don't have this privilege to travel with others. If I would be travelling, it would be alone.
So it would still be incredibly lonely and require a lot of energy from me to feel motivated enough to do it.

Yeah, but I think I'll mostly chill at home here with you people on .org

See how you feel. Maybe go out in the evening

 

[notalive]

I am not in contact anymore with any family members and I have no close friends. So no, I am not doing anything.
Maybe go out alone to a club/rave on drugs/alcohol on 2nd christmas day, I am thinking.

Changes in season is definitely a thing. Total lack of sunlight, dark vibes, clouded skies, rain, cold. It's a depressing time to live. winter.
You need warm social vibes to counter that, which many people don't have or are lacking in. So I can understand the struggle.

how old r u

 

[notalive]

Only escape is to moneymaxx and enjoy our copes

This is the way to avoid roping
Today, I went down a downward spiral getting closer to roping
I should just be getting drunk, jacking off, and playing video games in my apartment
But sometimes I feel worse after doing those things, so right now I'm just LDAR

 

[MoggerGaston]

how old r u

29

 

[notalive]

29

I am living your life right now and will be three years from now at your age

 

[notalive]

I feel like my daily experience is people staring at my face like I'm a fucking freak, rather than actually getting to know me. Life is an ugly man is desolate.

 

[MoggerGaston]

I am living your life right now and will be three years from now at your age

my life is the same as it was 3 years ago. There's no difference in any way tbh.

Time ticks away. Yet nothing changes and life is not fun or enjoyable in any meaningful way.
I am just surviving, not thriving.

 

[MoggerGaston]

I feel like my daily experience is people staring at my face like I'm a fucking freak, rather than actually getting to know me. Life is an ugly man is desolate.

Exactly the same shit I was experiencing. Loneliness and social rejection, feeling like you don't matter and have no value.

It's painfull.

 

[notalive]

Exactly the same shit I was experiencing. Loneliness and social rejection, feeling like you don't matter and have no value.

It's painfull.

If my mother ever dies soon, I will literally rope the day after I bury her. That's the only thing stopping me.

 

[MoggerGaston]

If my mother ever dies soon, I will literally rope the day after I bury her. That's the only thing stopping me.

brutal man, don't know what to say.

 

[MoggerGaston]

If my mother ever dies soon, I will literally rope the day after I bury her. That's the only thing stopping me.

I guess what I could say is that since I don't have any family at all, yet I am still alive and trying to create a nice life for myself, I can say that even after your mother dies and you have nobody, you could live like I am doing and still try to create a nice life for yourself.

Even if your mother dies, there's still potential in you for you to have a nice life. Else I wouldn't be trying to find a way out of here either, if I didn't believe there was still potential.