Life as an ugly man is too much pain.

[Deleted member 15778]

Working towards a goal has made me happy.

Getting a goal could make you fulfilled potentially.

 

[notalive]

I guess what I could say is that since I don't have any family at all, yet I am still alive and trying to create a nice life for myself, I can say that even after your mother dies and you have nobody, you could live like I am doing and still try to create a nice life for yourself.

Even if your mother dies, there's still potential in you for you to have a nice life. Else I wouldn't be trying to find a way out of here either, if I didn't believe there was still potential.

Only time will tell. I'm trying every day to get what I want while she is still here. But I can also see how easy it would be to rope once she is gone because I would have no one left at that point. It would be instant relief.

 

[wollet2]

try alcohol with cocaine

how is it. doesnt cocaine ruin the alcohol or the other way around

 

[wollet2]

Working towards a goal has made me happy.

Getting a goal could make you fulfilled potentially.

do you believe you can get even happier?

 

[MoggerGaston]

Working towards a goal has made me happy.

Getting a goal could make you fulfilled potentially.

hmm yeah I get you.
have a goal and go for it

right now I am too much into this 'life-quality should come if I do the right things'-vibe. But this hasn't worked at all so far. You do the right things, what is most logical, easiest way to make money, best place to live, closest to what you vibe with, etc.

But it doesn't end up coming, the life-quality. I guess you need more discreet, more direct goals.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Only time will tell. I'm trying every day to get what I want while she is still here. But I can also see how easy it would be to rope once she is gone because I would have no one left at that point. It would be instant relief.

I understand. I hope you can also find meaning beyond you mom's care of you. Realize you are a worthy person of your own, and that potentially there is also other people that will care about you in the future.

 

[MoggerGaston]

how is it. doesnt cocaine ruin the alcohol or the other way around

nah its a great combo. makes you a low-inhib, high-energy monster.

 

[notalive]

I don't even go out to party or raves like you. You still seem like you have some friends. I don't mean this in the wrong way, but you look very good. I'm actually not sure if you're larping now. Anyways, thanks for your comments.

 

[MoggerGaston]

I don't even go out to party or raves like you. You still seem like you have some friends. I don't mean this in the wrong way, but you look very good. I'm actually not sure if you're larping now. Anyways, thanks for your comments.

I understand. I unfortunately don't have any real friends, but I do a lot of raves/festival things on my own, having adapted to my situation.
I go to a lot of parties/events completely on my own. I struggle to find any social connection there though.

I may look decent now, but in the past this wasn't the case. I was very ugly as a child/teen/young-adult and still suffer from this mentally.
As for raves, as someone who goes there solo, I merely enjoy the music+drugs. I am just there to do drugs and enjoy the music.

 

[notalive]

I go to a lot of parties/events completely on my own. I struggle to find any social connection there though.

Wow, I wish I had low enough inhib to do this. That's impressive. I get very self-conscious just going to a movie or restaurant on my own, seeing that no one else there is alone. Everyone is with friends or a partner.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Wow, I wish I had low enough inhib to do this. That's impressive. I get very self-conscious just going to a movie or restaurant on my own, seeing that no one else there is alone. Everyone is with friends or a partner.

I got used to it with the mindset that: 'what's the alternative? stay at home? this is better.'

i just realize it is better than rotting, so I put effort into putting myself out there. But it's still hard, takes a lof of energy, not easy at all.

 

[notalive]

I got used to it with the mindset that: 'what's the alternative? stay at home? this is better.'

i just realize it is better than rotting, so I put effort into putting myself out there. But it's still hard, takes a lof of energy, not easy at all.

If you were in the US, I could easily see you slaying as many girls are you want here with your looks. And if you have a good personality, also having a very full social life. I don't think your looks are the limiting factor necessarily, though you might disagree. You should try to move here somehow. Or maybe the UK or something.

 

[swt]

my face is all over this forum

its not a larp

send

 

[Deleted member 15778]

do you believe you can get even happier?

Yes, with more friends, closer friends, more socializing.

 

[Deleted member 19442]

The exact same as me since I don't socialize, date or have sex?

tell me how 'real uggos' would live a life any diffferent than mine

Dude u literally got prime htb before.

 

[SoundnVision]

are you drinking?
doing some nice sparkling wine with some snorted mephedrone right now. Vibe is pretty good tbh.

Escape, what is the escape. How?
I already know drugs/alcohol aren't a real solution because I am already using them to their full extent and life still feel like shit most of the time. You can't really overdo them cuz it will destroy your health and tolerances will make it less enjoyable.

You can't rely on alcohol/drugs to give you a good life, it may make what you have more enjoyable but as you say, life-quality will only degrade over time and alcohol/drugs can't fix that gap.
Alcohol/Drugs are nice to get the most out of what you have in peak moments, but it won't stop degradation of life-quality and it won't magically make a shitty life into something good in total, not just the peak moments.
I am already 'using it too much', but still in control in the sense that I still have a good grip on reality, responsibilities, physical-health, etc.

I need another way to make this life enjoyable other than drugs. Better copes.

Personally I felt way better when I was still coping really well with videogames, I just can't get into them anymore somehow nowadays. Instead I prefer rotting on this forumj. I can't immerse myself into videos/series/games that well anymore as I used to, or I don't try enough anymore?

Na im the same with video games, nothing is as enjoyable the older you get that's just life