Life Help NEEDED (please give me your wise advice)

[Littlepickel2]

So im not gonna assume you saw my older thread, so im going to summarize it. I am broke, 14, 83 pounds, 5'6, and my growth is stunted from malnutrition. I usually make money through questionable methods that go against a lot of your ideals (homo).
I don't like sucking at all; I honestly hate it, and when I get really desperate, I go further than that, and it hurts like hell. You know the cliché about leaving someone limping; it's completely factual- everything is. And honestly, I don't really care about my life; I'm just living it. I have zero interests, but I've been good at everything I've done before (including school, art, music, social situations, debate). What should I even do with my money? I literally have never been interested in something, even when I was a small child. I don't know what to do with my profit at all. I deadass even tried donating my shit because I thought it would make me feel better, but it didn't; nothing changed. I've fucked girls, done drugs, and even went out and won competitions for different disciplines. Sex is boring; I im not opposed to it, and I do get the dopamine from the release, but I lack connection with everybody I meet. Big tits, big ass, pretty face nothing ever makes me happy. Somebody tell me what to do with my life, if you want me to get good grades thats easy as fuck, want me to win more art competitions also easy, want me to do music or debate or whatever just tell me what will make my life worth it to me. I don't care if other people think im doing well or im succesful i want to enjoy my own life, but I can't.

Book rec: https://www.google.com/goto?url=CAE...8DGAUTnwIVvK24f_LeAIzp_r6db73Xjo7tA56ooXZl-pA

( @Jgns @negative @T-bone123 @mocco : yall seem to have some pretty strong opinions about this shit so maybe give a little advice or tell me to rope, either one is fine)

 

[Jgns]

So im not gonna assume you saw my older thread, so im going to summarize it. I am broke, 14, 83 pounds, 5'6, and my growth is stunted from malnutrition. I usually make money through questionable methods that go against a lot of your ideals (homo).
I don't like sucking at all; I honestly hate it, and when I get really desperate, I go further than that, and it hurts like hell. You know the cliché about leaving someone limping; it's completely factual- everything is. And honestly, I don't really care about my life; I'm just living it. I have zero interests, but I've been good at everything I've done before (including school, art, music, social situations, debate). What should I even do with my money? I literally have never been interested in something, even when I was a small child. I don't know what to do with my profit at all. I deadass even tried donating my shit because I thought it would make me feel better, but it didn't; nothing changed. I've fucked girls, done drugs, and even went out and won competitions for different disciplines. Sex is boring; I im not opposed to it, and I do get the dopamine from the release, but I lack connection with everybody I meet. Big tits, big ass, pretty face nothing ever makes me happy. Somebody tell me what to do with my life, if you want me to get good grades thats easy as fuck, want me to win more art competitions also easy, want me to do music or debate or whatever just tell me what will make my life worth it to me. I don't care if other people think im doing well or im succesful i want to enjoy my own life, but I can't.

Book rec: https://www.google.com/goto?url=CAE...8DGAUTnwIVvK24f_LeAIzp_r6db73Xjo7tA56ooXZl-pA

( @Jgns @negative @T-bone123 @mocco : yall seem to have some pretty strong opinions about this shit so maybe give a little advice or tell me to rope, either one is fine)

Seems like an interesting book rec ill check it out. Thats brutal asf dude, really sad to hear abt tbh. I wish u the best lil bro. Personally my entire goal in life is just to get enough leverage rn to be completely free and in control, in control of how other people perceive me, in control of my time and location, and in control of my mental state and how its influenced. Obviously a good amount of leverage is needed to be in that sort of situation and have that type of power. Thats what reaching ascension for me is all about dude, getting on a different level of humanity, so high up u cant ever be put in a situation where ull be bitched again. Bitched by these fucking depraved, subhuman ass animals who spend their days rolling around in the muck they call their lives. I cant say I went through the pure hell that you're going through, but when I was a kid I went through smt similar due to my looks, which was completely out of my control. Im surprised ur not more of a hateful person, for damn near a decade Ive only succeeded in everything out of ire. Id say spend ur time building that up rather than just indulging in hedonistic rituals dude, cause that shit isnt going to fill that hole in ur heart, only power is. Only after it all will u really be happy, imagine how dopaministic even breathing in at that time will be holy.

 

[Littlepickel2]

I wish u the best lil bro.

Thanks, bro, imma ascend and make it out just for you, k. love you

 

[itsover74]

build something. work on something. get a project

a business, an idea. you need to grow something out of nothing

you dont have purpose rn and need to find it

 

[Jgns]

Thanks, bro, imma ascend and make it out just for you, k. love you

fire asf, love u too lil bro, hope the best for u and while u have to work now unfortuntely, dont ever accept getting bitched by those animals

 

[the zodiac]

Where do you even live