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Is this how it is for everyone? I feel like there's not much to do.
I'm bored of eating food, I'm bored of walking around in stores and the mall, I'm bored of driving fast cars, I'm bored of travelling and being in nature, I'm bored of looksmaxxing even, I'm bored of jacking off, porn is extremely boring, hardly any female I see is even entertaining anymore, almost all of them have average bodies.
I don't like working, saving money is boring, the things you buy with money are not that cool, a house and a car do not give me pleasure.
Even relationships, say one girl one day did call me her significant other (incredible and strange for me to even think about...), what would we do together? The same boring shit that everyone else does (eat food, go places, drive, go in nature, buy shit?)
Life is really fucking boring. I'm only 20 years old but I'm already bored of being alive. JFL what the fuck am I supposed to do for the rest of my life?
Realistically, some of you say with some hard work looksmaxxing I can ascend, but to be honest the few female interactions I have had, have not been that heated. They treat me like a normie. I'm not breaking my back trying to jestermaxx and worship a female just to get laughable attention back.
But even if I could get female attention, life seems boring.
Am I just a loser and my life is boring so I can't see anything greater than this perhaps? Or is life truly boring? My only pleasure is surfing the internet now, that's it.
My life as a child was so interesting, so joyful. I loved going places, toys, everything was a new experience. Meeting people my age, it all seems like it was just a moment ago, like it just happened.
Now here I am, already beginning the most important years of my life, as a KHHV, mentally crippled from my terrible childhood and horrible social failures thusfar.
What will the future hold for me? I have no clue, I am writing these thoughts as they come to me, these are the thoughts in my mind as they come.
I don't even know how to finish this. What is the purpose of my life? What is the purpose of all of this? It is boring, uninteresting, evil and grim. If only it were better.
I'm bored of eating food, I'm bored of walking around in stores and the mall, I'm bored of driving fast cars, I'm bored of travelling and being in nature, I'm bored of looksmaxxing even, I'm bored of jacking off, porn is extremely boring, hardly any female I see is even entertaining anymore, almost all of them have average bodies.
I don't like working, saving money is boring, the things you buy with money are not that cool, a house and a car do not give me pleasure.
Even relationships, say one girl one day did call me her significant other (incredible and strange for me to even think about...), what would we do together? The same boring shit that everyone else does (eat food, go places, drive, go in nature, buy shit?)
Life is really fucking boring. I'm only 20 years old but I'm already bored of being alive. JFL what the fuck am I supposed to do for the rest of my life?
Realistically, some of you say with some hard work looksmaxxing I can ascend, but to be honest the few female interactions I have had, have not been that heated. They treat me like a normie. I'm not breaking my back trying to jestermaxx and worship a female just to get laughable attention back.
But even if I could get female attention, life seems boring.
Am I just a loser and my life is boring so I can't see anything greater than this perhaps? Or is life truly boring? My only pleasure is surfing the internet now, that's it.
My life as a child was so interesting, so joyful. I loved going places, toys, everything was a new experience. Meeting people my age, it all seems like it was just a moment ago, like it just happened.
Now here I am, already beginning the most important years of my life, as a KHHV, mentally crippled from my terrible childhood and horrible social failures thusfar.
What will the future hold for me? I have no clue, I am writing these thoughts as they come to me, these are the thoughts in my mind as they come.
I don't even know how to finish this. What is the purpose of my life? What is the purpose of all of this? It is boring, uninteresting, evil and grim. If only it were better.
