MoggerGaston
Nobody mogs like Gaston
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I can go from chad to incel in the matter of hours. Or vice-versa.
How can't I just be chad all the time?
I can feel my mind retreating into coping mechanisms, like high-inhib or extremely low-self esteem thinking.
But then when I feel good, I become a low-inhib beast. My current failed life circumstances like drug-addiction, etc. suddenly are no longer an issue. And only fun/success/self-love is on my mind.
It's not like I don't see my issues for what they are. It's just that I think they could easily by solved, and life isn't hopeless. (which is my normal thought pattern)
Post-drug-rave euphoria/feelings are hitting me hard right now.
All of my main life issues, I could technically fix, all of it, within a couple of weeks. With the right mindset and effort.
On the other hand, time and time again, it proves to be more more difficult, if not, impossible to fix. I can grasp succes every once in a while, but then fail to turn it into a habit. Something that lasts and compounds.
Because my energy levels/motivation drops off a cliff again. And I just ghost whatever girl I am talking to, social event I had planned, etc. I skip raves all the time cuz I often prefer rotting in my own room.
Other times I push myself to go, and it's basically always good fun and worth it. But then next weekend, somehow I again have no motivation to go to a rave again and rot at home. JFL.
Always I have this fucking feeling that a good-life, with anything I could ever wish for, is just a switch in my mind away. It's all possible with my physical/genetical state of being. It's just that I am so insanely mentally ill that I fail to take advantage of the world for my own benefit most of the time.
It's not necessarily that I self-sabotage. I am out there on the field, doing the things that are supposed to give me success.
But then when I get success-potential handed to me through some way, I stay passive instead of grabbing it. And then it floats past me.
Over tbh.
And I had these even before I used drugs, so that is not it. Although maybe it isn't helping.
Fuck my brain. I need chad-cocaine mindset all the time, not just when I do cocaine. I have it sometimes without drugs, but it's too rare.
How can't I just be chad all the time?
I can feel my mind retreating into coping mechanisms, like high-inhib or extremely low-self esteem thinking.
But then when I feel good, I become a low-inhib beast. My current failed life circumstances like drug-addiction, etc. suddenly are no longer an issue. And only fun/success/self-love is on my mind.
It's not like I don't see my issues for what they are. It's just that I think they could easily by solved, and life isn't hopeless. (which is my normal thought pattern)
Post-drug-rave euphoria/feelings are hitting me hard right now.
All of my main life issues, I could technically fix, all of it, within a couple of weeks. With the right mindset and effort.
On the other hand, time and time again, it proves to be more more difficult, if not, impossible to fix. I can grasp succes every once in a while, but then fail to turn it into a habit. Something that lasts and compounds.
Because my energy levels/motivation drops off a cliff again. And I just ghost whatever girl I am talking to, social event I had planned, etc. I skip raves all the time cuz I often prefer rotting in my own room.
Other times I push myself to go, and it's basically always good fun and worth it. But then next weekend, somehow I again have no motivation to go to a rave again and rot at home. JFL.
Always I have this fucking feeling that a good-life, with anything I could ever wish for, is just a switch in my mind away. It's all possible with my physical/genetical state of being. It's just that I am so insanely mentally ill that I fail to take advantage of the world for my own benefit most of the time.
It's not necessarily that I self-sabotage. I am out there on the field, doing the things that are supposed to give me success.
But then when I get success-potential handed to me through some way, I stay passive instead of grabbing it. And then it floats past me.
Over tbh.
And I had these even before I used drugs, so that is not it. Although maybe it isn't helping.
Fuck my brain. I need chad-cocaine mindset all the time, not just when I do cocaine. I have it sometimes without drugs, but it's too rare.
