life is going like shit and i'm really struggling

[Chowdog]

Since quarantine haven't had much contact with other people except my family, school is going like trash and I'm probably failing this semester because everything I had to do I basically just neglected out of pure disgust for programming.

I do not have any fun when programming, I hate it. Just the idea of doing that shit for the rest of my life tightens my heart and sickens my stomach, I thought it would be fun to be able to learn how to create my own software and in the future project my ideas, but all I got is Java Script, HTML, PHP, C#, jQuery headaches.

Inside I feel like I am slowly descending into a dark place, a void of no hope and desperation. Going down into the pit of failure.
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I feel lightly depressed as I do not know what I will do in the near future because I always thought I would enjoy programming. It was what I really wanted to do since I was in school from the start. But the bad explanations from teachers, the overload in homework and not understanding most languages and what to do with certain functions to commit certain actions, the little reward you get for writing a shit ton of code and the absolute mess it is to look something up on Google about programming just complicates it even more.

Imagine being a kid and really really wanting to do something specific in the future, so u study for it. But when you actually get to do it, you don't find it fun, you just find it confusing and really boring.

Just fucking imagine writing lines of code for a living until the day you die.

I feel really lost and I'm glad I don't have a gun because sometimes I get some dark thoughts and a huge urge to blow my brain all over the wall.

Thanks if u read my shit post

 

[Ritalincel]

 

[Chad69]

Dn rd

 

[Chowdog]

Dn rd

 

[Ritalincel]

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[BrendioEEE]

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[Ritalincel]

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[Disabledcel]

R U Pajeet?

 

[Ritalincell]

Not a single word

 

[Chad69]

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Ok,Dont kill yoursrlf bro

 

[UnderCovrN0rmie]

 

[Chowdog]

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might as well fucking sell my arsehole for money

 

[Deleted member 4044]

Bide your time man.

Many people struggling these days.

I assume you are young. You have decades ahead of you.

If you can learn to handle yourself in these unstable times, you will be stronger for the future.

 

[UnderCovrN0rmie]

might as well fucking sell my arsehole for money

i fucking despise programming too, but if you turn into a prostitute then make sure to use protection don't want aids AND corona

 

[Chowdog]

i fucking despise programming too, but if you turn into a prostitute then make sure to use protection don't want aids AND corona

I just can't picture myself doing it for the rest of life, it already makes me feel miserable and it's such an anti-social area

Bide your time man.

Many people struggling these days.

I assume you are young. You have decades ahead of you.

If you can learn to handle yourself in these unstable times, you will be stronger for the future.

I won't be hanging from the ceiling any time soon, just had to get that off my chest

 

[Ritalincel]

 

[Sopdu]

literally shut the fuck up and toughen up pussy.

You become what you choose, you only change when you realise this

 

[Spartacus1-]

Legit. I tried html and css for one month and it felt like shit. Not that it was hard, it was just boring

 

[Deluded Normie]

Thats why you need to ascend and become a male model, thats what i want to do.

 

[Chowdog]

literally shut the fuck up and toughen up pussy.

You become what you choose, you only change when you realise this

Real alpha's aren't afraid to show emotion my nigga

Legit. I tried html and css for one month and it felt like shit. Not that it was hard, it was just boring

HTML and CSS are simple but extremely boring and it's an huge amount of work for little reward. If you want something harder try jQuery or Javascript.

Thats why you need to ascend and become a male model, thats what i want to do.

No man, that is extremely unreliable. There are ugly ass people becoming low-tier models, if you expect to make a living out of it you need to look different but yet attractive. You still need to ascend which means there will always be people that look better then u due to their genetics. Making them have a big edge in contracts and leaving you unemployed.

 

[Deluded Normie]

There are ugly ass people becoming low-tier models, if you expect to make a living out of it you need to look different but yet attractive.

If you look generic you can still become an IG model, look at Mario Rodriguez.

 

[Chowdog]

If you look generic you can still become an IG model, look at Mario Rodriguez.

Good fucking luck trying to look like that without a shit ton of money

 

[Deleted member 5632]

SAME
except i got a free pass into my final year of university
but i'm so down right now only thing i have is religion

 

[Chowdog]

SAME
except i got a free pass into my final year of university
but i'm so down right now only thing i have is religion

It would be my first year but there is no way i'm making it

R U Pajeet?

I'm not Pajeet

 

[Deleted member 4563]

Your dick is your friend

Unless you got it cut off by a mexican chick

 

[Deleted member 2205]

If you look generic you can still become an IG model, look at Mario Rodriguez.

Insta models don't get paid jack

 

[Nosecel]

Its over
Didnt read btw but who cares

 

[WBC323]

Change your subject/degree/whatever and do something interesting, or program for a while untill you get money and then go to college again for a career change