MoggerGaston
Ugly Subhuman Creature
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Update:
1) date with the HTB went exceptionally well. Top 3 dates of my life.
She's messaging me all the time and seems to be really into me, wanting to meet-up again.
Tbh I didn't act particularly NT with her. Neither was the sex any good, I just told her I was way too drunk as an excuse for my performance ngl. But I am inexperienced asf and unconfident. Idk what I am doing.
There wasn't anything that went 'really well' on the date. But on the flipside, nothing went wrong either. I think key giveaway is to not talk too much, let her do the talking. And let her get drunk asf. When ur nonNT/autist its better to say less and let her mind fill in the gaps about you.
Only thing I do well imo is cuddling. I love to wrestle and squeezing the shit out of girls. Also while I am sleeping I need to hug a girl tightly and have my arms around her neck.
Most of my foreplay is wrestling with girls and then fingering them eventually and her giving me a handjob. I don't like the actual penetration/sex most of the time tbh.
Unfortunately there's no LTR potential since I literally lied about everything, including my age, everything. Also using drugs to alter my personality on the date+ most of the time that I am chatting with her I am on drugs aswell. She has no idea of the NonNT autist I really am. I can't ever let her know.
I have no interest in a LTR based upon lies and deceit, having to be on drugs before she likes me. But still could be a longer-term FwB with similar benefits if I play my cards right and fraud NT hard. Just can never be my true self around her.
Still lifefuel ngl.
Had to adjust her looks-level from HTB to MTB though. The picture I showed is frauded hard. She's somewhat-overweight tbh, noticeable. Chubby. But she carries it well and I still find her attractive, which is the most important thing. The fat is in her tits and ass too which is just SMV-maxxed but not PSL-maxxed. Just not the looks-level of a girl I would seriously LTR due to this. I saw pics of her when she was younger + less fat and she was HTB then, just not anymore now.
Tbh should I just tell her I think she's too fat to make her lose weight? Or would it backfire. JFL. I guess it's not point anyways since I am not LTRing.
2) Student project went okayish. The contact with the huge international firm is very limited, so I don't have the 'good job lined up right after' as I thought. This company I do the project will hardly know who I am. But the project seems easy to complete and the people there are nice so it's not the worst.
In the end I find it very hard to feel any positive vibes from my study-progress since I am so far behind and I have had so many delays. I keep feeling like a subhuman underperformer cuz of my past.
Instead of feeling good about the progress I am making here, instead I feel bad about how far behind I am.
brutal, I am feeling slight descension mentally
1) date with the HTB went exceptionally well. Top 3 dates of my life.
She's messaging me all the time and seems to be really into me, wanting to meet-up again.
Tbh I didn't act particularly NT with her. Neither was the sex any good, I just told her I was way too drunk as an excuse for my performance ngl. But I am inexperienced asf and unconfident. Idk what I am doing.
There wasn't anything that went 'really well' on the date. But on the flipside, nothing went wrong either. I think key giveaway is to not talk too much, let her do the talking. And let her get drunk asf. When ur nonNT/autist its better to say less and let her mind fill in the gaps about you.
Only thing I do well imo is cuddling. I love to wrestle and squeezing the shit out of girls. Also while I am sleeping I need to hug a girl tightly and have my arms around her neck.
Most of my foreplay is wrestling with girls and then fingering them eventually and her giving me a handjob. I don't like the actual penetration/sex most of the time tbh.
Unfortunately there's no LTR potential since I literally lied about everything, including my age, everything. Also using drugs to alter my personality on the date+ most of the time that I am chatting with her I am on drugs aswell. She has no idea of the NonNT autist I really am. I can't ever let her know.
I have no interest in a LTR based upon lies and deceit, having to be on drugs before she likes me. But still could be a longer-term FwB with similar benefits if I play my cards right and fraud NT hard. Just can never be my true self around her.
Still lifefuel ngl.
Had to adjust her looks-level from HTB to MTB though. The picture I showed is frauded hard. She's somewhat-overweight tbh, noticeable. Chubby. But she carries it well and I still find her attractive, which is the most important thing. The fat is in her tits and ass too which is just SMV-maxxed but not PSL-maxxed. Just not the looks-level of a girl I would seriously LTR due to this. I saw pics of her when she was younger + less fat and she was HTB then, just not anymore now.
Tbh should I just tell her I think she's too fat to make her lose weight? Or would it backfire. JFL. I guess it's not point anyways since I am not LTRing.
2) Student project went okayish. The contact with the huge international firm is very limited, so I don't have the 'good job lined up right after' as I thought. This company I do the project will hardly know who I am. But the project seems easy to complete and the people there are nice so it's not the worst.
In the end I find it very hard to feel any positive vibes from my study-progress since I am so far behind and I have had so many delays. I keep feeling like a subhuman underperformer cuz of my past.
Instead of feeling good about the progress I am making here, instead I feel bad about how far behind I am.
brutal, I am feeling slight descension mentally
