nicpilled
boomer
- Joined
- Aug 25, 2026
- Posts
- 19
- Reputation
- 16
i am writing this in a hurry and just want to get my thoughts out, so please excuse punctuation mistakes.
the pain i am going through right now is unbearable. my parents made me take a break with my gf for no reason, and it is hell.
they've told me things that shook me to the very core. they said we had to take a break for almost two years! that we might not even be allowed to see each other again, and that they might make me switch schools, switch houses, or move away entirely, all for nothing.
how could they do this to me! i cant have someone special in my life anymore. i feel so alone. i feel like the main reason i was happy was because of her. They didnt even check to see what i thought about things. they just listened to a psychaitrist's exaggerations, he doesnt know anything. i hate this shit, it is not the right thing for me, everything is against me, all i hear from them is nonsense and blabber and also just yelling and yelling. everyone gives me a strange stare when i walk in public also. all i think about is her. i close my eyes and pretend im in a different place all the time. this is worse than any thing they've enforced on me, at least then i had their support, now i am all alone. i am going crazy, this is the worst pain i have ever felt. and my social life is worst than ever, and none of my buds want to hang out with me anymore. i am giving up on life. I am just going to do nothing and dream of how things were before. I am crying as i type this, i always feel like crying, i dont care anymore. i am speaking from my heart. i know i made mistakes in the past but ive told them i will turn around and change myself but they dont listen, i will try so hard to turn things around. i wish they would give me a second chance at life. i promised i would respect them no matter what and do everything i can to prove myself but nothing. i pleaded with them, they will see for themselves that this place is not right for me. i will even pay things myself. i just wished they would change their minds. or even let me even speak to her. being here has made me realize how great my life was before. i will do everything i can for them to turn things around and give me one more chance, just one more chance, this one thing for me. i picture it in my mind. it will be the best thing in the world, its all i think about.
i dont know how long i can take the pain in, i hate how things are. its driving me crazy, every moment i feel like crying.
the pain i am going through right now is unbearable. my parents made me take a break with my gf for no reason, and it is hell.
they've told me things that shook me to the very core. they said we had to take a break for almost two years! that we might not even be allowed to see each other again, and that they might make me switch schools, switch houses, or move away entirely, all for nothing.
how could they do this to me! i cant have someone special in my life anymore. i feel so alone. i feel like the main reason i was happy was because of her. They didnt even check to see what i thought about things. they just listened to a psychaitrist's exaggerations, he doesnt know anything. i hate this shit, it is not the right thing for me, everything is against me, all i hear from them is nonsense and blabber and also just yelling and yelling. everyone gives me a strange stare when i walk in public also. all i think about is her. i close my eyes and pretend im in a different place all the time. this is worse than any thing they've enforced on me, at least then i had their support, now i am all alone. i am going crazy, this is the worst pain i have ever felt. and my social life is worst than ever, and none of my buds want to hang out with me anymore. i am giving up on life. I am just going to do nothing and dream of how things were before. I am crying as i type this, i always feel like crying, i dont care anymore. i am speaking from my heart. i know i made mistakes in the past but ive told them i will turn around and change myself but they dont listen, i will try so hard to turn things around. i wish they would give me a second chance at life. i promised i would respect them no matter what and do everything i can to prove myself but nothing. i pleaded with them, they will see for themselves that this place is not right for me. i will even pay things myself. i just wished they would change their minds. or even let me even speak to her. being here has made me realize how great my life was before. i will do everything i can for them to turn things around and give me one more chance, just one more chance, this one thing for me. i picture it in my mind. it will be the best thing in the world, its all i think about.
i dont know how long i can take the pain in, i hate how things are. its driving me crazy, every moment i feel like crying.
