Rhevan
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what happend in last 4 moth
TW: SHARM
first month: i started to lose feeling for my gf, i distanced my self more and more and ignored her for weeks until i finally broke up
I was at my highest weight 94kg and on 500 test 8iu hgh
second month: still gymcelling, partying a lot and actually hanging out with friends and having a blast, hooked up with a wonderful girl (well come to her later)
last 2 month: test blast is over, might go back down to 200, blood pressure is still though the roof cuz i didnt care about my health for a month (175/90 or smth like that), still meeting up with that girl, we knock it off pretty well and shes cute.
I realize i started my last vial of test so i might order sum, fuck… i hit my credit card limit i need to wait 3 days for it to reset. Ordered gear form my source. Wait 1 week…, wait 2 weeks…. wait 3 weeks. get an email that my package didnt make it though customs and needs to be reshipped. No more test, no pct, nothing. Girl starts to distance from me. Im still emotionally attached. My test crashes. She wants to break up. I beg her to stay. She blocked me. Took 4mg of alpraz (xanax). A moot friend of her and me calls me. asks how i am. I confess. She spam calls me. Im nearly blacked out. Call an ambulanze wich tripsitted me. Next day shes PISSED. Said if i try to do that again shes gonna kill herself. Im still attached. I go downstairs to my mom wich i havnt talked to in a month. Stsrt balling my eyes out (20 yo grown man) (still crashed test at that time btw) we meet again (me and the girl). We have a great time. Then she doesnt want to see me no more. (Me still attached). One week goes by wich was hell cuz my cat died the same week and my mental health was at an all time low, lit went to the restroom at work to cry. I start to forget about her. start of second week she calls me, crying drunk. I said „lets meet tomorrow and well talk“. Next day she sends me a pic with a broken nose and broken leg and said i cant go outside and my parents are home. didnt meet her, said we rescedual. I start dreaming of her and missing her again. I text her a few times. My test finally arrives (4 weeks cold of atp) im starting to get sick. layin in bed all day shitposting storys. I said „fuck all woman im high test now“ she saw it, shes PISSED i said „fuck your on off thing i cant do this“ we argur and i block her on everything besides snap. I get a snap a few days later. Every feeling comes back, i see all old snaps from here with her pretty smile, i started crying. DMed back and froth arguued and then blocked her. I still miss her so badly and im still taking 3 xan bars a day to get through it. I also ordered my new cycle from a different source and it might be stuck at customs… AGAIN… what a luck. ill lose 1.2k if it doesnt make it. IDK what to do with my life rn nothing brings me joy ive lose 12 kg in the past 6 weeks and cant do anything besides layin in bed all day. I hate everything about my life rn.
If u actually read all this and got some good advice im really happy to hear. But sadly this forum is trash and full of rep farmers.
Also heres a pic of us happy together:
Dont really care if she sees this
Also ordered tren and heavy orals to gymcell more and maybe ill get some brain damage to be sub 80 IQ and happymax
TW: SHARM
first month: i started to lose feeling for my gf, i distanced my self more and more and ignored her for weeks until i finally broke up
I was at my highest weight 94kg and on 500 test 8iu hgh
second month: still gymcelling, partying a lot and actually hanging out with friends and having a blast, hooked up with a wonderful girl (well come to her later)
last 2 month: test blast is over, might go back down to 200, blood pressure is still though the roof cuz i didnt care about my health for a month (175/90 or smth like that), still meeting up with that girl, we knock it off pretty well and shes cute.
I realize i started my last vial of test so i might order sum, fuck… i hit my credit card limit i need to wait 3 days for it to reset. Ordered gear form my source. Wait 1 week…, wait 2 weeks…. wait 3 weeks. get an email that my package didnt make it though customs and needs to be reshipped. No more test, no pct, nothing. Girl starts to distance from me. Im still emotionally attached. My test crashes. She wants to break up. I beg her to stay. She blocked me. Took 4mg of alpraz (xanax). A moot friend of her and me calls me. asks how i am. I confess. She spam calls me. Im nearly blacked out. Call an ambulanze wich tripsitted me. Next day shes PISSED. Said if i try to do that again shes gonna kill herself. Im still attached. I go downstairs to my mom wich i havnt talked to in a month. Stsrt balling my eyes out (20 yo grown man) (still crashed test at that time btw) we meet again (me and the girl). We have a great time. Then she doesnt want to see me no more. (Me still attached). One week goes by wich was hell cuz my cat died the same week and my mental health was at an all time low, lit went to the restroom at work to cry. I start to forget about her. start of second week she calls me, crying drunk. I said „lets meet tomorrow and well talk“. Next day she sends me a pic with a broken nose and broken leg and said i cant go outside and my parents are home. didnt meet her, said we rescedual. I start dreaming of her and missing her again. I text her a few times. My test finally arrives (4 weeks cold of atp) im starting to get sick. layin in bed all day shitposting storys. I said „fuck all woman im high test now“ she saw it, shes PISSED i said „fuck your on off thing i cant do this“ we argur and i block her on everything besides snap. I get a snap a few days later. Every feeling comes back, i see all old snaps from here with her pretty smile, i started crying. DMed back and froth arguued and then blocked her. I still miss her so badly and im still taking 3 xan bars a day to get through it. I also ordered my new cycle from a different source and it might be stuck at customs… AGAIN… what a luck. ill lose 1.2k if it doesnt make it. IDK what to do with my life rn nothing brings me joy ive lose 12 kg in the past 6 weeks and cant do anything besides layin in bed all day. I hate everything about my life rn.
If u actually read all this and got some good advice im really happy to hear. But sadly this forum is trash and full of rep farmers.
Also heres a pic of us happy together:
Dont really care if she sees this
Also ordered tren and heavy orals to gymcell more and maybe ill get some brain damage to be sub 80 IQ and happymax
