mogs_me
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TW: this thread could be perceived as a brag thread to truecels. probably would seem pitiable to the average person, though
not really active in PSL anymore, but wanted to update you guys on some happenings and share some thoughts
if you don't know me from .net, this thread will probably be of no interest to you, and is not worth reading
in short, I lost my virginity at 24.5 yrs old
the girl was my platonic gbf of 3 years. she is quite attractive imo, but nothing crazy. a lot of people see the gbf thing as cucked, especially as she had 2 boyfriends for a solid portion of this time, personally I never really minded. I'm pretty lonely most of the time and I'll take any friends I can get, and she had a surprising amount in common with an autistic incel (me). it was nice to have a female perspective on some things, to argue against its retardation if for nothing else. she didn't know what I looked like for the first year or so that we knew each other, and we didn't meet up in person until the beginning of this year. we've hung out in person maybe 6 or so times without anything too weird happening. the whole time it felt mostly platonic, we'd both occasionally make flirtatious comments but the vibe was always that they were in jest.
yesterday she invited me to her apartment/city for what I think we both presumed to just be another platonic hangout. we did a bunch of stuff before going back to her apt and watching a movie, both drunk. eventually we cuddled and things escalated and she made the first move. I'll spare you most of the details but I struggled terribly with both major aspects, hardness and stamina. we tried again in the morning with very similarly poor results. she was unbelievably nice about the whole thing. im feeling like she almost just did it as a favor for me:
my feelings and thoughts on the experience: I feel very bad for her because of how hard I underperformed. maybe she expected some of it, she'd known that I was an incel for a while, but still, super terrible and definitely not pleasurable for her. I think I feel happy about losing the label of incel, but it hasn't really set in yet. the whole experience felt kind of surreal, like I was experiencing it in the third person. with how hard I fucked this whole thing up it also barely feels like it counted, but logically I suppose it does.
PSL/maxing conclusions:
-I never really did any serious looksmaxing despite many years on PSL. Things I did do: gym (lanklet with bad genetics, not much results), accutane (helped a lot), some slight fashionmaxxing.
-she said that a large reason she made the move was because of how good I smelled. shoutout armani stronger with you intensely (i had it before it became a tiktok NPC fragrance, but definitely still a top tier sweet scent)
feel free to ask any questions, not sure what I'll answer though
TL;DR - read the fourth line
not really active in PSL anymore, but wanted to update you guys on some happenings and share some thoughts
if you don't know me from .net, this thread will probably be of no interest to you, and is not worth reading
in short, I lost my virginity at 24.5 yrs old
the girl was my platonic gbf of 3 years. she is quite attractive imo, but nothing crazy. a lot of people see the gbf thing as cucked, especially as she had 2 boyfriends for a solid portion of this time, personally I never really minded. I'm pretty lonely most of the time and I'll take any friends I can get, and she had a surprising amount in common with an autistic incel (me). it was nice to have a female perspective on some things, to argue against its retardation if for nothing else. she didn't know what I looked like for the first year or so that we knew each other, and we didn't meet up in person until the beginning of this year. we've hung out in person maybe 6 or so times without anything too weird happening. the whole time it felt mostly platonic, we'd both occasionally make flirtatious comments but the vibe was always that they were in jest.
yesterday she invited me to her apartment/city for what I think we both presumed to just be another platonic hangout. we did a bunch of stuff before going back to her apt and watching a movie, both drunk. eventually we cuddled and things escalated and she made the first move. I'll spare you most of the details but I struggled terribly with both major aspects, hardness and stamina. we tried again in the morning with very similarly poor results. she was unbelievably nice about the whole thing. im feeling like she almost just did it as a favor for me:
my feelings and thoughts on the experience: I feel very bad for her because of how hard I underperformed. maybe she expected some of it, she'd known that I was an incel for a while, but still, super terrible and definitely not pleasurable for her. I think I feel happy about losing the label of incel, but it hasn't really set in yet. the whole experience felt kind of surreal, like I was experiencing it in the third person. with how hard I fucked this whole thing up it also barely feels like it counted, but logically I suppose it does.
PSL/maxing conclusions:
-I never really did any serious looksmaxing despite many years on PSL. Things I did do: gym (lanklet with bad genetics, not much results), accutane (helped a lot), some slight fashionmaxxing.
-she said that a large reason she made the move was because of how good I smelled. shoutout armani stronger with you intensely (i had it before it became a tiktok NPC fragrance, but definitely still a top tier sweet scent)
feel free to ask any questions, not sure what I'll answer though
TL;DR - read the fourth line
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