kanonaturalselector
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I thought I'd drop a rant on what life is like being me. for starters, I have been into this stuff for 3-4 years but I signed on .org a year ago or so. regardless, I tried to put blackpill aside and try to find ways to be a part of something, I constantly try to fit in with no success. recently I started hanging out with some people, but it feels like no matter how much I say things to fit in with them they find me annoying / disgusting. they usually make jokes about how I'm ugly or drop "hints" about how I'm ugly or comment on my appearance (even though I've done almost everything to improve my appearance) I've been to every psychologist and psychatrist in my city and not one has understood my pain, like the pain of seeing your teenage years fly away and knowing you're the only one stuck here, knowing you're the only one stuck thinking about what life could've been. and yes you could hardmaxx and try again but I feel like that's rare cases, I haven't seen many people able to pull it off. I can change everything about myself but I'll still be me. I'll never feel friendship, I'll never have sex, I'll never be enjoyable to be around and I'll always desperately try to be a part of something that I wasn't designed to ever be. a piece of advice to people who are still trying with 0 results : Give up.