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Beginning with when I realized looks mattered so much, I was 13 a high school freshmen I felt so disgusting with myself I was skinny yet I have a heaping amount of fat on me, and I knew that if I went to school looking like a fat pancake from the neck down I wouldn’t make a single friend, so I began to Strave myself most likely ruining crucial moments of puberty but I went forward and lost 30 pounds going down to a 100 pounds where’s my jawline?? Where’s my hollow cheeks?? I was so frustrated that all that and I didn’t have anything, so I gave up went on to the next grade joined a sport began bulking didn’t care for how I looked never will I told myself i didn’t get fat but I was jus an average dude. Until my senior I cut wieght for wresting and I got quite lean I was at the peak of my looks, after wrestling season I went back to bulking for swimming, that’s when something insane happened a girl took interest in me she messaged me on instagram that she thought I was the cutest guy and what not I didn’t believe it because I looked like shit at the moment eating McDonalds everyday did take a toll on my looks, I was right she mentioned she saw me a couple months ago and couldn’t stop crushing that’s when I realized she still thought I was that same lean guy, she tried to meet up but I canceled I dragged it on for 2 weeks before I had to block her. I didn’t want to block her but I was so afraid to disappoint her she was a 10/10 nothing short. I went back to my usual life and then 6 months later after highschool I started getting lean again taking care of myself and a whole year passed, I was so lonely I didn’t have the energy to talk to anyone knew so I unblocked her and somehow she didn’t have a boyfriend!!!! Within 2 weeks I got a date and since then we have been dating 9 months now, but I was always so insecure about my nose i thought it was so big but in reality it was only big because of my overbite class 2, and my lack luster chin projection. I can’t stop thinking about fixing it and I’m in the very early stages of fixing it the appointments are being scheduled for a professional to have an opinion and I’m hoping to go out of there within a year with genoplasty and BSSO that would be life changing I’ll actually have some confidence and perhaps finnaly pursue what I really love acting.
spot on
