zrzi
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I got in an argument with my brother 2 days in a row now, yesterday i TRULY fought with him for the first time with kicking because he just couldnt empathize to what I was going through. I have a history of brain injuries and everytime i thought recovered, i would just accidentally and somehow bump my head again. I can’t even live life normally anymore, I have to avoid horse playing with friends, I have to slowly rest my head on my bed and can’t let it drop, I can’t rest on my head in a car headrest. All this because someone decided it’d be funny to throw a football at the BACK of my head in the locker room while I was watching reels. Everytime I get another one I just get even more prone to that same sleepy, dizzy feeling. It increases 100% everytime so I can’t even do simple things. I felt so out of balance. So anyways, he kept saying that it was all my fault that it happened and that I led to all the bad things that happened to me and that I’m doing worse in school because of not studying and saying the brain damage isn’t a reason. If you were to live through what I went through you would get why I got furious and if you haven’t I doubt you understand the effects this has on your mental health and overall personality. I’m typically a laidback and chill guy and never really lash out but it just disgusted me how he tried to be little what I went through and genuinely could not have empathy. Now going today, we were driving back home from work and he just kept talking after I said I’m not apologizing for what I did since he still didn’t truly understand what this meant to me. This shit is literally the only thing I’m sensitive about in my entire existence. He was ducking the scrap and then everytime I walked away this dude would taunt me and my mom and dad is there so I’m not even going to strike him. I went to my room and overheard them talking about it and it led up to talking about my nose surgery and saying it’s connected to that since I got headbutted in a wrestling match and so the fact my mom was saying that made me tear up because no one truly understands what I’ve been through and am going through. I genuinely don’t know why I was born, the age gap is like 3-5 years between both my brothers. They didn’t even have to birth me. But anyways, I got my composure like I always do in public ( no corny shit but it’s real ) and said it’s not that and acted like I was doing something else in a different area of the house while I genuinely bawled my fucking eyes out. And I also remember overhearing her saying things she remembered that I told her which made me cry more because she understood the most part through which I told her. The details of not letting her touch my head while hugging her and when I used to tell her about what I was going through when I was dealing with it over a year ago. I will have to live like this forever. That guy ruined my life and I can’t do anything about it. The shit on TikTok talking about “your bullies life after” and it’s just them living the best life. That’s gonna be him I bet. I rarely cry so this just shows how much ts means to me. Is there anyone else that is going through the head trauma that I’ve described? When will it ever just end? Till I die? Sorry for the long yap, you can dnr it if you want. Peace.
